Nov 8, 2008

There's this Japanese drama i watched before, but never finished, until now.. a true story about 15-year old Aya Kito (or in the drama Aya Ikeuchi) based on her diary, who had an incurable degenerative disease.. about her struggles & how she remained positive about it and lived her life til the end.
A portion of the drama was about the love she had with a classmate of hers, Haruto Asou. Whether this happened in real life, i'm not too sure but it was in the drama. Originally, she had a crush on her senior, but the guy bailed out on her when he found out that she was sick. Haturo, on the other hand, initially a very aloof guy & angry at the world (due to his older brother's death) etc, was able to relate to Aya's pain in facing death.
In the drama, what stood out to me was how typically Asian on how Haruto handled his feelings for Aya.. hehe, at least that's what i think.. i mean all he did was watch her silently from afar. He would just be beside her, listening to her. He would accompany her when she couldnt join the sports club. Treat her like normal, when others shun her & complained that she was a burden to them. He lets her cry & vent her frustration about her disease. He did his own research into the desease, plus going into medical school for her. He also had to endure his father's objection against his relationship with Aya.
There was no big show of affection like holding hands, or going out on dates, or official title of girlfriend/boyfriend. There's no showers of gifts except that one time when he bought her a dolphin phone tag (same as his) to remember their date at the aquarium. Of course, there's also that beautiful plant he brought for her when she moved to the hospital.
But it's the little things that he does that shows how much he loved her. Memang mamat tuh sayang giler la, even if she's in a wheelchair & cant barely talk.

The closest thing to "i love you" that Asou-kun had ever told Aya-chan...awww, sweet sangat..:
Is it okay if i say what i'm feeling right now?
I dont know what's gonna happen in the future.
But right now, what i'm feeling is 100% not a lie.
I can say that with confidence.
For me, as long as it's you that saying it, it doesnt matter how slowly you say it, i'll still listen.
If you cant talk over the phone, then i'll come to see you, just like this.
I'm not a dolphin. You, you're also not a dolphin.
If you want to walk, no matter how slow it'll be, i will walk with you.
Right now, i might not be that reliable.
One day, maybe i'll be able to help.
Things cant be the same as they were before, but there's this kind of feeling that's linking us together.
I dont think that we're living in different worlds.
I.. with regards to you...
I like you.
Maybe.
I like you, maybe. (smilling)
Probably.

http://www.mysoju.com/1-litre-of-tears/episode-9/part-4/

Will i ever find a love like that, if not as great as the story, but at least a fraction of it?

With my upcoming trip, i so wanted to get myself some new toys.. plus i wont be around during my birthday next month.. so this is kinda the wish list that i have right now..


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as u can see, i do have a thing for all things pink.. ahaks.. however, i never seem to end up buying any.. hehe.. as always, my practical side is pushing me to go for these instead (seeing that they're on sale & supposedly provide better picture & last longer..)




or

So which ones do you recommend that i buy.. ?


plus other gadgets that i'm eyeing as well..

Sep 4, 2008

1. Throw out nonessential numbers.
This includes age, weight, and height.
Let the doctors worry about them.. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)

3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain get idle.
‘An idle mind is the devil’s workshop.’
And the devil’s name is Alzheimer’s!

4. Enjoy the simple things
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of
time with him or her!

6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself.
LIVE while you are alive.

7 Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it’s family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don’t take guilt trips.
Take a trip to the mall, even to a foreign country, but NOT to where the
guilt is

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

And if you don’t send this to at least four people - who cares? But do
share this with someone.

Aug 31, 2008

Wishing everyone out there happy Ramadhan & may all your good deeds for the month be accepted by Allah...



