Princess Lilue

Flood.. ? yesterday afternoon, as i was abt to have lunch (at an usrah organised by my mum's friends).. he msgd me saying that my area is badly flooded.. huh?

when i left the house on friday, it was raining soo heavily, i was half drenched just trying to get into the taxi.. :( luckily i didnt came down with any fever, given that i was so chilled in the plane.. aiyoo.. wished i had followed mum's advice to always wear socks & proper shoes.. brrr...

anyway, spend sat morning shopping for that cream/gold themed outfit for the 'big' wedding this weekend.. ish.. so la difficult having to comform to specific outfit, i'm only gonna be the 'pengapit'.. it's not like u're getting it for me, you know! ;p but what the heck, a girl could always use another new outfit right?.. ahaks.. managed to find one, altho a little large, the workmanship is pretty good... it is the only size that i could find.. unless the bride's mum would approve any of my other close-enough-to-the-colour-that-she-wants baju kurungs.. ;p so will have to find time later today to get my outfits "approved"...

the rest of the day, of course was spend at Miss.Best.Friend's do.. she had the most gorgeous make-up ever.. hehe.. :D altho, i'd prefer her normal shade of lipstick.. hehe.. but what do i know huh?.. i don't remember meeting much of her extended family, but somehow they all seem to know who i am.. hehe.. how come suddenly so popular one eh? Mr.F intro'd me & my mum to his mum.. as if his mum would know who i am, eh? whatever la ek.. what's important is, the event went pretty smoothly, even tho visitors' were late for the do.. hehe...

back to when i got the msg abt the flood, tried asking bro.. but i guess, since he didnt know i came back to the Island, he just gave me a vague answer.. duh! altho, later i found out that his FIL is in hospital for his heart problem.. ;( already been a week & yet, didnt tell us abt it.. )anyway, since no one wanted to offer to pick me up (as usual la tuh..sob! sob!)... got into the cab.. the driver said to just brave it thru Bt3, i said go ahead la.. it's already almost 7 by then.. so lucky us, the road are already cleared by then, although not the houses.. Alhamdullilah, my place itself was not affected by the flood.. :)

hehe..what la have i've been rambling abt eh? now still so tired.. and i've developed a headache already.. :( i think now would be a good time for me to go face the aunti.. then i can go home & lie down.. :p

Aiyoo.. i think i've chosen myself the wrong career.. It's not joke trying to close every single problem in the whole world... well, in my world anyway.. in 1 day.. (well, even tho you have the whole month to do work..somehow or rather.. the bulk of it always seems to come on the last day of the month.. and usually after lunch.. :o )

anyway.. on more cheerful thoughts.. i need to get to the end of this meeting asap & rush home.. my cab's coming at 15 to 7.. (which btw, they've been over efficient & came this morning instead.. heheh..) & i'll be flying to the Island for the big DO over at Miss.Best.Friend.. can't wait.. ! :D Also, will need to start packing for my big trip next month.. so will be hauling back those stuff back to KL with me for the final packing.. hmm, speaking of that, i so need to get some new shoes for the trip.. can't be wearing my pink beach slippers over to where i'm going.. pangkor bolehla..

allright.. meeting's over.. (yes, i am being naughty & trying to type this during my call..hehe).. so now i can leave.. i hope..

have a good weekend y'all... !

There's so many things that i've thought of writing down.. but somehow when i do have the chance to do so, nothing comes to mind.. ;p anyway, when it comes to me, then i'll write it.. hehe..

I've yet to confirm what i'll be wearing next weekend.. a friend of my mum's requested that i be her daughter's bridesmade.. i guess so.. anyway, the thing is all my weekends are full booked, for now anyway..hehe.. so havent had much chance to really talk to the auntie abt what she wants me to do.. just had my teambuilding thingy last weekend at Bukit Tinggi.. which after 2 days of "main air", i'm lucky i havent came down with a fever.. (the head did feel a little hot tho.. ). Well, i sure do not want to get sick now of all times.. i've got Miss.Best.Friend's do this weekend.. and that wedding thingy next weekend.. and then i'm off for a hols for 2 weeks.. yeay.. can't wait!

however, with all these plans laid out, that means i'll be missing 2 of my friends' wedding.. :( and i so wanted to go that ex-schoolmate of mine.. i havent seen her since i left form 6.. waayyy wayy back then.. darn it.. takpe la..

erk.. i better be leaving soon.. i already have to be in office tommorow nite for a call.. and i still havent packed nor call a cab yet for friday.. and i so need to mop my floors, so darn dirty.. hmm, the perils of living on your own - no one to clean your mess for you! :(

i know..i know.. there's so much arguments whether we should or should not celebrate v-day.. for me, even though i've never actually celebrated the day before, i still think that the days simbolised something special.. doesnt have to be this specific day of course that you show your loved to those dearest to you, but i guess it does help provide some ideas, esp to those who dont usually show much affection to their love ones on other days.. hehe..

Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love. ~ by Erich Fromm ~

ada ke patut... yesterday I went to this appreciation lunch at this Chinese restaurant in one of the hotels near The Office..and my colleagues didnt tell me that the soup had sharks fin?!? aiyoo... Well, it was supposed to be that black chicken broth with herbs or something.. so the sharks fin (skit je) was part of the herbs stuff.. btw fyi, I cannot take sharks fin – ada pantang.. (it's a looongg story..).. anyway, didnt expect the "chicken" soup to contain sharks fin..

also, guess what else was part of the herbs? Seahorse! Eek..! and it's 'whole' lak tuh (they said that it was the dried stuff).. ish ish.. luckily the soup was barely in my mouth when they told me abt the sharks fin, so terus tak jadi makan.. and that was before we found the seahorse thingy.. :p euww! happened to be that our table had only 1 chinese girl, as compared to the other table where most of them were chinese... so our table had a pretty hilarious lunch as everyone kept poking at that seahorse (yeah, the guys pulled it out of the soup & sort of tried to pushed it under that rotating or whatever u called that rotating thingy on top of the table )... & also kept checking whether the rest of the dishes had any other "interesting" ingredient.. (we do suspect that someone in the other table did eat the seahorse, but no one really wanted to ask abt it.. hehe).. luckily there's none, but given the slow service that we had, everyone (in my table that is..) pretty much gave up after the 3rd dish..heheh..

Anyway, just to end the story, most the table-members did finish up the soup in their bowl, altho no one wanted to take any second helpings.. hehe.. nor did anyone took 'anything' other than the soup ie the chicken/herbs/etc.. yours truly totally set the bowl aside, untouched.. heheh.. karang tak pasal ler if i had it.. aiyoo.. minta simpang byk2..

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals, or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine and your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with JOY, mine or your own: if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself: if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty everyday, and if you can source your life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours or mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes" !

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.

It doesn't interest me who you are, or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Source: From Dreams of Desire, Published by Mountain Dreaming, Toronto, Ontario Canada
Author: Oriah Mountain Dreamer

I just heard that a (ex)neighbour of mine just gotten a divorce.. i'm not really that close to him, nor his sister who is my age, but we knew each other somewhat.. he got married in 2003 and his baby girl is abt my nephew's age, 1+. well, i dont exactly know what to say, except that.. kesian kat anak dia..

Why is it that marriage these days dont seem to last? How is it that our parents.. and their parents managed to live together, even still love each other, after 30-40 years..? What is so different between then and now? I still have yet crossed that line into marriage yet.. but hey, you hear stories like this & it freaks you out, you know..

Ntah le..

"I think people that have a brother or sister don't realize how lucky they are. Sure, they fight a lot, but to know that there's always somebody there, somebody that's family."

--Trey Parker and Matt
Stone, South Park, Cat Orgy, 1999