Princess Lilue

I taste like Bread. I am a staple in almost everyone's diet. Friends like me are a complement to any other friends I get on with almost everyone, remaining mostly in the background, but providing substance when it would otherwise be lacking. What Flavour Are You?

Don't you find it irritating that people always assume the worst about you.. ? For example, people always thinks that overseas student are such loose people, partying all nite and such.. as well as the other extreme, joining those cult-like religious groups and whatnots.. i mean, sure, there were people like that there.. and some of them, i might or might not know them personally. But doesnt mean that i have to be like that.. so don't la be so surprised that i'm not.. there was..are a lot of "normal" people, like you and me, who did study overseas, and stayed as they are.. not everyone ended up with a "cultural shock", you know.. altho i have to admit that i had a "cultural shock" coming back to Malaysia.. heheh.. will save that for another time..

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Best betul Mdm.KS.. already her husband had the morning sickness instead of her.. due to being induced, she had a pretty speedy delivery, abt 1 hr je... by the time we went to visit her, she definitely did not look like she had just given birth a few hours earlier..hehe.. berkat doa husband & family kot.. alhamdullilah..

Congrats to Mdm.KS & hubby..!! She safely gave birth to a baby boy, at noon in Pantai.

Is it possible to fall for someone you've met for the first time? I personally dont believe in that.. i guess you can really really like someone.. but fall in love? agree to marry that person immediately? dunno la..

maybe i'm cynical.. maybe it's just coz i'm a complex person and it's difficult for me to get close to someone (and vice versa).. it's not easy for me you know, to go out with perfect strangers, whom other people deems to be suitable for me.. sure, i'm single and all, but at the same time, i'm not about to say yes to any tom, dick or harry that comes along, just for the sake of getting married :( if that was the case, i doubt i'd still be single now, no? marriage is a big thing.. you cannot expect a girl to make a decision after a few phone calls & 1 meeting?? at least not this girl anyway.. hehe

i dont want to be married becaused it is expected of me, because everyone else is already married & i'm not, because other people say that he's a decent enough of a guy.. i'm not saying he's not, coz i'm sure he is.. i'm just saying that i dont think he's the guy for me.. i do feel a little guilty abt not giving the guy a chance.. maybe i should have.. but even from the start i didnt feel right abt it.. maybe coz i've got someone else in mind.. maybe i'm just not ready.. maybe just coz i hate being rushed.. but i'm just trying to go with my gut feeling on this.. and given how serious this guy abt looking for a wife, i doubt i can go with the "why dont we just be friends for now" line.. (been thru that before, believe me.. it doesnt work..)

On the other hand, just coz i like someone, doesnt mean that it will work out.. i'm afraid to hope for too much, i guess.. or maybe i think too much with my head, instead of my heart.. ntah le.. kalau ada jodoh tuh ada la..



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To Miss.Best.Friend..

Honey... i'm soooo happy for you.. Glad i was there when it happened.. Girl, you are so lucky.. or rather he is lucky to have you.. heheh.. Also thanks a lot, to both of you for making last weekend a great one.. hehe.. we'll see what's the outcome ek.. you better make sure i'm around when you finally set your date, k.. ahaks..

You gave me a wink,
And smiled your smile.
At that moment,
My heart just floated away.

I like you,
And I think you like me.
If you didn't,
Why would you want to get together?

In my eyes,
You are sweet.
In my eyes,
You are you.

Maybe it will work out,
Maybe it won't.
Only time will tell.
But I will always care for you.

By Chole(http://www.netpoets.com/poems/love/1254002.htm)

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Yeay.. tomorrow i'll be going to Pangkor with Miss.Best.Friend & geng.. even tho this is gonna be a pretty short trip, but a trip nonetheless.. hehe.. nampak sgt dah lama tak cuti.. Hopefully it's gonna be a good one, given the group of people who's going.. will tell all once i'm back..

