Princess Lilue

Wohoo.. i survived Earth Hour.. sort of..

I did switched off all of the lights & fans & tv, except for my porch light.. really..

... and went out to get dinner instead.. haha..


Of course, i'm not one of those folks who'd switched every single light in the house when i'm home.. granted, i do live alone, so i get to control what i do switch on.. on the bad side tho, i do leave my back-porch light on 24 hrs, but then that's coz the electrician did such a crummy job that the timer doesnt work.. only the front-porch does.

and i suppose i should avoid falling asleep in front of the tv during the weekends ie leaving the tv on throughout the nite. or leaving the pc on either. One has to do their part for the Mother Earth right..

Do i sleep with the lights on? Now that's a tougher question to answer. Since i was young, i'm one of those poeple who wont fall asleep unless the lights are turned off. But for the past few years, i guess you can say that i've changed.

it kinda started during that phase in my life where everything seems to be crashing down on me.. so when the light go off, everything gets heavier & bigger & kinda goes round & round my head.. it's not fear of the dark, i may not have the name for it but it's fear alright..

so cant sleep anyway.. hence having the lights on to do whatever i can to occupy the mind & just doze off when i'm tired without giving the mind a chance to dwell on things.. some days it worked, some days it doesnt... either way, i'd wake up like a zombie & just will myself to get through the day..

but i can now say that i can fall asleep with or without the lights off. hehe..

I'm all in to support the Earth hour today & switch off but...

what about the fan or air conditioner ?
tv & computers ?
i have a time-sensory porch light. does that mean i'm not switching off?

hmm.. quite the questions to ponder...

I've gotten a little book-crazy over the last few days, as there's been a couple of bookstore wars that's been going on... which btw, i only happened to know towards the end of it.. sob sob.. oh well, i didnt have the money for it earlier anyway.. haha..

Since i went to Times book clearance sale first before MPH, i think i preferred MPH's selections.. They happen to have more newer books & more choices, even compared to MPH's own book clearance last year.. plus the location this year is much better. But it was a headache trying to sort thru all those piles of books, trying to find some gem of a read...

Anyway, there's a few books that i've been eyeing, which was i didnt find (obviously), but there's were other interesting ones that i did... with me, as i normally buy used books anyway, i do try to expend the selection of books to buy & try not to stick to one particular genre.. however, this way you end up getting hit & misses, as to whether the book is good or totally not your type..etc.. one of the reasons that i sometimes just play save & get mills&boons-romance-novels-type instead.. they're normally pretty predictable, always have happy-endings & most of the time provides an enjoyable light read...sometimes, that's all you can ask for in a book.. hehe.. especially good when you're in between reading materials too..

i am however, a little impartial to chick lits.. some i can take, but most i cant stand..

How i choose a book can be as random as it gets.. sometimes coz of the cover or the title.. most of the time it'll depend on the synopsis/review at the back cover (which usually irritates me when the book has none..).. too small/big fonts can also put you off a book.. and last, but not least, the price. i wont normally get a hardcover book, just coz of the price.. unless it's those long-awaited-for series like Harry Porter..

Anyway, here's some that i've just gotten & cant wait to get started:

Naked in Death by JD Robb - I've been collecting a lot of Nora Roberts' material over the years coz i quite like her style. I havent read the Death series yet, so will see whether this series are worth looking into.

Veronika Decides To Die by Paulo Coelho

The Post-Birthday World by Lional Shriver - I really like review/synopsis given, so am expecting this to be a good read.. i hope..

Letters for Emily by Camron Wright - About an Alzheimer disease patient compiling a book of poem for his granddaughther, a tale of power of love and family.

Mister Monday - I know this is a YA book, but i've heard so much about this book that i wanted to see what it's all about... hehe..

Saw this question posted on this link BTT :

How do you arrange your books on your shelves? Is it by author, by genre, or you just put it where it falls on?

I just managed to splurge on a new book case yesterday, which i'm so totally in love with.. somehow, vivencia (or i suppose in the states you'd know them as 'pottery barn') always seems to have the exact furniture that i'd be dreaming of (& some which i didnt know that i'd want..hehe) that i just cant imagine getting it elsewhere. Well, i could, for a cheaper price no doubt, but much much less quality.

