Princess Lilue

I know it's still a few more days to go, but might as well la.. just got in hometown this morning.. my head is wayyy spinning by now..only had like 2 hrs of sleep last nite, before i had to wake up for sahur & leave the house to catch my flight at 7am.. well, i'd say hopefully i'll get an uninterrupted hols, but seeing i havent finished my work really, (which by the way, so not in the mood to do), cant blame them, right.. :( so must finish it tomorrow, a must..

anyway, got another problem to think over this raya.. aiyoo..


To all those folks out there, if i had done any wrongs to you, intentionally or not, i sincerely ask for your forgiveness, from the bottom of my heart.. Drive carefully & dont forget to invite me to your Open Houses.. hehe..
Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin.. !


P/S: To Mdm.Neighbour.. congrats on your new addition.. beraya with baby girl la tahun ni ek.. :) will go visit once u come back from hometown after pantang, i assume ..

It’s easy to choose between right and wrong. It’s choosing either the greater between two goods and the lesser between two evils that gives a greater challenge. And that is how life is.

MsBestFriend is now officially MrsBF....she has finally left the "singleton" world and joined the "married couples" group...

I wish you all the happiness in the world, girl! Take good care of each other now.. ;D

Hehe.. been so long since i've updated anything.. too much to think about, too busy to do anything abt it, too depressed abt too many things.. ahaks..

Erk.. Ms.BestFriend is getting married next week.. Hmm.. now have to share her with Mr.BF.. :( Well, he 'd better be good to her..which he is, so far.. so need to go shop for wedding gift this weekend.. any ideas huh?

mua? although not quite ready to follow the cliche of being a single-with-a-cat type person (and no plans of getting a cat anytime soon.. hehe).., but so do not feel like "melayan" guys with requests such as "wants a girl who wears baju kurung/kain all the time" .. yeah..yeah.. this girl loves her jeans okay? so dont hold your breath just yet..

Will have to update abt my trip to Sabah later.. a quick quiz for the weekend..Have a good one people!

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"

-Carrie Bradshaw From Sex and the City

Argghh.. the most frustrating thing abt current work situation is that i'm working blindly.. heck, dunno la what i'm doing.. can la, get the blind to lead the blind.. haha.. erghh... cant take the pressure weh..!! and the workload..*sigh*.. isnt there a "simpler" job that i can do instead?


been listening to this anyway.. even if not related to the topic..hehe

Artist: Lifehouse
Song: Blind

Lyric:
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

How can u say that U “know” I kinda have a lot on my plate which i MUST complete by today, so why dont I “prioritise” my work, in order to get it done when it's your work that i'm trying to salvage on top of my own work?? … aiiyyyyooooooo… ada yg nak kena lempang ni…

Oh no...I’ve already got some major ulcers.. totally dried lips (which somehow my lipbalm not having any affects)..and jerawat – arghh!! getting break outs merata2.. this job is totally not good for my body.. or mind for that matter.. :(

Errkk.. tell me why again did i take up this field of job? ntah ler.. ;p still trying to figure that out.. hehe..

These days, i'm stuck in the office till late.. trying to understand what exactly i'm doing.. the one i'm replacing has left & my replacement have yet to come.. great planning huh? typical!

okla.. i'm just abt 4 weeks-old into this new job of mine & heck, i'm still lost.. i guess that's expected, right? but still, doesnt help that there's load of datelines to meet.. i think i shud go home now.. cant think no more.. i'll figure out later what to say in the meeting tomorrow..that is if i can answer at all.. hehe..

I'm stressed...

I'm tired...

I wanna go home..

uwaa...!! :(

Life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you’ll burst. But the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life
going.
-Natalie Bernot

Hmm...was just checking my friendster earlier.. surprise, surprise... my a-level junior, Miss.Junior is in my ‘new friend requests’.. eh, I thot she didn’t like me? Well, you know, with Mr.JealousWife issue & other stuff (wayyy too long a story to tell and not something i'd want to tell here..), we were not exactly the best of friends when we were at school..

Plus I’m a nobody mah (in her books that is.. ahaks).. not some high flying achiever nor related/friends with any big-shots, doing the name-dropping thingy.. i couldn't care less about such stuff then... or ever, really... hehe..

Come to think of it, I have had no contact with any of my juniors at all since I left the school.. was actually hoping to stay that way really.. hehe.. terrible huh? no wonder I have so many “enemies”.. but I did promise myself, not to associate myself with ppl who don’t like me..or at least to minimize the contact.. ahaks.. it's easier on the mind.. and heart..

by Tiger

I think I have heard
An unspoken word.

I seem to hear
Something so clear.

It is in your eyes
And in your smile.

Unspoken, yet there
All the while.

Although sometimes i think i'm just "hearing" the unspoken words because i so wanted it to be said.. ;p

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it

But sometimes when you talk
It’s obvious you want to show it
So don’t blow it

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There’s a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment
Yeah

Sometimes it hurts to watch you leave
It feels like you’re taking a part of me with you
I never know how it’ll be
I guess it’s just a mystery
But is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin on)

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot, tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate, driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
The real thing…
~ by Bo Bice

Is this the real thing? Ntah ler.. i hope so..

