Princess Lilue

There are 4 types of Jobs: 1. Good for you and good for other people... (the best)... 2. Bad for you but good for other people... 3. Good for you but bad for other people... 4. Bad for you and bad for other people.... A lot of people are stuck in a job no.2. The best think is to change those jobs to become no.1 so that it's good for you and for other people.... - Tony Robbins.

Sometimes u have to stop chasing what u want,so that u can think again whether u REALLY want it or it was just a temporary fascination
-Fazley

p/s: he may not be a DR, he doesnt have to be one to tell facts/quotes that has meaning.. although i still dont agree with the fact that he dared call himself dr in the first place. if you're familiar with the education world (at least i think i do, both my parents are in the business), wouldnt have believed it anyway..

Make Me Strong by Sami Yusuf

I know I'm waiting (Aku tahu aku sedang menunggu)
Waiting for something (Sedang menunggu sesuatu)
Something to happen to me (Sesuatu untuk berlaku kepada diriku)
But this waiting comes with (Tetapi bersama penantian ini)
Trials and challenges (Cubaan dan cabaran)

Nothing in life is free (Tiada yang percuma di dalam hidup ini)
I wish that somehow (Namun aku berharap)
You'd tell me out aloud (Engkau akan beritahu aku sekuat-kuatnya)
That on that day I'll be ok (Yang aku akan ok pada ketika itu)

But we'll never know cause (Tetapi kita tidak akan tahu, kerana)
That's not the way it works (Kebiasaannya bukanlah begitu)
Help me find my way (Bantulah aku menemui caraku)

My Lord show me right from wrong (Tuhanku tunjukkanlah aku yang benar dari yang salah)
Give me light make me strong (Berikanlah aku cahaya, jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)
I know the road is long (Aku tahu perjalanan ini panjang)
Make me strong (Jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)
Sometimes it just gets too much (Kadangkala terlalu banyak yang aku perlu tempuhi)
I feel that I've lost touch (Aku rasa aku telah kehilangan sentuhan)
I know the road is long (Aku tahu perjalanan ini panjang)
Make me strong (Jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)

I know I'm waiting (Aku tahu aku sedang menunggu)
Yearning for something (Mengharapkan sesuatu)
Something known only to me (Sesuatu yang hanya aku tahu)
This waiting comes with (Bersama penantian ini)
Trials and challenges (Cubaan dan cabaran)

Life is one mystery (Kehidupan adalah satu misteri)
I wish that somehow (Namun aku berharap)
You'd tell me out aloud (Engkau beritahu aku sekuat-kuatnya)
That on that day you'll forgive me (Yang Engkau akan memaafkan aku ketika itu)
But we'll never know cause (Tetapi kita tidak akan tahu, kerana)
That's not the way it works (Kebiasaannya bukanlah begitu)
I beg for your mercy (Aku mohon kasih sayang-Mu)

My Lord show me right from wrong (Tuhanku tunjukkanlah aku yang benar dari yang salah)
Give me light make me strong (Berikanlah aku cahaya, jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)
I know the road is long (Aku tahu perjalanan ini panjang)
Make me strong (Jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)
Sometimes it just gets too much (Kadangkala terlalu banyak yang aku perlu tempuhi)
I feel that I've lost touch (Aku rasa aku telah kehilangan sentuhan)
I know the road is long (Aku tahu perjalanan ini panjang)
Make me strong (Jadikanlah aku seorang yang tabah)

- Artikel iluvislam.com

Actually, i'm not sure what is it i want out of life..

i know that:
- i dont exactly want to be a housewife or a teacher..
- i dont want a job that makes me work til 4am in the morning or til midnight. sekali sekala is one thing, but every month is a bit too much
- i dont think i can last working in the government sector. i would definitely die of boredom
- i dont mind working with numbers & excels, but i am so phobic with reporting/closing activities right now
- i dont mind doing analysis work. i'm good, but not that great
- i dont mind if it includes travelling, but if i do get married, not too sure how that will be a factor. oh ya btw, if you make me travel, dont la make me do the jobs at the office as well during my travel. tak sempat2 tau nak cover semua benda.
- i do plan to get married at some point of time, so i dont plan to chain myself at work all nite, weekends and public hols
- i want to at least be able to take leave or be on mc, without being chased for something or the other. Ini, cuti 3 hari tapi keje for 2 out of that 3 days.. macam la the company nak lingkup kalau i takde for a few days
- i'm not that great a leader. i can teach/tell you what/how to do but dont expect me to hold your hand all the time. i'm no good at detailed, nitty gritty work, i get lost. (which is why i am dying doing closing work, it's too detailed for my brains sob sob)
- i would love to do "think out of the box" type stuffs, but then again, you have to give me the time to think. if my to-do list is longer than 1 page & can never be finished-type, then dont expect me to come out with fantastic ideas & such.
- it's not so much the money that i'd chase (but you do have to pay me you know.. including bonuses) but the satisfaction of a job well done. ini sebabkan nak kejar semua benda, buat yang mana sempat aje & asal siap aje... seems like no meaning to it. all superficially done.

