Princess Lilue

2012 is finally over and here comes 2013.

Favourite moments of 2012
Probably attending Big Bang Alive Tour in Stadium Merdeka in October. It was totally awesome!!! not to mention how difficult it was for me to manage to attend it. It was held the day after Aidil Adha, in KL. I told my mum that i wanted to return to KL right after our obligatory makan2, but since my brother & his siblings cant go back, we decided to celebrate it in KL instead. so right after we received that meat, we drove straight to KL and started preparing the house for the next day. i barely sat down from the moment i woke up the next day, until it was time for me to leave for the concert. i even missed a few more guests coz they came after Asar.
At the stadium, seems that some fans had camped there since morning & people kept on coming. We totally couldnt find the gate to our ticket entrance due to the massive people-jam & bad signage. when we finally got to our stand & waiting for the concert to start, it started pouring, heavier by the minute. we were afraid that the organisors might postpone or cancel the concert, but no one moved from their spot, rain or not. sure enough, the moment the curtain dropped, the rain finally stopped & the madness begins. ^_^ To finally being able to see Big Bang live, i almost didnt know where to look trying to follow Ji, Tae, TOP, Dae and VI.

I also managed to go to FT Island's Play earlier in the year. For the first time in my life, i can finally say that there's someone who sounds so so much better live than in recording. And you totally cant tell that Hongki, the lead singer was having flu that night given how active he was jumping through the nite. and his voice still sounds as amazing during the last song, as it was during the first one. It was also the first indoor concert that i've been to recently.

unfortunately i had to back out from attending BAP, although Elly said that they were really good.

Other non-kpop news, we finally have a princess in the house.. the first granddaughter for both sides, 7th's grandchild for my parents, and the first from my cousin's wife side. and yes, she was sitting on my mum's leg. haha..


p/s: i just realised that i didnt make my obligatory birthday post this year. as usual, nothing fancy. just another day at home. Nora came by for tea & chat. had a bunch of non-birthday related presents - christmas pressies and souvenir from my parents' trip to china. Good enough for me, i'm thankful for everything that i have, and all that i dont, for family and friends and that is blessing enough.

Do you bring the book(s) you’re reading with you when you go out? How? Physically, or in an e-reader of some kind? Have your habits in this regard changed? (I know I carried books with me more when I was in school than I do now–I can’t read while I’m driving to work, after all.)

So now i cant go anywhere without having something to read on hand, either on my phone or my ipad. And it allows me to read more when i travel, when before, i would be stuck with only one physical book & nothing to read once i’ve finished it. I would love to have a reader like kindle fire (since my Sony Reader is now defunct), but my ipad is really more than enough. there’s too many to read, too little time that i have as it is… haha… 

There are a lot of books being made into movies, these days (“Anna Karenina“; etc). So, this week’s musing — courtesy of http://abookandashortlatte.wordpress.com — asks…

Have you ever read a book after watching the movie/television version only to find that you don’t like the book as much as the adaptation?

I normally do prefer the book version rather than the movie/tv version and i normally have read the book prior to the movie. Some books vs movies goes in a different course than each other, but nevertheless enjoyable either version (for example Harry Potter series). But the one book that i didnt like as much, as compared to the movie was Inkheart. Not sure whether it was because i read the book after watching the movie, but i thought the book was a little long-winded. it was nonetheless, still a pretty good story.. :)

i realised that i've answered a similar question to this before.. hehe
lilue.blogspot.com/2009/08/musing-monday-aug-17.html

This is after all, the season of Eid.
You are supposed to go visiting,
to meet up with relatives,
to forgive & forget.

I've tried to avoid any chance meeting with your clan.
Not so much because i cant handle it.
But rather that i dont really see a need for it.
After all, i'm not your favourite person in the world.

I also dont want to have to sit through a fake "oh-long-time-no-see", Acting as though we're all chummy-chummy & cant wait to catch-up on our lives.

And lastly, i dont want to fuel up other arguments or provide you stories that might use against me, and yes, i know that you will do so anyway. You've managed to keep pretty up-to-date on my life As it is. I dont even know what is it about my life that you find soooooo darn interesting in the first place.

So as much as i dont really care what you think of me, the main thing is i dont actually want to be thinking of you. At all. So lets just stay the heck away from each other & not butt into each other's life.. Savvy?