I was visiting a sick family friend yesterday with my parents.. they (the immediate family and some close relatives) were planning to have some baca yassin session for the pakcik and invited us to join in.. i've known them literally my whole life, heck, the makcik was there when i was born..hehe.. anyway, as she was busy preparing for the guests as well as trying to cater to pakcik's needs, she said that she was hoping that her only daughter might be able to come. She lives not that far away, but in actual fact, she is pretty much been cut off from her own family..

You see, the husband is some hot-shot rich guy.. he not only forbid her from wearing any makeup whatso ever (and she's an ex-stewardess at that) or working, she is also not allowed to go out of the house unless accompanied by him or his mother/sister.. and that includes her own parent's house.. duh! and yes, she has tried to get him to compromise/change/understand, but after a while, she has totally given up & decided that she's only living for the sake of her daughter and doesnt care what become of herself anymore.... and now, she can't even come home to visit her sick father!! Her own father, for god-sakes.. masya allah..!! I wonder how one can be such small minded and tak berhati perut langsung.. (disclaimer: tak tau ler pulak kalau they have some valid reason whatsoever for not coming.. but then again, their current living situation have not change as far as i know.. )

You have a daughter of your own, you know.. what if when you are old & sick, she doesnt come back to see you? And so far, you only have one child, at least they have their sons, although that doesn't lessen the pain.. If that happens, i'd say, padan ler muka sendiri.. but then again, one shouldn't wish for such things, right?

Anyway, i wish all the best to the family in this trying times..

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Looking at them, it makes me realise that my parents are not as young as they used to be.. in fact, we were on our way back from 'berurut' at a relative's house coz my dad's been having migraine lately.. :o nothing serious of course, but hopefully it will help..

waa.. some kind of baby boom season or something these days? just found out, apart from both my ex-housemates, two of my ex-schoolmates during A-levels also just gave birth..

hmm.. patut terasa ke? hehe.. maybe not.. ahaks..

Just wanna say congrats to my ex-housemate & hubby.. their baby girl was safely delivered early this morning.. alhamdulillah.. will try to drop by SJMC during my lunch hour later..

your true color is Blue!

You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

http://web.tickle.com/rd/50631/

However, lately, i can't seem to maintain a hold on that supposedly 'calmness' of mine.. ;p ntah ler.. my mum said it's coz of that thyroid thingy.. i'd get irritated on the smallest of things.. i know that there's people out there with much much worst problems that mine, but still i dwell too much on my own minuscule issues.. have to remind myself to belajar bersyukur banyak2 :p

be thankful for what you have.. and not think abt what you don't.. right?

Hish.. my transfer is gonna be postponed for at least another 1 1/2 mth.. what la.. what to do? first, they promised me that it would be 1st january.. then due to my manager leaving the company, postponed it to Mar.. then, my boss transferred himself out of the job, leaving me with 2 new managers in charge.. erk! senang nye dia transfer out within 1 week.. kita nie dah 3 bulan, still takde pa per.. hampeh..

now the guy who's suppose to swap jobs with me is leaving the company, so the boss said that he cant afford (read: too scared) to let me go as no one else have my extended (chewah, iye ke?) knowledge of the job.. wah, i'm so flattered la that you love me so much that you wont let me go.. but then again, how long you want me to keep me here? :( dah penat la wey.. i can't exactly be halfway here & halfway there, right?

whatever la.. whenever you think you'll able to make a decision, then tell me.. dah malas nak pikir..

It's not too much for a girl to ask for, is it? I never asked for money or titles or even looks.. all i wanted was for you to love me.. as it is, no one around me does..

Guess it's just my luck.. just when i thought i finally managed to touch my dreams, it shattered to pieces around me..

Takpe la.. aku redha dengan ujian Allah buatku..

Darn it... :(

Had my checkups yesterday & the doc says maybe we shud have cut down on the dosage as per planned abt a month ago.. but during the last checkup, he said my pulse rate was still not stabil enough (ie has not reached the targeted rate at abt 80).. anyway, now he says that maybe my reading last time was a little screwed up, so now looks like my current dosage may be a little too much.. cheh.. now you tell me..!

so no wonder la recently been feeling so fat (I’m sure I havent change much of what I eat lately..i think la).. also been so depressed & having weird mood swings.. sluggish & slow.. thot I was just depress abt my job & abt other stuff plus having my PMS or something.. altho was kinda puzzled as to why i'm so stressed out right now.. guess got my answers for now..

so doc's gonna cut down my medication for the next 2 weeks & i will have to start weighting myself everytime i see him.. hmm.. so does that mean i can't go on a diet? aiyak.. and i've got a wedding to go to next month.. how to lose these weights in the mean time?

uwaa.. help!!