Princess Lilue

If you reveal your secrets to the wind you should not blame the wind for revealing them to the trees.
Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)

well.. that was quite an interesting weekend i've had..

apart from my marathon classes (which are from fri 6.30-9.30 & both sat/sun 9am-7pm.. yup that's right.. hrs & hrs of lecture.. and one thing i've managed to learn is fall asleep, without falling from my chair or bench.. haha..i seriously tell you, at least to my knowledge, i do not asleep in class at uni, altho i do get very drowsy at times due to lack of sleep doing none studying activities..).. this is also the weekend, the relatives choose to came by..

my parents & my brother's parents (to those who dont know.. just bear with me..maybe will explain one of these days..) stayed over coz they're joining the 'rombongan menghantar pengantin' to pahang on sunday.. not the greatest host i know, cant be there when they arrived.. then my bro & wife and his in-laws, this incl PIL, S/B-IL & their spouses,.. well, what can i say, my bro's wife do have 8 siblings, all quite close in age..with 2 babies in tow.. definitely a full house..

on sunday, my uncle insisted that someone pick up their things from my house & meet them who coming back from pahang somewhere, rather then come back to my place first.. well, i'm in class till 7.. the only other keys are with my parents, who also went to pahang.. hmm.. so his only daugther, had to come all the way from KL to my colleage to get my keys, to my place to pick up the stuff, then back to kl.. whom i'm told later by her, had miscommunication where both parties were waiting at 2 different places.. with the rain & the jam, with all of them pretty exhausted.. quite a circus there.. hehe..

and another sad note.. some unexpected turn of events for some friends of mine.. i do wish you both the best..& somehow work this out.. it's not what i'd hope for you, but either way it goes, you know where to find me.. for now, i'll leave you alone to solve it or till you tell me yourself or whatever..

How do you tell your parents that you are now an adult?

i have been on my own since i was 17.. even though the 1st 2 years was at a boarding school (a-levels), and the next 3 years was at Uni (in campus accomodation).. and since i got back from UK.. and yet, my parents still dictates what i should do and how.. not that i dont appreciate it of course, as i still ask them abt the littlest stuff most of the time anyway.. also it doesnt help that i've been away for so long, that i feel guilty enough that i would listen to them just to compensate..

There are times when i think i am adult enough to live my own life.. yet the other half of the time i'm waiting for someone to hold my hand to go through life.. maybe having siblings would have helped, giving me some peer advice and whatnots.. not that i'm not getting those from friends, but you know, no one else knows your own family like you do..

anyway, being the dutiful daughther that i am.. (i hope).. will try my best to accomodate them & their wishes as much as i can.. with the Hari raya coming, i just wanna say that i'm so sorry.. i have been causing you both a lot of pain this year.. even though not thru any fault of mine (mostly).. hopefully the future will be brighter for us.. dont worry too much, take care of yourselves.. Allah will see us thru these trying times..

Hmm.. how do i ensure that i can get out of here by 4? Last year's balik kampung rush, i managed to leave in time before i got stuck.. heard that abt 10mins or so after i left, the LDP was stuck for 1hr or so, due to ppl trying to get across to the highway... so better make sure i wrap up everything before my training session at 3.. so that i can leave after that.. i hope..
Apart from completed these reports & post it, i think the rest can wait till after the hols.. i do not plan to take home my laptop, so ppl better not call me at home during the hols..

anyway, will only be leaving KL with parents tomorrow.. will have to remember to make sure all doors/windows are locked, all eletrical stuff are switched off, must clean out fridge of possible turning-bad stuff, otherwise when i get back here.. yuck.. etc etc etc

Erk.. already 10 to 6 & i'm still here... how to complete ah?

Dunno why but feeling so lazy lately.. there's still work to be done & we havent even started with the raya preparation.. ;p

is laziness or "rajin" (somehow the word is just not coming to me) something hereditary? i mean, i do my share of work, at work, at home etc, sometime more, sometimes less .. but i'd have to admit i'm quite lazy at times.. and i do respect those who are very 'rajin'.. and i do know my mum's gonna hold it against me till forever.. i guess once the idea is planted, no matter whether people believed it or not, they will always hold a doubt abt it..