Princess Lilue

Is it possible to fall for someone you've met for the first time? I personally dont believe in that.. i guess you can really really like someone.. but fall in love? agree to marry that person immediately? dunno la..

maybe i'm cynical.. maybe it's just coz i'm a complex person and it's difficult for me to get close to someone (and vice versa).. it's not easy for me you know, to go out with perfect strangers, whom other people deems to be suitable for me.. sure, i'm single and all, but at the same time, i'm not about to say yes to any tom, dick or harry that comes along, just for the sake of getting married :( if that was the case, i doubt i'd still be single now, no? marriage is a big thing.. you cannot expect a girl to make a decision after a few phone calls & 1 meeting?? at least not this girl anyway.. hehe

i dont want to be married becaused it is expected of me, because everyone else is already married & i'm not, because other people say that he's a decent enough of a guy.. i'm not saying he's not, coz i'm sure he is.. i'm just saying that i dont think he's the guy for me.. i do feel a little guilty abt not giving the guy a chance.. maybe i should have.. but even from the start i didnt feel right abt it.. maybe coz i've got someone else in mind.. maybe i'm just not ready.. maybe just coz i hate being rushed.. but i'm just trying to go with my gut feeling on this.. and given how serious this guy abt looking for a wife, i doubt i can go with the "why dont we just be friends for now" line.. (been thru that before, believe me.. it doesnt work..)

On the other hand, just coz i like someone, doesnt mean that it will work out.. i'm afraid to hope for too much, i guess.. or maybe i think too much with my head, instead of my heart.. ntah le.. kalau ada jodoh tuh ada la..



******
To Miss.Best.Friend..

Honey... i'm soooo happy for you.. Glad i was there when it happened.. Girl, you are so lucky.. or rather he is lucky to have you.. heheh.. Also thanks a lot, to both of you for making last weekend a great one.. hehe.. we'll see what's the outcome ek.. you better make sure i'm around when you finally set your date, k.. ahaks..