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Was talking to Mdm.KS yesterday.. how sad is it that i only know abt friend's news & updates thru their blogs? very, isnt it? hehe.. otherwise, given how "often" i 'dont call, let alone meet up with them, blogs do help a lot.. hehe.. god, what have technology turned us into?? :o so have to try to make more effort this year to meet up with people.. One way is to try to meet up with Mdm.KS on her turf for a change, since i'm crashing over at Miss.Best.Friend's crib tonite.. it still have ceased to surprised me that somehow my friends ended up in the same place.. hehe.. good for me tho, sekali harung je... haha.. Anyway, this would probably be the last time i see Mdm.KS before the delivery.. so hopefully the next time, i'll be seeing you & the little one..

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On other news.. Parents dearest are seriously thinking of leaving The Island & move here.. have not made the final decisions just yet.. but then, we have been thinking about it for a while.. on the details, still on the sketchy side but i think we're on to something already.. will see how this goes.. but wont be in anytime soon though..


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Was reading abt this senator who got fined over sms divorce.. i think the judge made a pretty good comment.. judge Zainor Rashid Hassin said: ”When you marry someone, you are to go through all the processes like merisik, bertunang, bernikah and bersanding. Now, why can’t you divorce someone properly as well.” I mean, if you really want to end it, go la face the person & say it upfront (or at least thru someone u trust).. duh... besides why on earth la would u want to do this thru sms? some people can be so weird..


erk.. already late.. i better leave now before anyone catches me for more work stuff.. ciao..

You're a smart guy.. i'm sure you've figured out by now why we stay away from you... Why we turned a blind eye to whatever she does.. why we accept whatever excuse you guys cooked up for us, no matter how crappy it is..
you realised now how much it hurts her.. and sadly, you now realised that you cannot do anything abt it..

At least before you were far away, we can still kid ourselves that it didnt matter.. but now that you're just a stone throw away.. so near yet so far.. and it hurts even more.. think for yourselves what you need to do now..

Lilue took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in ..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Your Existing Situation
Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.
Yeah right.. more like a magnet to weirdos that is..

Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants.

Your Desired Objective
Intense, vital, and animated, taking a delight in action. Activity is directed towards success or conquest and there is a desire to live life to the fullest.

Your Actual Problem
Takes a delight in action and wants to be respected and esteemed for her personal accomplishments.

I was out with the adventurous two, mdm KS_girl & hubby last weekend.. aiyo.. mem, you're already ready for maternity leave end of this month, still wanna go berkelah ke? luckily the spot we chose doesnt allow her to get close to the river, so no worries there la.. and lucky for us, it only started raining on our way back.. considering that we started a bit later than planned due to the unexpected car trouble.. had to get my car towed to Glenmarie..

had been awhile since i've done such outdoorsy stuff.. the last one was during one of our office team building thingy, but given the company & the trekking we had to do to get to the place, not quite as exciting.. anyway, we had fun.. Ms.Comic Book brought her bro along.. we bbq'ed some food.. basically hang out.. pretty relaxing..

Looking at the adventurous two, i sometimes wondered.. how lucky they are to have found each other.. i mean, how do you make 2 people from different families, different locations, different ..etc, well, together.. ? i get the concept, but realising it is like..so difficult..

1. Do not walk behind me for I may not lead. Do not walk ahead of me for I may not follow. Do not walk beside me for the path is narrow. In fact just fck off and leave me alone.

2. The journey of a thousand miles begins with a broken fan belt and a flat tire.

3. The darkest hour is just before dawn. So if you're going to steal your neighbor's paper, that's the time to do it.

4. Sex is like air. It's not important unless you aren't getting any.

5. Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.

6. No one is listening until you fart.

7. Always remember you're unique. Just like everyone else.

8. Never test the depth of the water with both feet.

9. If you think nobody cares whether you're alive or dead, try missing a couple of mortgage payments.

10. Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.
That way, when you criticize them, you're a mile away and you have their shoes.