is there such job that could cater to my wishes? hmmm.. i wonder..

p/s: Joining this rat-race life is no fun. What do you get out of it? As per saying by my colleage's elder - "Keje apa la ni? Keluar pagi, balik malam. Tak juga kaya! Kaya lagi aku yang duduk rumah ni"...

I wanna go traveling.
I miss traveling.
I wish I can find a job that allows me to take time to go traveling.
In my current, I have annual leave but I can barely take any. In fact, I'm working on most public holidays.

My wishlist:
- seoul ( I want to meet Hyun Joong & SS501 specifically hehe)
- New zealand
- greece
- morocco
- Austria
- japan
I dont mind revisiting some of these places either:
- uk
- france
- usa
- holland
Etc

Like i said.. Its a wishlist..

How to makes yourself love something That you dont?
How do you convince yourself That this is just a learning curve? That you will master IT someday?
How continue on when IT is the last thing That you want to Look at or think about?


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Salam Aidiladha buat semua Umat islam di luar Sana...

Buat yang mengerjakan haji tahun Ini, semoga mendapat haji yang mabrur. Esp for MdmKS's hubby & FIL, and my colleague, Farah. Insya Allah..

Sigh.. performance baik pun tak cukup, performance bad lagi la.. adoi..
aku tak larat la nak layan..

keje nye tak kisah la sangat..
tapi admin part, layan orang part..
bos nya lagi, "client" nya lagi..
aku tak suka la..
Sangat tak rajin nak buat/layan benda2 mengarut ni..
bab2 orang paling tak suka..
why else would i be the loner that i am?

Added: my mum says don't be like the typical malais. Can't take a little challenge. Already looking for way out.
How little a challenge is considered little? At what point do you decide to struggle through, and when to call it a day? It's a very fine line between giving up & accepting that you can't. Which I'm no expert of course..

"if something doesnt work, change it"..

Saw this quote on the wall.
So what i'm doing now doesn't work, so what do I change? My profession? Hmmm...


P/s: I did create this blog as a place to "lepas geram", so kindly ignore all these nonsensical posts, for the past few mth & any upcoming ones.. Tq.

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Aku bosan!
Aku Tak Suka!
Aku tak larat!

Uwaaa... Help!!!

I was thinkin' about ya
I drew a little picture
But some things you can't put on paper
Like ya like shooting stars
Or write songs on guitar
Got more things to do than stare at a mirror

And I know I know,
She's gotta be out there, out there
I know, I know, she's gotta be

Maybe I'm wrong maybe I'm right
Maybe I'll just let you walk by
What can I say, maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future
In a beautiful face
Maybe

She's anything but typical
A sweet suprise
No matter what she's looking at the brightside
It's gonna be worth it
Cos that's what love it's
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect!

And I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there
I know I know, she's gotta be.
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right, maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say, maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future, in a beautiful face
Maybe

They say, give it time, give it time and it will fall in line
But I keep wondering how and when and why I haven't met you...

But maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right

Ooohhhhh
Is she the one is it today
Will I turn the corner
See my future, in a beautiful face

Maybe I'm wrong, maybe I'm right
Maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say
Maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one, is it today
Will I turn the corner, see my future
In a beautiful face
Maybe ohh maybe yeah

I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect.

~David Archuleta~
P/s: the song is so-so, but loved the lyrics...

Some of my god-knows-when-i'll-achieve-it deams:

• To open up a bookstore ala Meg Ryan's You've Got Mail's Shop around the corner. Including a wicked cafe, selling oh-so-yummy pastries & coffee ala Nora Robert's Three Sister Island Bookstore (chewah..)
• To write a (bestseller) book.. or at least something that someone might actually read.. hehhe..
• To be someone who gets paid to read books or buy books.. ooo..wont that be nice?
• To get paid to travel... in style of course.. *stars in my eyes*..

