Princess Lilue

waa.. some kind of baby boom season or something these days? just found out, apart from both my ex-housemates, two of my ex-schoolmates during A-levels also just gave birth..

hmm.. patut terasa ke? hehe.. maybe not.. ahaks..

Just wanna say congrats to my ex-housemate & hubby.. their baby girl was safely delivered early this morning.. alhamdulillah.. will try to drop by SJMC during my lunch hour later..

your true color is Blue!

You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

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However, lately, i can't seem to maintain a hold on that supposedly 'calmness' of mine.. ;p ntah ler.. my mum said it's coz of that thyroid thingy.. i'd get irritated on the smallest of things.. i know that there's people out there with much much worst problems that mine, but still i dwell too much on my own minuscule issues.. have to remind myself to belajar bersyukur banyak2 :p

be thankful for what you have.. and not think abt what you don't.. right?

Hish.. my transfer is gonna be postponed for at least another 1 1/2 mth.. what la.. what to do? first, they promised me that it would be 1st january.. then due to my manager leaving the company, postponed it to Mar.. then, my boss transferred himself out of the job, leaving me with 2 new managers in charge.. erk! senang nye dia transfer out within 1 week.. kita nie dah 3 bulan, still takde pa per.. hampeh..

now the guy who's suppose to swap jobs with me is leaving the company, so the boss said that he cant afford (read: too scared) to let me go as no one else have my extended (chewah, iye ke?) knowledge of the job.. wah, i'm so flattered la that you love me so much that you wont let me go.. but then again, how long you want me to keep me here? :( dah penat la wey.. i can't exactly be halfway here & halfway there, right?

whatever la.. whenever you think you'll able to make a decision, then tell me.. dah malas nak pikir..

It's not too much for a girl to ask for, is it? I never asked for money or titles or even looks.. all i wanted was for you to love me.. as it is, no one around me does..

Guess it's just my luck.. just when i thought i finally managed to touch my dreams, it shattered to pieces around me..

Takpe la.. aku redha dengan ujian Allah buatku..

Darn it... :(

Had my checkups yesterday & the doc says maybe we shud have cut down on the dosage as per planned abt a month ago.. but during the last checkup, he said my pulse rate was still not stabil enough (ie has not reached the targeted rate at abt 80).. anyway, now he says that maybe my reading last time was a little screwed up, so now looks like my current dosage may be a little too much.. cheh.. now you tell me..!

so no wonder la recently been feeling so fat (I’m sure I havent change much of what I eat lately..i think la).. also been so depressed & having weird mood swings.. sluggish & slow.. thot I was just depress abt my job & abt other stuff plus having my PMS or something.. altho was kinda puzzled as to why i'm so stressed out right now.. guess got my answers for now..

so doc's gonna cut down my medication for the next 2 weeks & i will have to start weighting myself everytime i see him.. hmm.. so does that mean i can't go on a diet? aiyak.. and i've got a wedding to go to next month.. how to lose these weights in the mean time?

uwaa.. help!!

Just Remember
by ~Ang~

When all the weight of the world,
seems to rest on your shoulders alone,

Just remember,
it is because you are strong.

When everyone turns to you,
when their lives are falling apart,

Just remember,
it is because you have cared.

When work pushes you,
until you are on overload,

Just remember,
it is because you are a success.

When family issues arise,
and it is difficult to cope,

Just remember,
it is because you are human.

When everything begins,
to be "just too much",

Just remember,
you can count on me,

to be there,
to remind you,

that you are strong,
caring and successful.

To remind you,
that you are loved.

When the weight of the world,
seems to rest on your shoulders alone,

Just remember, .
it doesn't... you can call on me.

There are days when you think that you can't go on, remember that out there.. there are people who loves you, who cares.. if only we take the time to let them in.. and over the weekend, this fact was proven to me..

It was totally unrelated of course.. my girlfriends just happened to invite me out for lunch at Pyramid just to catch up on things.. i was feeling a little overwhelmed & admittedly, a little let down by someone.. so i wasn't quite my usual self with the girls.. But i forgot.. that these girls are more than just friends to me.. they're my 'other' family.. we've been there for each other's ups & downs, being on the other side of the world from our own families.. and they know me & care for me, more than i realised.. Thanks babes!! Muaahhh!!

And what wonders some bit of loving and a fun outing can do to your spirits.. :D we should spread more love around us, people.. it'll do you good.. !

Oh no..! Bro was just telling me this morning that his company is planning to lay off quite a substantial number of people.. erk..!! surely not?? I mean, sure it was kinda expected with all those rumours going on, but even i wasn't expecting this kind of number... i doubt that he'd be affected, but then again, given the number they plan to layoff, almost no one is indispensible.. ish ish ish.. sabar je la bang ek..

So if anyone know of any positions out there for a senior exec with 7-8yrs experience in flight/operations management... or something along that line.. do tell me me, ya..