11. If at first you don't succeed, skydiving is not for you.

12. Give a man a fish and he will eat for a day. Teach him how to fish, and he will sit in a boat and drink beer all day.

13. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.

14. If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything.

15. Some days you are the bug; some days you are the windshield.

16. Don't worry; it only seems kinky the first time.

17. Good judgment comes from bad experience, and a lot of that comes from bad judgment.

18. The quickest way to double your money is to fold it in half and put it back in your pocket.

19. A closed mouth gathers no foot.

20. Duct tape is like the Force. It has a light side and a dark side,and it holds the universe together.

21. There are two theories to arguing with women. Neither one works.

22. Generally speaking, you aren't learning much when your lips are moving.

23. Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it.

Someone will always be prettier.
They will always be smarter.
Their house will be bigger.
They will drive a better car.
Their children will do better in school.
Their husband will fix more things around the house.

So let it go, and love you and your circumstances.
Think about it.....
The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart.
The most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children.
The richest woman you know -- she's got the car, the house, the clothes-- might be lonely.

So.......love you. Love who you are right now. Tell yourself "I am too blessed to be stressed." Be blessed ladies and pass this on to encourage another woman.

"To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world".


Send this to all of the wonderful women you know....I just did.


"LeArN Fr0m YeStErDaY, LivE FoR T0DaY, HoPe FoR T0m0rRoW"

Here i am, in Singapore, on a Saturday, at 5.30pm, - still working while almost everyone else around the world is on hols ? go figure..

Anyway, hopefully will be able to leave before 7pm.. and probably start off tomorrow a bit later.. (yes, i am also working tomorrow..sob!sob!).. that way i'd be able to check out Mandarin's pool.. hehe.. that is if i can wake up early enuff.. hehe.. depending on what's on tonite..

Anyway.. this year has been a pretty hectic & busy, work-wise..oh how time fly so fast... on personal-count, absolute failure in own personal life..haha.. although i'm still hopeful in the coming year..

Next year - well, already have a few major events coming up.. job rotation (if it ever happens..at this rate..), a friend's engagement (whenever u fix the date, girlfriend..just let me know.. hehe)... bro moving nearer to my place.. hmm.. dont know yet whether this will be for better or for worse..

Speaking abt my bro, his son was so sweet.. the other day when my parents & i was visiting him at the new place, he was being his cranky self due to his fever.. again.. but he cant keep his cool for that long.. haha.. wasnt long before he was happily playing with mum.. at one point, he got fascinated with my phone & the game i was playing.. (yelah, dah dia buat sombong kat kita in the 1st place tuh, kita gi la buat something else, like playing the game on the phone..hehe).. he ended up soo engrossed in the game, that he started leaning on me and practically lying on top of me.. alahai comel nye.. hehe.. and this is from this kid, who everytime we meet, sure put on airs & wont let go of his papa.. apa la.. so the drama queen one la this boy.. hehe.. this morning pun, had to like wave like a mad person to him before i got into my cab, before he would flash that winning smile of his .. mahal gile senyum nye tuh.. hehe..

okla.. already rambling nonsense dah nie.. so need to get out of here.. hehe.. mana pulak minah nie gie? tadi kata nak gie tengok shipment dah kuar belum je..

So HAPPY NEW YEAR to all!!

Happy Birthday to me..
Happy Birthday to me..
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday..
Happy Birthday to me.....................

Ahaks.. finally, i'm .. 27! erk.. cam tak caya je.. hehe..