Allah berfirman, yang artinya :
"Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang mendo'a apabila ia berdo'a kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) –Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran". (QS> Al Baqarah 186)

Menghadapi bulan yang penuh barakah Allah Ta'ala, hendaklah kita memanfaatkannya untuk memperbanyak amalan-amalan ibadah, yang mana jika seseorang yang tidak mengisi waktu-waktunya terutama disaat Ramadhan niscaya dia akan menyesal, Sedangkan penyesalan itu tidak akan berguna. Di antara bentuk ibadah yang besar adalah zikir dan berdo'a, disini saya ambil zikir dan do'a bulan Ramadhan karya Syeikh Bakr bin Abu Zaid hafizhahullah seorang ulama anggota Darul Ifta' Saudi. Semoga bermanfaat untuk kita semua.

1. Do'a apabila datang bulan Ramadhan, dengan mengucapkan :

الْلَّهُمَّ سَلَّمْنِي رَمَضَانَ وَسلَّمْ رَمَضَانَ لِي وَتَسَلَّمْهُ مِنَّي

Ya Allah hantarkanlah diriku kepada bulan Ramadhan dan hantarkanlah bulan Ramadhan kepada diriku dan terimalah (amalan-amalan) Ramadhan dariku.

2. Kabar gembira dengan masuknya bulan Ramadhan, sebagaimana disebutkan dalam hadits Abu Hurairah RA.:

كَانَ رَسُوْاللَّه يُبَشَّرُ أَصْحَابَهُ بِقُدُوْمِ رمَضاَنَ يَقُوْلَ:
قَدْ جَاعَكُمْ شَهْرُ رَمَضَانَ شَهرٌمُبَارَكٌ

Rasulullah SAW biasa memberikan kabar gembira kepada para sahabatnya dengan datangnya bulan Ramadhan, Beliau bersabda: "Telah datang kepada kalian bulan Ramadhan, bulan yang penuh berkah…" (HR. Ahmad dan An-Nasa'i).

3. Do'a dari orang berpuasa secara mutlak di bulan Ramadhan, karena kemuliaan waktu dan keadaan orang-orang yang berpuasa, lebih lagi dengan memperbanyak zikir. Yang paling utama adalah membaca Al-qur'an.

4. Menyengaja berdo'a dengan penuh semangat pada malam-malam sepuluh yang terakhir dengan harapan bertepatan dengan malam Lailatul Qadar, sebagaimana telah dishahih dari Nabi SAW bahwa Beliau mengajarkan do'a kepada Aisyah RA :

اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌ تُحِبُّ العَفْوَفَاعْفُ عنَّي

Ya Allah, Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemaaf dan menyukai maaf, maka maafkanlah aku".

Tidak shahih dalam hadits ini. "عَفُوٌ Setelah lafazh " " كَرِيْمٌ " kata Adapun tambahan

5. Do'a ketika berbuka:

ذَهَبَ الظَّمَأُ وَابْتَلَّتِ الْعُرُوْقُ وَشَبَتَ الأَجْرُ إِنْ شَاءَاللََّهُ

Telah sirna rasa haus, telah basah tenggorokan dan telah pasti pahala,jika Allah kehendaki.

Tentang do'a berbuka puasa ini telah diriwayatkan ada lima (5) macam yang tidak shahih, di antaranya dengan lafazh :

اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ صُمْتُ وَعَلَىرزْقِكَ أَفْطَرْتُ

Ya Allah, untukMu aku berpuasa dan dengan rizkiMu aku berbuka (Sanad hadits ini dhaif).

Begitu pula dengan lafazh lainya merupakan Sanad hadits yang dhaif (tidak shahih).
Ada riwayat dari Ibnu Umar RA secara marfu':

كَانَ النَّبِي إِذَا لَقَمَ أَوَّلَ لُقْمَةِ قَالَ: يَا وَاسِعَ الْمَغْفِرَةِ اغَفِرْ لِي.

Adalah Nabi SAW apabila menelan makanan untuk kali pertama beliau membaca : "wahai Dzat yang Maha luas mahfirahnya, ampunilah aku".

Kemudian hadits ini mutlaq (umum), tidak ada pengkhususan untuk puasa dan tidak pula untuk yang lain.