Anyway, at the moment, my books are pretty much all over the house. By my bedside, in boxes & some DIY shelves right next to the tv. I dont normally organise my books in any particular order, usually it'd go by sizes rather than author. Saw this website showing samples of rainbow bookshelves, but i doubt i have enough of similar coloured book to build one convincing-looking rainbow bookshelves.. haha..

So any suggestions before i start re-organising my books ?

Darn it.. i've already had connection problems the other day, which took ages to solve coz duh, i'm no computer genius.. i had no idea what was wrong.. hehe..

now my screen's all hazy & "moving".. another mystery for me to solve? oh no..

help!!

Saw it on MTV the other day & it kinda got stuck in my mind..

Whether you do celebrate this so-call v-day or not.. it's not wrong to spread the love around, right.. ? :)

I remembered how hard it was.. Seeing someone, who had had history with you, who at one point meant something to you.. "walking down the aisle" (well, the term doesnt apply in a Malay wedding, but you get what i mean, right..) with someone else.. Even if you no longer have feelings for the person.. It's hard.

But jodoh di tangan Tuhan. He knows what's best for you, even if you dont understand it at the time. or ever.

Honey, you're one strong babe.. That chapter of your life is over & dont let it get you down. As it is, you've got a new man already.. *wink*...

p/s: Now, if only i was as lucky as you to have a new man of my own.. There's gotta be somebody for me too, right? right ? sigh..

Nickelback
Gotta Be Somebody
This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my own breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know, when it shows up, make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, ohhh

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

I just heard from my mum, about a boy in her tuition class..

Apparently, his grades has been dropping despite him being a pretty good student. My mum highlighted her concerns to the mother, asking whether he was sick or something.. She wasnt quite sure what was wrong & the docs kept saying that there's nothing wrong with him..

Since my mother just started classes for the year this week, she was so shocked to find that the doctor has declared that the boy's hearing is totally beyond repair (if i'm not mistaken, it's one side of the ear, not both ).. & this poor boy, who's only in Form 3 will now be well, requiring the use of hearing aids & such.. he & the mother is totally heartbroken over it, especially the fact that the doctors was unable to detect it in time to help the boy.. I suppose one of the incident that lead to the discovery was when the boy never heard his own niece crying out loud, while he was sitting next to her..

Anyway, i wish all the best for the kid.. Hope he & his family stay strong in facing this challenge.. You never know, mungkin ada hikmah di sebaliknya, hanya Allah saja yang tahu..

SURAH YANG SANGAT BAIK DIBACA

Di antara surah-surah yang sangat baik untuk dibaca ialah:

1. Surah Yasin, Ia merupakan surah jantung al-Quran (Hadith Riwayat Ahmad)

2. Surah ar-Rahman, ia diibaratkan gadis pengantin (Hadith Riwayat al-Hakim)

3. Surah al-A’la, ia adalah surah yang sangat digemari oleh baginda Rasulullah s.a.w. (Hadith Riwayat Ahmad)

4. Surah al-Fatihah, ia merupakan pokok al-Quran (Hadith Riwayat al-Bukhari).

5. Surah al-Kahfi, ia adalah tempat naungan pada hari akhirat (Hadith Riwayat al-Bukhari)

6. Surah al-Kahfi, ia merupakan tempat naungan para malaika (Hadith Riwayat Muslim).

7. Surah as-Sajadah, ia sangat digemari oleh baginda Rasululla s.a.w. (Hadith Riwayat at-Tarmizi).

8. Surah al-Mulk, ia adalah surah yang memberi syafaat pada hari akhirat nanti (Hadith Riwayat Ibnu Majah).

9. Surah an-Nas dan al-Falaq, ia adalah surah yang memberi perlindungan pada hari akhirat nanti (Hadith Abu Daud).

Pray tell me where do i find such a guy.. ahaks..

