Princess Lilue

Darn it.. dunno why, but i'm soooo stressed out...
Could be coz the boss is bugging me too much & work is piling up as it is..
or coz of the weather..
or due to last nite's msg..

why? why do you need to come back into my life? is there some kind of unwritten rule somewhere that you guys just can't leave me alone? You're the one who moved on yet you can't let me go? it's not funny okay ?

sheesh.. the things you do for your job... just today i got chewed up by ppl complaining abt the bosses.. and other complaints in general.. hehe.. what to do.. me being the middle person get fired from both end... it's not that i dont wanna do something about it.. sure, there's loads of idea i'd wish i could bring about, things i wanna implement... but up to a point, all you wanna do is complete what is required of you & go home.. as it is you're doing too much fire-fighting, rather than getting thru to the root..

used to be i dreamed of this jet-setting lifestyle (even if i only get to as far as Singapore & Batam.. hehe), having flexible working hours, casual work dress code.. to tell the truth, did get almost of of it, in a way.. but yet.. something is still not enough.. see, how ungrateful i am to Him, after all, Allah only gave me what i wanted, right? yeah well.. doesn't help that mum's going on with her "work with gomen" campaign.. i'm so tired of everything, i'm actually considering it.. as a change.. maybe.. but seriously? dunno if i can survive that....

anyway.. i'm just whining out loud.. as much as i would like to stop & smell the flowers, actually living life rather than going thru it, could not come up with any.. logical plan on how to do that.. yet.. if the rest of these crew can survive it, surely i can too.. somehow.. before i burn myself out.. or go insane in the process.. ha ha..

v-day huh? not that i've ever celebrated it before, but i supposed i don't oppose it either.. admitted it is fun seeing the things that ppl do on that day, but nah.. i'm too practical for that.. i do however love the stuff that sells during v-day tho.. you can find the cutest teddy bears & heart-shape whatevers & daily-dose of movies, love songs.. hehe..

but this time, i can't help but reflect on the things that happened during last feb.. it's been a year since then.. and i believed that i've come a long way.. not quite a 360 turnaround, nor do i feel as matured as i thought i would be at this age.. in fact have been more cynical that i've ever been in life

But something came up last nite.. maybe, just maybe, this v-day could mean something this time..

Was reading this so-call birthday analysis..

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature. You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world. You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities. The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension. This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer. You do, however, work very well with people.

You can probably do and succeed at almost ANYTHING you put your mind to.Any job that uses your creativity, social contacts, words and a sense of humor are pure gold for your Destiny. Yes, I know this can encompass a wide variety of career options. As long as they give you the ability to exercise your brain and enthusiasm, they will be okay.Careers I want to warn you against are those that involve detail and analytical skills. Not that you aren't good at analysis -- it's probably...

Face it, time clocks and nine-to-five jobs just aren't you! If you're aiming to become a small cog in a large corporate machine, you should forget it.With your restless nature, you're far better off with a flexible schedule. This same restlessness also means you'll be able to work on many projects simultaneously. The trick is, though, to find an employer who appreciates you as you are, who knows how to get the best from you, and who realizes that you're a woman who can get the job done - but on your own terms.

hmm..not bad analysis tho.. guess that's explains a few things.. hehe.. so guess i should be looking around for a place where i can dictate "my own terms" ! if anyone knows a place like that, do be sure to inform me abt it.. hehe..