6. Do'a ketika berbuka puasa pada suatu kaum, dengan do'a yang artinya :
"Telah berbuka orang-orang yang puasa disisi kalian, telah memakan makanan kalian orang-orang yang baik dan para malaikat bershalawat atas kalian".

7. Do'a Tatkala sahur
Tetapi tidak ada do'a khusus untuk hal ini, namun karena keumuman firman Allah:

وَبِاْلأَسْحَارِ هُمْ يَسْتَغْفِرُونَ

Dan ketika sahur mereka beristighfar. (QS. Adz-Dzaariyaat 18).

8. Do'a ketika keluar dari bulan Ramadhan.
Hal ini ditunjukkan oleh alur ayat yang telah disebutkan.

9. Apabila seseorang mencaci atau mencelakai orang yang sedang berpuasa, maka hendaklah ia mengatakan: "Aku sedang berpuasa" sebagaimana yang disebutkan didalam shahihain (shahih Bukhari dan shahih Muslim) dan yang lain. Sama saja baik puasa sunnah atau puasa wajib. Apakah ini di ucapkan dengan suara keras atau pelan? Dalam hal ini terdapat ikhtilaf (perbedaan pendapat) dan yang shahih adalah di ucapkan dengan suara terang-terangan, inilah yang dipilih oleh Syaikhul Islam Ibnu Taimiyah Raakhiimullah.

Aug 30, 2008

I was just surfing the net when i came across this song... Sang by the Korean group, Dong Ban Shin Gi (DBSK) aka Tong Vfang Xien Qi (TVXQ) aka Tohoshinki (note: 1st-korean name, 2nd- chinese name, 3rd-japanese name.. why they need 3 different names for the 3 different countries is beyond me.. hehe)

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Anyway, apparently this is one of their latest single:-
Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou (Why did i fall in love with you?)

Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)


Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou? (..couldn’t I call out to you at all?)
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi (Every day and night growing emotions)
Aturedasu kotoba (And words overflow)
Wakatteta noni (But I realised that)
Mou todokanai (They'd never reach you again)


Hajimete deatta sono hi kara (Since that day I first met you)
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda (I felt like I already know you)
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari (You and I melted into each other so smoothly)
Doko ni ibu nori mo issho de kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de (It was natural for me to be where you were)
Bokura wa futari de otonani natte kita (The two of us grew up together)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)

Doushite… (Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Mou kanawanai (Now we can't turn back)

Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo (The special meaning held by this day)
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo (Today you stood with a happy expression)
Kireina sugata dekami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo (You looked so beautiful while praying to god)
Boku janai hito no tonari de (But I wasn't the one next to you)
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo (And the image of you receiving blessings)
Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou? (Of that how could i let go?)


Mou Doushite… (So, Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Ano koro no bokura no koto (How we were before)
Mou modorenai (We can't return to it anymore)
kangaeta kangaeta/modorenai (We can't return/I've thought it through)

Doushite… (Why..)
..kimi wo te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou? (..didn't I hold on to your hand?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Boku no yoko ni iru hazu datta (You should've always been by my side)
Sono mama nii (Just like this)

Soredemo kimi ga boku no soba nara to itte mo (But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore)
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto (I'm praying that you)
Tada negatteru (May be happy for eternity)
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo.. (No matter how much that would make me lonely..)
setsunakute mo (.. or show sad)


If you have never told her how you felt, how can you expect her to wait for you? agak hampeh jugak lelaki ini.. hehe..

Aug 29, 2008

"Having a crush is a euphoric, desperate, compulsive state of being...."
Or at least i've read that somewhere.. hehe.. to me, crushes are so exciting.. it makes your day just to see them.. Especially since your object of interest do not know about it (most of the time.. hehe) ...
There's this guy..
soooo cute..
works in my department..
who's also an acquaintance of mine... hehe..
A few days ago, we had a function at the office.. as usual, i somehow got roped into it.. all for fun, right? as i waited for our turn, had to go check on our music..while trying to cross over to the "dj" area, had a criss cross incident with a girl who's trying to go the opposite way.. somehow i ended up 'falling' onto him, who was leaning on the wall/back row, with the other guys watching the show.. seriously - it was NOT intentional.. hehe.. both of us just laughed it off, of course..
And he look oh so cute today in casual outfit... awww.. :)
p/s: it's only a crush. dont take it too seriously coz i dont. it's not something i want to be real. just a little fantasy to escape the reality.. ahaks..

