Princess Lilue

Some people think i'm strong.. am i? yes, i managed the crawl thru the black hole i'd call 2004.. but have i really cross over it? i dunno.. sometimes when i thought i have, i'd get pulled back down.. by a memory.. by something someone says... by that fatefull call one late night..

I do so want to move forward... after all, i've completed my studies, the ex is already married, that family avoids me as much as they can, the house is pretty much settled... finding a husband? ha ha... :(
of course i dont hate men.. i just don't understand them.. at all.. but doesnt mean i hate them.. i'm trying, yet, it's soo difficult.. trust issues? yeah, i do have doubts, but your actions are not exactly helping either.. god, i'd wring your neck if i could or at least shout at you, but me being the good girl that i am.. i will just let you take your own sweet time to figure out what you want.. in the mean time, i'll just practice being an old maid & live my own life whether you are in it or not.. when you happen to remember that i still exist, then you can give me a call.. till then..