Princess Lilue

erk.. now i know why ppl dont like auditors.. hahah & i'm part of that... somehow, i have no idea how i managed to land this job considering that i think that i dont have most of the traits required for this job... anyway..i'd rather be on this end, rather than my clients..

i know i'm way to close to screwing up my job.. dunno why.. my mind is not where it should be.. i'm retreating back to story books & foolish reasons to fulfill my time.. hopefully i'd find my peace one of these days.. the hurt is not that raw anymore.. just like a dull ache.. but i've yet to be really happy since then...cant wait for this year to be over.. so that i can forget all about it.. way too many downs rather than ups.. at times, i'd wonder how i managed to stay sane throughout this.. or i'd be thinking that i'm not being grateful enough, that other ppl have worst problems that i do & i should not be selfish enough to think that i'm the only one with problems..
anyway.. life goes on.. somehow.. and knowing that i passed thru this, proves that i'm stronger that i thought i could be .. now.. if i can get thru this audit.. then i can celebrate getting my house keys this weekend.. that is, if that guy shows up.. haha.. i so do not trust him..