Princess Lilue

Hehe..i'm a confirmed chocoholic... starting to have cravings now actually..havent had chocs for 2 days.. :( well, that's not true.. just had a cream puff with choc top..yummy.. still, it's not actual choc.. maybe i'll drop by somewhere, and celebrate once i complete unpacking my stuff tonite..hmmm..cant wait to go home..

erk.. now i know why ppl dont like auditors.. hahah & i'm part of that... somehow, i have no idea how i managed to land this job considering that i think that i dont have most of the traits required for this job... anyway..i'd rather be on this end, rather than my clients..

i know i'm way to close to screwing up my job.. dunno why.. my mind is not where it should be.. i'm retreating back to story books & foolish reasons to fulfill my time.. hopefully i'd find my peace one of these days.. the hurt is not that raw anymore.. just like a dull ache.. but i've yet to be really happy since then...cant wait for this year to be over.. so that i can forget all about it.. way too many downs rather than ups.. at times, i'd wonder how i managed to stay sane throughout this.. or i'd be thinking that i'm not being grateful enough, that other ppl have worst problems that i do & i should not be selfish enough to think that i'm the only one with problems..
anyway.. life goes on.. somehow.. and knowing that i passed thru this, proves that i'm stronger that i thought i could be .. now.. if i can get thru this audit.. then i can celebrate getting my house keys this weekend.. that is, if that guy shows up.. haha.. i so do not trust him..

Results
Your answers suggest you are a Nurturer
The four aspects that make up this personality type are:


Summary of Nurturers
Care for the important people in their lives
Strive for harmony and avoid confrontation
Think of themselves as gentle, conscientious, and mature
May have trouble making decisions that could hurt others
More about Nurturers
Nurturers are quiet people who believe in order and diligently look after the people they care about. They focus on the needs of others and establish routines to help them meet their commitments.


Nurturers are the most likely group to say they prefer a job where the same thing happens every day, according to a UK survey.
Nurturers remember details that are important to them, such as their friends' birthdays and anniversaries. People with this personality type value others' feelings and may challenge behaviour they think is insensitive.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Nurturers may feel bitter and seek support by complaining to their colleagues. Under extreme stress, Nurturers may become preoccupied with the worst possible outcome and believe that they are heading for disaster.

Because they are so caring and loyal, Nurturers run the risk of being taken advantage of.

Nurturer Careers
Nurturers are often drawn to jobs that allow them to help others.

got this test from the BBC web (still figuring out how to add a link)..dunno if this is true tho.. i supposed partially.. hehe..

my friend wanted to introduce someone to me.. which i thot, why not?.. however, when the guy did call.. even tho i was expecting it, i never expected to be... hmm, not sure how to describe it.. the thoughts that kept running across my head was - why am i talking to this guy instead of him? I'm dissapointed.. i'm sad.. i'm angry.. part of me wanted it to be him so much.. but part of me do not want to see or talk to him ever.. also, nothing against the new guy, i'm sure he's nice & all.. but somehow i'm not interested.. i know i should make up my mind, esp after such a short conversation, but i'm sorry... it just not right..

my best friend told me that i should let him control my life anymore.. i cant help but compare other guys to him.. i cant help sometimes that i wished i'd stay.. now i know why some women stay in after the love have gone .. its so difficult to let go.. but i dont regret the decision that i have made.. yes, it hurts to be without him, yet it hurts much more when i'm with him.. and now, the hurt is slowly going away..

nope, i dont think i'd pursue it with this guy.. not that i wouldnt want to give anyone a chance.. but this new guy is being a little too desprate for my taste.. i mean sure, i'd be friends with you.. but after 1 call, i wouldnt expect you to call every day, & even during working hours.. of course if it's him, it's a different story, but even he wouldnt call me at the office before say..5pm or if he wanted something like, we're going somewhere that nite etc..

what the heck..? i had a life of my own before him.. i can live on my own after him.. whether there'll be someone special in my life or not, i'm strong enough to go on with my life.. on my own terms..

It is not an easy thing to let go, when you love someone so much.. but what's the point of holding on when you know that he doesnt love you anymore? it hurts much more to miss someone when physically he's next to you.. one side of me feels that if he had asked me to stay, i prolly would have.. but on the other hand, i realised that he didnt love me..prolly never did at all.. oh, i knew he cared, but love(cinta) & care(sayang) is not the same.. sayang is not enough for me.. "i could not stay & make a scene when i know i'm not wanted" (a saying by Audrey Hepburn).. i'm not one for begging..
i've stopped crying now, but the hurt is still raw..


Burn-Usher
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
but you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know it been through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same
find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, umpteen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know it been through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (cry)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

so many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to,
you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know it been through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn