Princess Lilue

i wanted to write something before i go.. but no idea what to write abt.. i'll be going back home tonite.. luckily my housemate is willing to send me to the airport, otherwise would have to call the cab & fork out at least 50 bucks.. better remind myself to buy them dinner or something.. also cathcing a ride with my best friend, prolly monday or tuesday due to the merdeka hols..

think have a lot to discuss with parents.. dunno if we can ever reach to a decision.. but there's things to think abt..

ahh.. better ciao first.. think later.. ciao..



There is only one success - to spend your life in your own way. -
Christopher Morley, 1890-1957, American Novelist, Journalist, Poet

create your own visited country map
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I couldn't help but grab this book, "How to be Lovely: The Audrey Hepburn Way of life" from the Changi airport bookstore. i know, i'm broke & burning my last dollars on crappy stuff, but think this was a good buy..

ermm.. i could easily relate to the advices given by the lady herself.. although i'm not declaring myself to be as "lovely" nor "elegant" like her.. i do hope someday ppl would say that abt me tho..:) insya allah..

i hope i can find happiness that she had found.. sure, life has its ups & downs, and there'll always be never ending problems to solve.. it all in the package.. but you can handle all that when you are comfortable with who you are & what you do... i have not found that yet.. somehow, i'm still unsatisfied, still searching for that something..

10 ways to make your mind up

From what to wear to whether to change jobs, here’s how to stop dithering and start making great decisions.

1. Think in numbers

Write a list of pros and cons for your decisions, and then convert those into percentages. For example, changing your job might be 80% positive and 20% negative.

“Seeing your choice in terms of cold, hard figures gives you a much clearer perspective on it,” says Gary Cooper, Professor of Organisational Psychology at Lancaster University, UK.

2. Go with your instinct

“Gut instinct guides us through dozens of minor decisions every day but when it comes to the big stuff, it gets muddled by worries and obligations,” says UK life coach Lynda Field.

“Start noticing how much you rely on your gut feelings every day and it’ll be easier to tap into them over bigger dilemmas,” she adds.

3. Pay a professional

Whatever your quandary, there’s a specialist out there who can help you. A session with a relationship counsellor or career consultant will focus your feelings and give you strategy to help you decide.

4. Toss a coin

If your shopping trip has stalled because you can’t decide between white and red flip-flops, toss a coin. If the coin falls in favour of the white flip-flops and your heart sinks, you’ll know to take those red ones straight to the till.

5. Recall bad decisions

It’s painful but if you go over a bad decision, you’ll see where you went wrong. Did you listen to your head, not your heart? Or did you do what other people expected, not what you wanted?

Pinpoint that mistake and you won’t make it again.

6. Say what you don’t want

When you can’t even begin to find your way through a maze of choices, start by mapping out what you don’t want, then see what’s left. With fewer options, you’ll feel less overwhelmed and the right path will be easier to spot.

7. Feel the fear

Fear of making the wrong choice makes us stall on big decisions. But imagine how frustrated you’ll be if you don’t make the decision and are still in your current situation in a year’s time – it’ll spur you on.

8. Start small

“Making good decisions is about having confidence in your judgment,” according to psychologist Sue Firth. “Start by setting yourself small decisions, such as what outfit to wear. When you can do this well, you’ll learn to trust yourself over the bigger things, too.”

9. Buy yourself some time

The worst decisions are usually the ones we make in a hurry because they’ re based on our emotions at that moment. If you can reflect on something – even if it’s only for 20 minutes – your judgment will be much sounder.

10. Start imagining

“lmagine that you’ve already made the decision, then examine how you feel,” says Liz Tucker, author of When You Want To Say Yes But Your Body Says No.

“It’s normal to be nervous but if you’re also excited, go for it. If you’ve got a sense of dread, however, it’s not the best option right now.” – UPS

Wahai hati,
Aku tahu diri mu berduka
Aku tahu kau memedam rasa,
Pilu yang mengusik jiwa,
Lantas mengalirlah airmata.

Wahai hati,
Ujian datang bertimpa2,
Kehidupan jadi tak selesa semula,
Kehilangan pastikan menjelma,
Dan keresahan datang lagi mengoda.

Wahai hati,
Usah kesali pada rindu yang hilang,
Usah mengharap pada kasih dan sayang,
Usah dikenang pada kemesraan semalam,
Lantaran semuanya tak mungkin tercapai tangan.

Wahai hati,
Simpan segala duka mu,
Pamirkan semula keriangan mu,
Agar tiada siapa yang tahu,
Hati mu kini kosong,
Kaku dan beku.