It's 2 more days from my birthday & i've already started my celebration over the weekend.. hehe..

a couple of my girlfriends came over for an early celebration, plus, one of them also just had her birthday on friday.. kira celebrate sekali la.. which of course gave me the perfect reason to avoid a particular event which i didnt really wanna go.. ahaks.. thank you soo much gals..!! with friends like you, i can take on the world.. hehe, or rather forget my woes.. i so need to make sure i make more time to meet up with my girlfriends as part of my new year resolution. Plus while both of them are around in KL & still unattached.. hehe..

something which also happened over the weekend made me realised, just how long it has been since i went out on dates..(not that i do go out that often before tho..& with not-so-many-guys either.. hehe).. heck, i've almost forgotten how it's like.. terrible huh?

This morning itself has brought on 2 early surprises for me.. one was a birthday msg from an old friend.. I havent heard from Mr.Italy for so long, since his marriage last year.. could it be that my theory has been proven to be correct? hehe..i have this theory (which like i said, is my own warped sense of theory on my lovelife) that, of all the guys that i've known (and i mean those who were "more than friends"), they'd be the one who'd leave.. yet, they always came back.. god knows la what exactly they expect from me by doing so, but somehow, they do.. which always puts me in an arkward position, given that they almost always do not include their other-halfs when doing so..

The other one was a call from someone regarding potential Mr.Right.. or so they tell me la.. ahaks.. well, i guess no harm in getting to know someone new.. but why la you guys always come in droves? it has happened before & look where it got me.. absolutely nowhere.. that's why you girls out there should not be like me...ahaks.. dah la tak reti go out with more than 1 guy at a time and plain tak reti go out with people.. i'm such a lost case.. hehe..

but otherwise you'll never hear the end of it.. typical la kan, here i am, almost 27, still single & not seeing anyone, which somehow violates all the rules of the social norm.. not that i mind that much, but the lack of non-couple friends & lack of couple-doom topics (which includes wedding stuff/baby/in-laws/other-half kinda stories) do get to you sometimes...

well, will see what else is in store for the rest of the week.. still have my dinner plans (which dont even know whether we can make it for this week) with Miss.Best.Friend.. wished that a certain someone would do something, however insignificant for the big day, but doubt that that person even knows abt it.. ;p

i know i've got to let go of this.. i suppose, feeling of 'anger'..
it's not like my anger is directed to anything or anyone in specific..
it's just in general..
it's just is..
Maybe it's just the sideeffect of my illness..
Maybe it's was from those incidents..
Maybe it's just... me.

dunno la..

ergh.. there are things that i wanted to purge out of my system, but currently - otak tengah berserabut... so will try to sort that one out.. somehow..

btw, my colleague, who like me, tgh kemaruk nak change our phone.. (hehe.. i know..i know.. not exactly a priority item to splurge on right now.. but i soo la want one.. read that again-want, not need..hehe) managed to got us a pretty good deal on a Sony W550 (i think that is the right model name..) if we pay cash... which is not bad, considering the market price is abt 200+ higher..

i'm actually eyeing the other model, W880 (ok..so i can't exactly remember the model's name..so sue me.. u can go find out yourself, it's that bright orange coloured one...hehe), but that is like soo out of my budget.. come on la.. to spend more than 1/2 of my hard-earned monthly pay on some credit card sized gadget? so very very tempting & i so so want to do so, but the practical side of me is screaming no way... susah jugak being practical nie ek.. haha..

anyway, i'm gonna sleep on it & decide tomorow..but if i can save 200 on that one, then i can buy my dad a new phone too, huh? but then i'd still have to fork out the money, which i didnt have to, in the first place..

hmm..decisions..decisions.. so hard to do.. :p

Talking abt my friend who's getting married this weekend..hmm where to start ya? hehe.. he's pretty much been 'somewhere around in my life', since the start of us, the ptuk12 scholars..hehe.. and i'll see him almost every hols during a-levels (since our school has the same hols every time.. *rolling eyes*...).. he used to send me crazy mails during a-levels (yes, those written & stamped types you know..)... he's forever cracking jokes, telling stories and so darn observant, it's like i can never keep any secrets from him.. haha..

