Princess Lilue

Cont..
 
Fuh! I did managed to go through it.. It wasn’t easy tho.. I kept thinking that someone might notice how uncomfortable I am but since no one knew, I guess it didn’t occurred to them..
 
I mean.. how do we go back to those old haunts.. places that we’ve been with that person.. things that we did with them.. ?? How do we face these old flames of ours? To be within that close proximity to someone I’m not ready to face, the thought of possibility of a chance meeting with him, when the scar has not fully healed.. is a little too unnerving.. too awkward..
 
when do I say I’ve finally moved on? When I met someone else? What if I don’t meet that anyone.. ? not only did I have to have business dinner next to his office tonite, I also have to decide whether I am able to make it to another old crush’s wedding next month.. is this some sort of test to check whether I am over these people?? Come on, the hurt is still way too raw for me to even rely on my rational thinking..
 
I dunno abt other ppl or how they’d react.. but I myself tend to believe that these ppl who has played some parts in my live that is close to my heart.. would tend to stir some feeling when I do meet them again..i mean, that’s why they were in your life in the first place right? although the feeling would most likely to have change to just tenderness or friendship or something I cant truly explain..