Your Everything - by Keith Urban
The first time I looked in your eyes I knew
That I would do anything for you
The first time you touched my face I felt
Like I've never felt with anyone else

I wana give back what you've givin' to me
And I wanna witness all of your dreams
Now that you've shown me who I really am
I wanna be more then just your man

I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...

When you wake up, I'll be the first thing you see
And when it gets dark you can reach out for me
I'll cherish your words and I'll finish your thoughts
And I'll be your compass baby, when you get lost

I wanna be the wind that fills your sails
And be the hand that lifts your veil
And be the moon that moves your tide
The sun coming up in your eyes
Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...

Be the wheels that never rust
And be the spark that lights you up
All that you've been dreaming of and more
So much more, I wanna be your everything...
I wanna be your everything

was sort of watching the Alexander Bukan Zulkarnain - The Making (in between trying to get connected to the net.. only managed to log in tonite since i got back.. ) tonite..

Now this is one interesting topic/documentary that i wanna watch.. Since i watched Colin Farrel portraying Alexander The Great as in the movie Alexander, as ignorant as i am about Islamic history, i'm sure that is so not Iskandar Zulkarnain...

Marilah kita tengok sama2 ek..

you can read more from those who were involved in the documentary, try this link http://syirfan.wordpress.com/2008/11/07/

I'm backk, Alhamdullillah... :)


As one of the 'makcik' from my package said, i don't exactly know how to express my feelings about my experience so i'll just have to say that you have to experienced it yourselves.

But what i can say is that it is easy.. and it is hard, very hard.. emotionally, spiritually, mentally.. the things that happens around you, just shows you how great Allah is.. and how small you are.. and that truly only those chosen by Allah are able to go..

however, to those who have met the criteria to perform hajj, i'd advice you to go.. go now while you are still young, energetic.. it requires a lot of strength to do all that walking, seriously.. benda wajib nih kita kena buat jugak..

Also, it's not enough to just have the money & health to think that you are ready to go..

Learn! Learn! Learn!..

With my upcoming trip, i so wanted to get myself some new toys.. plus i wont be around during my birthday next month.. so this is kinda the wish list that i have right now..

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1. Throw out nonessential numbers.
This includes age, weight, and height.
Let the doctors worry about them.. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)

3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain get idle.
‘An idle mind is the devil’s workshop.’
And the devil’s name is Alzheimer’s!

4. Enjoy the simple things
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of
time with him or her!

6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself.
LIVE while you are alive.

7 Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it’s family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don’t take guilt trips.
Take a trip to the mall, even to a foreign country, but NOT to where the
guilt is

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

And if you don’t send this to at least four people - who cares? But do
share this with someone.

Allah berfirman, yang artinya :
"Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang mendo'a apabila ia berdo'a kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) –Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran". (QS> Al Baqarah 186)

Menghadapi bulan yang penuh barakah Allah Ta'ala, hendaklah kita memanfaatkannya untuk memperbanyak amalan-amalan ibadah, yang mana jika seseorang yang tidak mengisi waktu-waktunya terutama disaat Ramadhan niscaya dia akan menyesal, Sedangkan penyesalan itu tidak akan berguna. Di antara bentuk ibadah yang besar adalah zikir dan berdo'a, disini saya ambil zikir dan do'a bulan Ramadhan karya Syeikh Bakr bin Abu Zaid hafizhahullah seorang ulama anggota Darul Ifta' Saudi. Semoga bermanfaat untuk kita semua.

1. Do'a apabila datang bulan Ramadhan, dengan mengucapkan :

الْلَّهُمَّ سَلَّمْنِي رَمَضَانَ وَسلَّمْ رَمَضَانَ لِي وَتَسَلَّمْهُ مِنَّي

Ya Allah hantarkanlah diriku kepada bulan Ramadhan dan hantarkanlah bulan Ramadhan kepada diriku dan terimalah (amalan-amalan) Ramadhan dariku.

2. Kabar gembira dengan masuknya bulan Ramadhan, sebagaimana disebutkan dalam hadits Abu Hurairah RA.:

كَانَ رَسُوْاللَّه يُبَشَّرُ أَصْحَابَهُ بِقُدُوْمِ رمَضاَنَ يَقُوْلَ:
قَدْ جَاعَكُمْ شَهْرُ رَمَضَانَ شَهرٌمُبَارَكٌ

Rasulullah SAW biasa memberikan kabar gembira kepada para sahabatnya dengan datangnya bulan Ramadhan, Beliau bersabda: "Telah datang kepada kalian bulan Ramadhan, bulan yang penuh berkah…" (HR. Ahmad dan An-Nasa'i).

3. Do'a dari orang berpuasa secara mutlak di bulan Ramadhan, karena kemuliaan waktu dan keadaan orang-orang yang berpuasa, lebih lagi dengan memperbanyak zikir. Yang paling utama adalah membaca Al-qur'an.

4. Menyengaja berdo'a dengan penuh semangat pada malam-malam sepuluh yang terakhir dengan harapan bertepatan dengan malam Lailatul Qadar, sebagaimana telah dishahih dari Nabi SAW bahwa Beliau mengajarkan do'a kepada Aisyah RA :

اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌ تُحِبُّ العَفْوَفَاعْفُ عنَّي

Ya Allah, Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemaaf dan menyukai maaf, maka maafkanlah aku".

Tidak shahih dalam hadits ini. "عَفُوٌ Setelah lafazh " " كَرِيْمٌ " kata Adapun tambahan

5. Do'a ketika berbuka:

ذَهَبَ الظَّمَأُ وَابْتَلَّتِ الْعُرُوْقُ وَشَبَتَ الأَجْرُ إِنْ شَاءَاللََّهُ

Telah sirna rasa haus, telah basah tenggorokan dan telah pasti pahala,jika Allah kehendaki.

Tentang do'a berbuka puasa ini telah diriwayatkan ada lima (5) macam yang tidak shahih, di antaranya dengan lafazh :

اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ صُمْتُ وَعَلَىرزْقِكَ أَفْطَرْتُ

Ya Allah, untukMu aku berpuasa dan dengan rizkiMu aku berbuka (Sanad hadits ini dhaif).

Begitu pula dengan lafazh lainya merupakan Sanad hadits yang dhaif (tidak shahih).
Ada riwayat dari Ibnu Umar RA secara marfu':

كَانَ النَّبِي إِذَا لَقَمَ أَوَّلَ لُقْمَةِ قَالَ: يَا وَاسِعَ الْمَغْفِرَةِ اغَفِرْ لِي.

Adalah Nabi SAW apabila menelan makanan untuk kali pertama beliau membaca : "wahai Dzat yang Maha luas mahfirahnya, ampunilah aku".

Kemudian hadits ini mutlaq (umum), tidak ada pengkhususan untuk puasa dan tidak pula untuk yang lain.

6. Do'a ketika berbuka puasa pada suatu kaum, dengan do'a yang artinya :
"Telah berbuka orang-orang yang puasa disisi kalian, telah memakan makanan kalian orang-orang yang baik dan para malaikat bershalawat atas kalian".

7. Do'a Tatkala sahur
Tetapi tidak ada do'a khusus untuk hal ini, namun karena keumuman firman Allah:

وَبِاْلأَسْحَارِ هُمْ يَسْتَغْفِرُونَ

Dan ketika sahur mereka beristighfar. (QS. Adz-Dzaariyaat 18).

8. Do'a ketika keluar dari bulan Ramadhan.
Hal ini ditunjukkan oleh alur ayat yang telah disebutkan.

9. Apabila seseorang mencaci atau mencelakai orang yang sedang berpuasa, maka hendaklah ia mengatakan: "Aku sedang berpuasa" sebagaimana yang disebutkan didalam shahihain (shahih Bukhari dan shahih Muslim) dan yang lain. Sama saja baik puasa sunnah atau puasa wajib. Apakah ini di ucapkan dengan suara keras atau pelan? Dalam hal ini terdapat ikhtilaf (perbedaan pendapat) dan yang shahih adalah di ucapkan dengan suara terang-terangan, inilah yang dipilih oleh Syaikhul Islam Ibnu Taimiyah Raakhiimullah.