One of the best birthday that i've had was during my trip to his uni, during my 2nd year i think.. me & a bunch of friends, all from various parts of uk, decided to spend christmas hols in scotland (since nearly all of his batch of malaysian uni-mates are close friends of mine anyway)..

as per usual, being it was winter time & fasting month.. we pretty much stayed up all nite & slept in all day.. hehe.. everyday, we'd have to pull & push each other out the door, to actually go & visit the sites & other towns around their uni.. in fact we almost forgotten to keep track of the days & ended having a tour of an almost empty town coz everyone else is out celebrating christmas.. hehe..

The girls threw me a surprise party for my birthday with cakes & lotsa food and such, which btw, i didn't expected half of them to remember.. hehe.. Anyway, he couldn't make it to the party coz he was on his way back from london.. but the truth was, he has already bought me a cake (a 2nd cake) & planned his trip to arrive in time to throw me a surprise party himself (he didnt know abt the girls' party) but got caught coz his train got delayed.. mind you, this is one guy that i know of, who'd always remember everyone's birthday & he has never forgotten to send me a card every year since the start of a-levels till i graduated.. so the next day, the guys invited us to hang out at their place & (he) threw me a(another) surprise party.., by the guys this time he says... it was the sweetest thing anyone ever done for me.. aww..

dont get me wrong tho.. even though i'd say that we've been pretty close, it's not like we share that much time together nor tell each other personal stuff and such.. but i do know that he's a very good friend whom i can rely on.. heck, i could even crashed over at his place, at a short notice at that, with my parents in tow when we wanted to go a tour of scotland.. haha..

dont la ask how come we never ended up together if we're such "good friends".. i guess it our friendship was never that way & not meant to be.. i'm happy for him tho & wish him all the best.. and hopefully we'll get to stay as friends..as it is, since i got back to malaysia, had barely managed to keep in touch with him, since he lack access to emails..dahla, never calls lak tuh when he is in malaysia..dah nak balik sana, baru cakap.. so, will see la how 'grand' the wedding will be on both side this weekend..

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If your friend is the bride.. and she invited you to go to the bridegroom's kenduri.. is it appropriate to go? considering that you dont know the guy, nor anyone else (from his side) for that matter.. hmm.. good question really... but then again, for most of my friend's wedding, i didnt know anyone but for the said friend, which is a problem when that particular person happened to be in the middle of their "acara bersanding" or something.. even worst, when you go to such kenduri on your own.. so have to reconsider going to Miss.Dot's (or madam now) KL reception..

btw..wey, sapa nak ikut i gie kenduri budak2 tuh this weekend?? jomla!!

They say that you can't choose who you're related to; that's why God created friends..

I tried to stay away from you people, knowing just how much you dont like me.. but i dont know, i must have some kind of power or something over you people.. you just cant stay away can you? It's really getting irritating having to put up with your petty comments, acting like we're such bosom buddies when i know that you'd be talking behind my back anyway.. so kampung one, you know.. but i know that i can't get rid of you.. i know that i can't retaliate back because that would just be exactly what you want.. and i am trying to just let it slide, but i'm tired of being the target here..and at some point, i'm just going to blow coz i'm no angel either....so god just please provide me the strengh to have patience with these people.. let me be able to close my eyes & ears (& hopefully my heart) to whatever that they do/say, in order the preserve this very fragile thread of connection between us..

luckily i do have other people to fall back onto.. other people whom i've chose to associate myself with.. who knows me.. who (i hope) truly cares abt me..


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btw, bro already gotten his keys to the apartment, which is opposite my house..so no definite plans as yet when they'll be moving. but i guess should be soon.. apparently my cousin's fiancee also bought an apartment at the same place, but in a different block..i guess will be moving in after their wedding this x-mas..

another note: i've completed my 4000-pieces jigsaw puzzle.. yeay!! now all i have to do is figure out what to do with it? was hoping to be able to frame it up & hang it.. any ideas how? hehe..