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It really surprises me how some people cant accept the kpop phenomena. I mean, sure you can act dumb & deny all you want, but they are really here to stay. Is bashing them gonna get you anywhere? Will people stop listening to them just for the sake of supporting local artist? Trying to win not by playing the game but suppressing/kick out the competition? Is that how you want to play it?

Plus my interest may not be the same as you. I'm not crazy over yuna, but that doesnt mean that she's not good. I may be crazy over err.. Who ek.. Say KRU for instance, but not everyone is into hip hop & such.. Does that make them bad? Nope.

Opps time out!

Subhanallah... I mean how difficult is it to have a decent discussion, when you can even argue your point across!!!! Heck, i'm the worst at arguing but this is too much.

H: why do you like kpop so much?
Me: they're good, fun. The artists are Dedicated, impressive.cultural influence are still there.
H: you only see the good side they show on tv. Real korean are not that nice. Japanese are better.
Me: i may like their songs/drama, doesnt mean i like every single person. The one i do admire, are admired amongst korean themselves.
H: so you're saying local artist are corrupt?
Me: err not corrupt. Just that they dont work hard enough. And no humility.
H: but we do have artists who has had a breakthrough in us market. Still not impressed?
Me: sure. Miss nina, yuna, zee avi have good songs. Aizat too, he can go far.
H: u said you dont like malay songs.
Me: i dont have to like a artists to appreciate a good song.
H: but u said malaysian artists are not impressive.
Me: i said most malaysian artists. Not all.
H: then u should give them a chance.
Me: i can appreciate a good song anytime. Show me and i'll listen. In the mean time, i'll stick to my kpop unless you can show me better.
H: then you should start by listening to sudirman
Me: _¥\{]'£].{,}€*!,]}!€+}!*^,}^%]????????????????

If i sticked to evergreen songs, which have proven the test of time, still doesnt mean that i'd listen to some crappy song currently in the market right?







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i had finally the chance to go to FT Island's first solo concert here in Malaysia. They were supposed to have a concert sometime back in 2008, but apparently was screwed by the organizing company, hence it got cancelled. They were also part of the 2011 Korean Music Wave concert, which btw I also managed to attend.
Admittedly, I only knew of FTI because of Hongki. Mainly from the drama you're beautiful which Hongki plays a cute drummer named Jeremy. Also from his association with other celebs like JGS, heechul, Simon d, Kyu and of coz their labelmate, CN Blue. And then there's the Immortal Songs show that Hongki was a part of..
After an amazing performance during KMW, both myself & Elly didn't want to miss a chance of seeing a full-fledge concert by FTI & we were not disappointed. The event was well-organized & started on time. FTI managed to handle the crowd, even with their limited English, without using any help from an MC or interpreter. Hats off to them for being able to communicate well, even if they did stumble at a point. Haha.
Within that 2hour, They managed to serve a whopping 23 powerful songs, with barely a break in between. and when I said powerful, Hongki's voice is totally awesome. Plus he is such an energetic performer & totally at ease on stage. And he actually had a cold and yet he still sounds better live than from the album itself. Now that is what i call true talent.
Surprisingly most of the primadonnas was malay. Totally wasnt expecting that. Even saw some fanboys too, although i was expecting a lil more, given that FTI are more band than an idol group. And the crowd was pretty well behave i'd have to say. Compared to the rowdy Elfs, and loud spoken VIPs we saw at KMW, Pris are a welcome sight.
All in all, it was totally worth our time & money. First time i've ever witness someone who can sings better than their own album. Daebak!!

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Location:Stadium negara

If i ever go look for another job.. Please remind me to NEVER again look for a job in a listed company!! Uwaa, so many requirement & regulations to mind, word per word is gold..
Adeh, pressure!!


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Omg.. My brains are a total mess today. I cant focus on anything.. Help!! Should have taken leave, would have been more productive.. :p


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I'm not asking for much, right? 
If he can make fun of my job.. the music that i love.. the way i live my life.. 
is this is joke for him? have you no respect for me? 
you may think you're being witty, but i see it as disrespect


If you want to show your love, you'd find out what she loves, what she likes, what she dont like. not make fun of her. this is not kindergarten & we're not 5years old, playing catch. 

I know i'm a kpop fanatic & i love almost everything korean. I cant specifically explain why but i do.
Is it wrong?
Am i hurting anyone?
Do i bash your interest?
No, right? So let me be la..

