Princess Lilue

Wohoo.. i survived Earth Hour.. sort of..

I did switched off all of the lights & fans & tv, except for my porch light.. really..

... and went out to get dinner instead.. haha..


Of course, i'm not one of those folks who'd switched every single light in the house when i'm home.. granted, i do live alone, so i get to control what i do switch on.. on the bad side tho, i do leave my back-porch light on 24 hrs, but then that's coz the electrician did such a crummy job that the timer doesnt work.. only the front-porch does.

and i suppose i should avoid falling asleep in front of the tv during the weekends ie leaving the tv on throughout the nite. or leaving the pc on either. One has to do their part for the Mother Earth right..

Do i sleep with the lights on? Now that's a tougher question to answer. Since i was young, i'm one of those poeple who wont fall asleep unless the lights are turned off. But for the past few years, i guess you can say that i've changed.

it kinda started during that phase in my life where everything seems to be crashing down on me.. so when the light go off, everything gets heavier & bigger & kinda goes round & round my head.. it's not fear of the dark, i may not have the name for it but it's fear alright..

so cant sleep anyway.. hence having the lights on to do whatever i can to occupy the mind & just doze off when i'm tired without giving the mind a chance to dwell on things.. some days it worked, some days it doesnt... either way, i'd wake up like a zombie & just will myself to get through the day..

but i can now say that i can fall asleep with or without the lights off. hehe..