Princess Lilue

Girl.. i so need you right now.. bila la you nak balik from Japan nie?...

What do you say when someone tells you that you have met 'the one'? what do you do when you've already let him go? i know that i've always hoped that my first boyfriend would be my husband, yet after all that i've been thru, thot that was already out of the question..

leaving him was the most difficult decision i had to make.. i've just deleted his emails, smses and phone number recently.. and now you tell me that you want me back with him?!

do i still love him? i think so..
do i think we still have a chance? i'm not sure.. i have a lot of baggages.. if he can't take the heat from me, how is he gonna handle my problems? family who'd kick you when you're down? people waiting to take advantage of you? people who'd ask & ask but never give anything in return?

i know if this is meant to be, it is meant to be.. but how do i forget the hurt he's caused me? the problems that we had ? the fact that he accepted my decision without questioning or fighting it ? i cant be the only one trying to make this work.. i cant help you if you wont help yourself.. but can i forget him? can i let him go? can i be happy with another?

i dont know.. i really dont know..