Is it just a dream? To tell the truth, i'm not that rajin to open up a business. Got to have the effort. but then again, rather than i slave myself over my current work. For at least a week per month, i have to stay late. and i mean late. I left office at 1am yesterday. In fact i didnt go home. My colleague bugged me to follow her home instead of driving back all the way home. Dont even ask what i wore to office today :( Last month, i was at the office til 3am++. for i think it was for 3 days, maybe 4.. baloi kah keje ku ini? And i still havent finished my work. sigh..

Call me a lazybum, a slacker.. but "Life is to be enjoyed, not endured" says Gordon B. Hinckley (whoever he is..).

"You are what you do. If you do boring, stupid monotonous work, chances are you'll end up boring, stupid and monotonous. Work is a much better explanation for the creeping cretinization all around us than even such significant moronizing mechanisms as television and education."
— Bob Black (Abolition of Work and Other Essays)

Now i know why i'm such a bore.. hehe..

If you had to choose between brains or wealth,
which one would you choose?

If you had to choose between title or non-titled,
which one would you choose?

If you had to choose between a stranger and an old friend,
which one would you choose?

Does it matter?
It all falls back to fate (jodoh), right?
hmmmmm.......



p/s: I dont mind to "bercinta lepas kahwin" (love after marriage) like Baek Seung Jo & Oh Ha Ni.. heheh...they're so sweet..

one of my weakness is..
if there's something that i dont like, i wont do it..
or there's something that i dont like to eat, i wont eat it.

which can be a bad thing.. especially when it comes to work.

it's not that i dont like my job.
but i dont like the things that i'm doing now.
so it makes me learn that much slower.
so it makes me work that much slower.
so it makes me find ways to not do work.
even when it's piling up.
even when it's overflowing.
and i get tired and bored that much easily.

you know how they say that if you like what you're doing,
you dont have to work a day in your life?
then yes, i'm working everyday.
and weekends too when i cant avoid it.
i'm soooo going to get in trouble one of these days.
how now? :(

It's not like i have anything against you.
I really dont have any bad feelings about you.
Even if you did get married.

But now that you're back in KL..
If we met by chance, of course i will say hi to you.
What exactly are you expecting from me?
For me to meet up with you?
For me to chat with you?
For me to be your friend?

What about your wife? your son?
Be friends with you & your wife?
But you havent brought up your wife at all.

I really dont get you.
Maybe you should leave me alone.
And not stir up old memories.

here are some of the dont's that you really should observe during raya (or any gathering for that matter):

- if you came in 10s and 20s, please la do not seat yourself at the 6-seater table. Others wants to eat also, not have your leftovers. Do it buffet style instead la.

- if you came early to the host's house, please3x do NOT finish the food, before the other guests have arrived. even if it is your favorite food. you dont know if the hosts have any second serving of it. nanti tuan rumah nak jamu apa kat tetamu dia.. ish, buruk betul perangai..

Bukan nak ngata.. Tapi heran la jugak... Skrg dah bulan9, nak kawin bulan depan..
- duit hantaran still2k short
- rumah nak kawin (kenduri in dec) still tak siap2 lagi
- korang nak sediakan a second set of hantaran.. Da first dah kasi masa tunang harituh tak cukup lagi ka?
The groom dah la can barely pay for his own bike, the girl pulak (altho mmg la baik budaknya) is just a student.. Family pun duduk rumah flat je.. Baloi ke nak demand hantaran sampai 8k? Nasib baik my auntie dah sediakan cincin emas utk anak dia sebelum meninggal.. Kot tak terbeli. Dah tuh, belah perempuan mula2 nak suruh tambah rantai on top of everything? Good thing u changed ur mind..
Either korang tak reti nak budget Or expecting orang lain nak tolong hulur.. Untuk kenduri korang.. Nak buat biarlah ukur baju kat badan sendiri.. Nak tunjuk kat sapa?

P/s: mujur bukan my wedding.. But kitorg yg family terdekat, terasa kesian la jugak.. Pressure pun ada, karang x pasal2 nak kena tanggung wedding orang, sedangkan bincangnya idak.. Isy, kacau betul..

It's easy to place a blame,
but hard to mend a relationship.
It's easy to give up,
but hard to make it work..

Face it, you both have made errors. After all you're but a human.. Tapi patutnya yg muda minta maaf pada yg lagi tua.. Yg anak minta maaf pada ibu..after all, if it's for the greater good, why not? It's only your soul at stake, isnt it?

Selamat hari raya, maaf zahir batin atas segala-galanya. Moga2 ibadat kita diterima Allah dan marilah kita bergembira & bermaaf-maafan.



P/s: fuyoo abang balik raya kali ni!! *amazed but sad that it has come to this... *