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
I miss you.. i do? sapa ek (who)?

2.How would you describe yourself?
Kasih Berubah.. hmm, i dont think so..

3.What do you like in a guy?
Les Yeux Ouverts (French Kiss) - haha.. u wish la..

4.How do you feel today?
Cahaya .. err, there was sunshine for a while this morning after a whole week of pouring rain..

5.What is your life's purpose?
La Bamba .. yup, i plan to live in La La land forever..hehe..

6.What is your motto?
Wajah Kesayangan Hamba .. meaning?

7. What do your friends think of you?
The Gift .. but of course.. *wink*

8.What do you think of your parents?
The way you make me feel loved..

9.What do you think about very often?
What hurts the most .. hmmm ..

10.What is 2 + 2?
Tak bisa memilihmu .. guess it doesn't equal to you..

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Tonight I celebrate my love ... :)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Untitled .. how appropriate.. hehe..

13.What is your life story?
So Young .. so i am... hehe

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
By Your Side ..whomever you are..

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Asmara Ini .. hey, so not..!

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
The man you love ...i hope so..

17.What will they play at your funeral?
All Out Of Love

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Clumsy .. does this mean i'm too clumsy to have any hobby/interest?

19.What is your biggest fear?
I Don’t Want to be .. apa ek..?

20.What is your biggest secret?
Back At One ..shh..

21.What do you think of your friends
You’ll think of me ..& you will.. haha..

22.What will you post this as?
Wonderful Tonight


Anyone wants to try this is welcomed to it..

Aug 27, 2008


Saw the news on the net.. Lee Eon, a.k.a Korean drama Coffee Prince's Hwang Min Yeop, died on Thursday (22 Aug) due to a motorcycle accident.. omg.. apparently he was on his way home after a party when the accident occured. And the saddest part was, he's only 27 yrs old.. Guess we never really know when our time will come huh..

i so loved Coffee Prince.. It's basically a love story between Han Kyul, the rich, carefree heir & hardworking, down-on-her-luck, boyish looking Eun Chan.. They started falling for each other while working at Han Kyul's coffee shop, which his grandmother forced him to managed. However, chaos arises as Han Kyul who didn't know that Eun Chan's a girl, tries to deny his feeling for her..

Btw, Min Yeop is one of the "prince" who works in the same coffee shop, as well as Eun Chan's sister's boyfriend.. fuh, what a mouthful.. ;p

Aug 25, 2008

i think "James Lucas Scott" aka "Jamie" is the cutest kid ever.. hehe.. well, probably not, my nephews are wayy cuter/more handsome & much funnier.. hehe.. anyway, i l-o-v-e both of you, nephews.. muah!!

Aug 20, 2008

What happened to us? You know? I don't know who I am anymore. Or how I got here. I miss who I used to be. I wanna have a home again, you know? And real friends. You know, the kind of friendships we used to believe in. I miss that. And I miss you. I guess I miss all of it. Does any of that make any sense?

- Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill

Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. Find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you are leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Surah Al-Kautsar

Surah ini paling pendek, hanya mengandungi 3 ayat & diturunkan di Makkah dan bermaksud sungai di syurga. Kolam sungai ini diperbuat daripada batu permata nan indah dan cantik.

Rasanya lebih manis daripada madu, warnanya pula lebih putih daripada susu dan lebih wangi daripada kasturi.