How do you expect to be in my life if you cant handle/make allowances for my obsession?

Also, i have absolutely nothing against you & i know you are a good guy, but dont shoot me for saying that our conversations are too.. Hmm.. What word should i use?.. "cold" ? "no chemistry"? Is chemistry required to have a good relationship? I wouldnt know. :p

and why is it that i have to be the one to make the effort? You're the guy right? Just coz you are shy or clueless, doesnt excuse you from at least meeting me halfway. So sue me for preferring Leaders like Hyun Joong & Jiyong, whose character i truly admire, not just their looks.

So how now brown cow?


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Happy valentines? I dont celebrate it but no harm for me to ogle my favourite guy, right? especially when he looks like this.. *swoon*

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Hmmm.. i wonder if i can reach 20.. apart from the top 4, the rest are not in any specific orders..

1. Hyun Joong
2. G Dragon
3. TOP
4. Jae Joong
5. Hongki
6. Yonghwa
7. Jonghun
8. Jonghyun
9. Yoseob
10. Nickhun
11. Jang Geun Seuk
12. Yoo Ah In
13. Yoochun
14. Junsu
15. Rain
16. Young Saeng
17. Jung Min
18. Hyung Joon
19. Kyu Jong
20. Jinwoon

there's also a few bands that i listen to, but they're not exactly my biases like mblaq, clover, aziatic, mib, shinee, se7en, tablo, etc..

aha...

i just realised something....

i can spend hours "mengodek"/ "fiddlying" with my budget/forecast/analysis file...
but i get stressed when i have to do:
- recon work
- transactionional steps.
- trouble shotting copa/system and/or tracing some movement in sap. (somehow i'm still okay with excel)

hmmm.. what does that mean.. hehehe...

Is it possible to be bored working with people?
to not want to work with people?
Isnt there a job that do not require you to deal much with people? stand alone projects maybe?
i dont mind.

Sigh..
People skills, delegations and follow ups are not my strength.
And at the moment, i am not really looking into improving my weaknesses, even though i know i should.

and i also need to work on NOT being so nice.
Gotta be more assertive & "garang".
errr.. how? that is hard...

and there's so much expectations on being a manager.
on leadership.
on proposal for improvements.
on having your input in just about every single projects.
on keeping others on their toes.

sigh. i know its what i need to do it but...


p/s: another thing. i know i need to pick up/understand transactional process/logic, but i really, really dont like it. i dont mind analysing work. but i admit i'm not very good at the nitty, gritty details. i'm not patient enough. :(

Its so difficult sometimes..
When you're at point a & you know you need to get to point b & you can see what point b "looks like".. But you have absolutely no idea how to get from point a to b.

Or maybe its just that i'm not patient enough. :(


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Just my 2 cents worth on the just-finished AJL26:

- totally did not get the "wanita seluruh dunia" & "gadis semasa". It was a bit mumbly & cant quite catch their lyrics for most part.
- somehow "kekanda adinda" didnt have the same kick as it usually does. Sound problems maybe? Same goes to lagu "kalau berpacaran", suhaimi & altimet did good, ana was a lil off.
- faizal tahir didnt rock it like usual either. And the gimic was getting a lil old.
- 3 suara, although was good, i also think they didnt push it to become great. Well, at least to my tone deaf ears, i thought they could have done better. But yeah, vocally they were outstanding. Still, jac couldnt replace anuar zain. Nope.
- aizat & of coz hafiz was amazing. No doubt about it.
- alyah too.
- najwa latif was so cool & delivered her song without a hitch. Good for her :)
- less gimic, more simple performance based on vocals. Not even gaggles of dancers to fill up the stage. I so like this concept!

Overall, the lot tonite consist of a lot of self composers (aizat, yuna, najwalatiff, pistol, monoloque, ana/suhaimi/altimet) and the girls all guitar-player (yuna, najwa, ana raffali). Seems like a pretty interesting future.

But i do think its a shame that they got rid of the irama malaysia sections. Yeah, not that many listen to them, & chances to win are almost none. But should not kick them aside either. You'd lose a big chuck of local culture that way..


