Princess Lilue

Life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you’ll burst. But the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life
going.
-Natalie Bernot

Hmm...was just checking my friendster earlier.. surprise, surprise... my a-level junior, Miss.Junior is in my ‘new friend requests’.. eh, I thot she didn’t like me? Well, you know, with Mr.JealousWife issue & other stuff (wayyy too long a story to tell and not something i'd want to tell here..), we were not exactly the best of friends when we were at school..

Plus I’m a nobody mah (in her books that is.. ahaks).. not some high flying achiever nor related/friends with any big-shots, doing the name-dropping thingy.. i couldn't care less about such stuff then... or ever, really... hehe..

Come to think of it, I have had no contact with any of my juniors at all since I left the school.. was actually hoping to stay that way really.. hehe.. terrible huh? no wonder I have so many “enemies”.. but I did promise myself, not to associate myself with ppl who don’t like me..or at least to minimize the contact.. ahaks.. it's easier on the mind.. and heart..

by Tiger

I think I have heard
An unspoken word.

I seem to hear
Something so clear.

It is in your eyes
And in your smile.

Unspoken, yet there
All the while.

Although sometimes i think i'm just "hearing" the unspoken words because i so wanted it to be said.. ;p

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it

But sometimes when you talk
It’s obvious you want to show it
So don’t blow it

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There’s a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment
Yeah

Sometimes it hurts to watch you leave
It feels like you’re taking a part of me with you
I never know how it’ll be
I guess it’s just a mystery
But is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin on)

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot, tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate, driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
The real thing…
~ by Bo Bice

Is this the real thing? Ntah ler.. i hope so..

I was visiting a sick family friend yesterday with my parents.. they (the immediate family and some close relatives) were planning to have some baca yassin session for the pakcik and invited us to join in.. i've known them literally my whole life, heck, the makcik was there when i was born..hehe.. anyway, as she was busy preparing for the guests as well as trying to cater to pakcik's needs, she said that she was hoping that her only daughter might be able to come. She lives not that far away, but in actual fact, she is pretty much been cut off from her own family..

You see, the husband is some hot-shot rich guy.. he not only forbid her from wearing any makeup whatso ever (and she's an ex-stewardess at that) or working, she is also not allowed to go out of the house unless accompanied by him or his mother/sister.. and that includes her own parent's house.. duh! and yes, she has tried to get him to compromise/change/understand, but after a while, she has totally given up & decided that she's only living for the sake of her daughter and doesnt care what become of herself anymore.... and now, she can't even come home to visit her sick father!! Her own father, for god-sakes.. masya allah..!! I wonder how one can be such small minded and tak berhati perut langsung.. (disclaimer: tak tau ler pulak kalau they have some valid reason whatsoever for not coming.. but then again, their current living situation have not change as far as i know.. )

You have a daughter of your own, you know.. what if when you are old & sick, she doesnt come back to see you? And so far, you only have one child, at least they have their sons, although that doesn't lessen the pain.. If that happens, i'd say, padan ler muka sendiri.. but then again, one shouldn't wish for such things, right?

Anyway, i wish all the best to the family in this trying times..

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Looking at them, it makes me realise that my parents are not as young as they used to be.. in fact, we were on our way back from 'berurut' at a relative's house coz my dad's been having migraine lately.. :o nothing serious of course, but hopefully it will help..