Surah ini disifatkan sebagai surah penghibur hati Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. kerana diturunkan ketika baginda bersedih atas kematian 2 orang yang dikasihi iaitu anak lelakinya Ibrahim dan bapa saudaranya Abu Talib.

Pelbagai khasiat terkandung di dalam surah ini dan boleh kita amalkan:-

1 ) Baca surah ini ketika hujan dan berdoa, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. makbulkan doa kita.

2) Jika kita kehausan dan tiada air, bacalah surah ini dan gosok di leher, Insya'allah hilang dahaga.

3) Jika sering sakit mata, seperti berair, gatal, bengkak, sapukan air mawar yang sudah dibacakan surah ini sebanyak 10x pada mata.

4) Jika rumah dipercayai terkena sihir, baca surah ini 10x, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. bagi ilham pada kita dimana letaknya sihir itu.

5) Jika membacanya 1,000x rezeki kita akan bertambah.

6) Jika rajin membacanya, hati kita akan menjadi lembut dan khusyuk ketika menunaikan solat.

7) Jika orang teraniaya dan terpenjara membacanya sebanyak 71x, Allah s.w.t . akan memberikan bantuan kepadanya kerana dia tidak bersalah tetapi dizalimi.

Perkara yg baik kita amalkan slalu.

Wassallam.

Aug 19, 2008

How do you feel if you came face-to-face with people from your past? People, who at one time, was a big part of your life .. or heck, just came across their pictures, of their happy lives, with someone else.. ? I mean, chances are, since they were your 'friend', they're also friends of your friends..meaning that chances of that happening are pretty good.. we somehow dont run thaaat far off from those few circles of friends that we have.. so yeah, you kinda never managed to get rid of them from your life...

These incidents are not made intentionally.. to specifically taunt you for some twisted reasons.. most of the time anyway, ha ha..

But when that happens, do you walk away ?
Do you take a walk down memory lane & think about the what-ifs ?
Do you resent them for being happy with other people instead of you?
or it just makes no difference to you maybe?

But, then, who am i kidding..? They may had meant something in my life at one time & that will never go away. That's just not life that i see for myself, as hard as it was to let go.. it was just not meant to be..

But man, if only la my life even makes sense right now, at least it wouldnt be so hard to not be jealous of other people's life.. ha..

Aug 15, 2008


I would so recommend seeing the new movie, Wall-e.. the story is so adorable & cute however, carries a very serious message. Salute to Pixar for being able to convey such a heavy message in a creative & lighthearted way.

Aug 3, 2008

I managed to catch the Sunrise action with Mdm KS. Really loved the last act - the violinist & the sax.. man, it was good..! those guys are really talented..

Jun 10, 2008




What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You



You are sophisticated, modern, and high class.

Your taste is refined, but you are not picky.

You are often the first to try something new.



You are friendly, witty, and likable.

You charm is overwhelming. People are enchanted by you.

You have a comeback for anything. Because of this, you seem flippant at times.



You love being by yourself and thinking. Developing your own theories and ideas is fun.

You feel lost when you're forced to be social. Being with other people can be lonely for you.

Jun 6, 2008

At this new company of mine, we've had to attend quite a number of trainings. So the other day, we had to attend a coaching training. However, what stayed in my mind was my discussion with a colleague after that session.

She was telling me about a similar training she attended before. I wasn't that surprised about that fact but because that training was organised by her church. Of course, I've already known her as a pretty religious girl, very active in church & so on. Anyway, she said that her church do organised a lot of these kinds of thing - leadership training, coaching etc. And she's told me on a number of occasion about her pastor whom she looked up to, who always put himself at their level, keeping abreast with the latest songs, slangs, lifestyle etc just to ensure that he's able to approach them. In fact, the church is organised in such a way very much like a business organisation - with a vision casters & a few levels of managers.

Listening to her, & not for the first time, makes me wonder... just look at how organised these people are & how stategic their approach towards youngsters are. Now, comparing that to our own religion, man.. bukan apa, buat malu ada ler.. I mean, you get these people in robes, going house to house inviting them to the mosques but folks you forget.. you're targeting those people who are already going to the mosques instead of those "kutu's" by the roadside. Plus all those fights occured coz people are of different political view - i mean, what is that all about?