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How do you know..

if you have chemistry with that person?

if that person is the one?

is it something you built up? this chemistry thing?

i find it very difficult to make friends. let alone to find the one. its a very rare thing for me to find a friend like Elly, who eerily happens to have a tons of things in common with me. ^_^ from our choices of men, music, kpop, kdrama to family, life in general & etc. obviously kpop, or specifically hyun joong was the reason we started connecting to each other. heck, we "talk" through whatsapp, twitter, fb, gmail/yahoo & office mail on daily basis now. and now that my office is right in front of hers, means we also get to have lots of last minute lunch dates. but she'll be moving soon, although not too far, but not as convenient as it is now.

so this new guy i met.
i've yet to see him in person (he has been pointed out to me before & i guess vice versa).
i've also yet to hear his voice over the phone.
i have been "talking" to him via sms (every 2 days. very specific one this guy).
so i am not making any specific decisions.
and i am reserving my full judgement when i actually get to see how we interact with each other in person.
i have no doubt he's a nice guy, i can tell from his messages (plus the things that i've been told upfront).
i have no issue with his background/job/qualification/whatever else you'd look in a partner that is.
and i know he's kinda shy.
and his messages are not rigid/serious. in fact he's quite the witty-joker type.

we "talk" but at the same time i feel like its not..erm.. it doesnt flow very well.
i dont know if its because he's not the greatest conversationalist.
i dont know if its because he's just very reserved. & careful about what he says.
i do know that if i'm going to be with a guy for the rest of my life, i need to be able to talk to him.
which for me who dont converse well myself, is a difficult feat to accomplish.

so now how? guess i'll have to wait and see how this plays out.

Since i've gotten my new toy... there are a few adjustments that i think i need to do.

Firstly, i seriously need to wifi-ed my house. yess.. i am still using streamyx, connected by wire *shock* to the modem. ha ha. since this is the cny week, most digital outlets are still closed, so i'll have to wait. it's just getting that router thingy right? i'm have to decipher it somehow on how to set it up.. :p any nerd-alert around? hehhe

secondly.. with such a huge gadget, i think i need re-look at my "mode of transportation" aka my handbag. at the moment, i have err loads of craps in it really..and an ipad barely fit in there anyway (if i plan to zip it up i mean). and the whole point of having one is it's portability isnt it? i might not be carrying it every single day (but then why not? reality check: as if i have the time) but i want to at least be able to carry it around when i want to. but i also dont want to look like i'm carrying a luggage bag with me either.

am surveying for a larger handbag. these are some of the designs that i like.. mind you, designs aka shape, not brands .. coz i doubt i can afford an original ones. but wouldnt it be really amazing if i can get an original wont it? haha.. i prefer the squishy type, preferably leather rather than the hard-shaped & shiny type. err i'm too "ganas" & i'll probably be knocking things over with my bags, so i dont want to have scratches & lines & whatnots on my bag. anyway, these below are a dream. where can i get me one of these babies?

I feel like a 2-year old for feeling this way but i cant help it.

I may not be on my death bed, but when i say i'm sick, i truly am sick. And i'm not just fishing for sympathy, but you could have at least shown some, maybe a lil bit concern. Even statuesque/no-expression hyun joong can buy his buin medicines behind her back, you cant even be bothered to ask me how am i doing?

People say its the little things that count. I dont care about your money, your big cars & whatnots.. And i can only read so much from the crumbs of lines that you gave me. So forgive me if i make my own conclusion. I've been on my own for far too long so no worries about me not being able to take care of myself.. but if you plan to be in my life, you better make it a good one, coz otherwise, please.... Just leave me alone!!



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Testing out my new toy.. The downpart is I'm still down with fever & flu & coughing... But sick or not, my new toy is too exciting to stay away from... Heheh

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Do i know what i'm doing? Hell, no! :p




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Maybe its just me... but as much as i really like these songs.. i cant help but feel that there's something really wrong with it.. :p

Adele's Someone like you - okay, i get it. your ex/crush already got married & you wished him well. cant you just leave it at that? Why does it have to be "I'd hoped you'd see my face & be reminded that for me its isnt over" ? for me, i'd tell those guys - see my face & know that i'm doing fine without you. i wish you well but i wont find someone like you, i'd find someone better than you...

Bruno Mars' Marry You - Really love this song.. but really, is marriage "something dumb to do" ? you "think" you want to marry me? and if we wake up & want to break up - its "cool"? i so wouldnt marry you if that's how you ask me.... :p

sigh.. #IfYouWereMine....