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Is there such thing s a perfect job?? i'm sure there are..somehow.. i mean, you hear abt ppl who love their job etc etc.. somehow i always imagine that the dream job that we wanted, the things that we love to do.. e.g. write, paint, bake/cook, read, travel,... not quite the money making type.. well, given that you're no pioneer in these fields anyway..

I happened to read my horoscope (i dont take these stuff seriously, but it's fun to read anyway..) one day & got struck by what was said. it's quite general, yet nailed my feelings right on..

"You're tired of performing duties that don't seem to make a positive difference in the world. If you can't leave your present situation, begin volunteering for an organisation that does work you admire. Pretty soon, you'll gain enough prominence and stature to seize a paying position. When you do what you love, the money will follow. It's a powerful law of the Universe."

if only it was that easy.. i cant even decide what is it that i love.. hehe.. altho some in my lists are:
1. reading - is there some kind of job where ppl would pay me to read?? maybe become a book reviewer (does it even exists?)
2. baking - i love baking, but i'm no delia smith or any of those well-known chefs.. i dont even have that much of a variety in cooking.. altho no one has died just yet..
3. interior decorating - i love pretty things, i love shopping...i dont have that much money to spend tho... i do not have a spic & span, gleaming with cleanliness type rooms.. hehe.. so i doubt anyone would pay me to make-over their room..

i seem to like creative stuff, yet i think too conversatively, too practical.. so where do i fit in the world right now? hmm.. i have no idea.. :p

so have a good weekend.. since i still cant move this weekend, i'll most likely go shopping.. i so cant get that shoe in OU out of my mind.. i really cant spend my money on stuff like there when there's a whole list of items, which i cant afford in my list of essentials.. oh well.. mega sale is only 3x per year.. haha..

He's getting married tonite!! After isyak... omg!!

who is he? hmm.. good question really.. he's more than just my friend.. he's not quite my ex.. it's somewhere in between.. but he is the closest male friend i've got, and prolly the one who understands me the most.. or at least i'd like to think so..

we met during my first year of uni.. he was a friend of a friend.. we went out.. we called each other often.. we never managed to cross that gf/bf thing tho.. not sure why.. guess it was never meant to be.. but he'll always be special to me..

i know during the time that we knew each other, i have hurt him unintentionally many times.. prolly was the last straw the last time we fought.. we hadnt had contact for a while (which with him, it wasnt surprising), but when he did, it was to inform me abt his new gf (now fiance). It was a promised we made to each other, to always tell each other the truth & tell the other if we met someone else. no hard feelings if we do and hopefully will always be friends.

i think i'm brave enough to go to his akad.. i know he's really expecting me to come.. he specifically asked me to come.. but am i ready to face the fact that he'll belong to another forever? that i no longer have that special place in his heart? it's not gonna be the same after this altho he promised that he's still my friend.

no, i'm too coward to face it. i'll just hear abt it, or read his mail but to see it.. well, i know i'm able to maintain my composure in front of other people, but not quite to myself.. oh, i'm happy for him.. he has been unhappy for a while, he deserve some happiness.. but for me to see it, given my own heartbreak is still too raw, i'm not sure i'm able to take it.. maybe my decision not to go is wrong.. maybe it's better for me to see with my own eyes..

i promised him i'd call before he leave the country.. maybe i shud just call tonite, before the event.. maybe i shud wait till he's abt to leave.. maybe i wont call him at all.. me being the softie, i will call him, i can break his heart another time.. he's already too dissapointed that i'm not coming tonite.

he's getting married?? i still cant believe it..

As of 4++pm yesterday, my bro is the proud father of a healthy baby boy, Iman Reza. However, due to some complication, SIL had to go thru Ceasarian instead of normal delivery..

Congrats to the two proud parents..

I havent actually heard the song, but found it when i was bloghopping.. just what i needed to remind myself..

That's All I Want

Take it from me

That you're gonna be in love

Just give yourself some time

You're just in a shaky frame of mind

Take it from me

That everyone's not that way

Just out to break your heart

So baby don't fall apart

I know that it hurts sometimes

But girl if you let me ride

I'll make you feel the way you want

I'll make you feel like you're in love

Don't want you to compromise

We can just take our time

Whatever makes you feel you're loved

That's all I want

Take it from me

You're gonna love someone

I can see it in your eyes

Somebody's gotta treat you right

Take it from me

Your life is bound to change

He'll never, ever break your heart

You'll never have to feel that pain