Come on la people.. if you want people to love Islam, to want to approach Islam.. you've got to show it la.. For example, that ustaz Ahkil Hayy.. mmg ustaz rock abih, but i think he has a point..

Anyway, that's just my 2-cent worth of input for tonite, for whatever that's worth.

May 5, 2008

Way back then, slides was the craze in the states.. So i've got boxes & boxes of slides of my travels then, which btw i'm not able to check out coz the projector is already broken.. :(

So, I'm looking for a device which will able to convert slides (I think it's 33mm types) into digital images.. A friend of mine found this on the net, but i doubt it's sold locally.

http://www.hammacher.com/publish/74083.asp?promo=new_items#

Anyone knows if there's any shops who's able to perform this? Or can get hold of this item?

May 4, 2008

My new diet as of the day before include:
- No eggs & other food product with eggs
- No chicken & other food product with chicken
- No Beans


Uwa.. what to eat like that?

p/s: Luckily i found out that bread e.g Gardenia do not contain eggs.. otherwise i dont think i can survive through this.. must remember no kaya, no mayo, no... arghh..!

Apr 26, 2008

Erk.. had the scariest/weirdest dream last nite.. probably my fault as well, coz trying to watch a scary movie (Jangan Pandang Belakang) on Astro last nite.. watched it for abt 20mins, then thought i better not continue.. hehe.. karang sendiri takut, sapa nak tolong? ahaks..

Anyway, back to the dream.. i guess i was PD (since it's just been a couple of weeks back when i went there with my colleagues) or somewhere near a beach & some trees.. guess something happened, or some accident of sort, whereby me & 2 others got err.. killed kot.. and in a "Ghost Whisperer" style, my "ghost" went to search for my ex-colleague, trying to tell them what had happened to me..

I'm not the type to dwell on deathly matters, so the dream was kinda of an odd topic for me.. but then i could have been thinking abt those influx of local & foreign horror movies lately.. plus, i have heard some interesting ghost stories over lunch recently too.. hehe..

however, what i'm trying to really reflect upon is, how much do we really ponder over death.. people do say nothing clears your priority like death flashing across your mind.. and i was just thinking that if i die today, i don't think i have enough to carry me into the afterlife.. i mean, sure i try not to miss my prayers, i fast every now & then (other than ramadhan), i basically try to follow the rules.. but at times, i'm not sure if i'm truly there.. i dont dress properly e.g i still do the 3/4 sleeves & fitting clothes, my scarves are not always proper..i dont always check that my food are (truly) halal (ie i take for granted that it is, given that i live in this country..).. i dont always listen/join the 'ceramah's or religious talks.. i watch way too much tv & listen to too much music.. i dont always listen to my parents.. well, you get the picture..

and to really understand our roles & responsibilities to Allah in this world, well, it can be overwhelmingly scary to realise how far you are from the ideal.. at the end of it, i can only try my best & hope that my "niat"/intention is enough to win me a spot in 'syurga'(heaven)...insya allah...

Mar 18, 2008



Feb 28, 2008

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Who will you be? Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
~ Lucas, One Tree Hill


Jan 22, 2008




What Lilue Means



You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.



You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.







You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.



You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

It's okay to be afraid
of the things you don't understand.
It's okay to be anxious
when things aren't working your way.
It's okay to feel lonely...
even when you're with other people.
It's okay to feel unfulfilled
because you know something is missing
(even when you're not sure what it is.)
It's okay to think and worry and cry.

It's okay to do
whatever you have to do, but
just remember, too,
that eventually you're going to
adjust to the changes life brings your way,
and you'll realize that
it's okay to love again and laugh again,
and it's okay to get to a point where
the life you live
is full and satisfying and good to you...
and it will be that way
because you made it that way.

Laine Parsons

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