I was just surfing the net when i came across this song... Sang by the Korean group, Dong Ban Shin Gi (DBSK) aka Tong Vfang Xien Qi (TVXQ) aka Tohoshinki (note: 1st-korean name, 2nd- chinese name, 3rd-japanese name.. why they need 3 different names for the 3 different countries is beyond me.. hehe)

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Anyway, apparently this is one of their latest single:-
Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou (Why did i fall in love with you?)

Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)

Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou? (..couldn’t I call out to you at all?)
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi (Every day and night growing emotions)
Aturedasu kotoba (And words overflow)
Wakatteta noni (But I realised that)
Mou todokanai (They'd never reach you again)

Hajimete deatta sono hi kara (Since that day I first met you)
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda (I felt like I already know you)
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari (You and I melted into each other so smoothly)
Doko ni ibu nori mo issho de kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de (It was natural for me to be where you were)
Bokura wa futari de otonani natte kita (The two of us grew up together)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)

Doushite… (Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Mou kanawanai (Now we can't turn back)

Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo (The special meaning held by this day)
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo (Today you stood with a happy expression)
Kireina sugata dekami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo (You looked so beautiful while praying to god)
Boku janai hito no tonari de (But I wasn't the one next to you)
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo (And the image of you receiving blessings)
Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou? (Of that how could i let go?)

Mou Doushite… (So, Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Ano koro no bokura no koto (How we were before)
Mou modorenai (We can't return to it anymore)
kangaeta kangaeta/modorenai (We can't return/I've thought it through)

If you have never told her how you felt, how can you expect her to wait for you? agak hampeh jugak lelaki ini.. hehe..

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
I miss you.. i do? sapa ek (who)?

2.How would you describe yourself?
Kasih Berubah.. hmm, i dont think so..

3.What do you like in a guy?
Les Yeux Ouverts (French Kiss) - haha.. u wish la..

4.How do you feel today?
Cahaya .. err, there was sunshine for a while this morning after a whole week of pouring rain..

5.What is your life's purpose?
La Bamba .. yup, i plan to live in La La land forever..hehe..

6.What is your motto?
Wajah Kesayangan Hamba .. meaning?

7. What do your friends think of you?
The Gift .. but of course.. *wink*

8.What do you think of your parents?
The way you make me feel loved..

9.What do you think about very often?
What hurts the most .. hmmm ..

10.What is 2 + 2?
Tak bisa memilihmu .. guess it doesn't equal to you..

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Tonight I celebrate my love ... :)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Untitled .. how appropriate.. hehe..

13.What is your life story?
So Young .. so i am... hehe

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
By Your Side ..whomever you are..

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Asmara Ini .. hey, so not..!

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
The man you love ...i hope so..

17.What will they play at your funeral?
All Out Of Love

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Clumsy .. does this mean i'm too clumsy to have any hobby/interest?

19.What is your biggest fear?
I Don’t Want to be .. apa ek..?

20.What is your biggest secret?
Back At One ..shh..

21.What do you think of your friends
You’ll think of me ..& you will.. haha..

22.What will you post this as?
Wonderful Tonight


Anyone wants to try this is welcomed to it..

Saw the news on the net.. Lee Eon, a.k.a Korean drama Coffee Prince's Hwang Min Yeop, died on Thursday (22 Aug) due to a motorcycle accident.. omg.. apparently he was on his way home after a party when the accident occured. And the saddest part was, he's only 27 yrs old.. Guess we never really know when our time will come huh..

i so loved Coffee Prince.. It's basically a love story between Han Kyul, the rich, carefree heir & hardworking, down-on-her-luck, boyish looking Eun Chan.. They started falling for each other while working at Han Kyul's coffee shop, which his grandmother forced him to managed. However, chaos arises as Han Kyul who didn't know that Eun Chan's a girl, tries to deny his feeling for her..

Btw, Min Yeop is one of the "prince" who works in the same coffee shop, as well as Eun Chan's sister's boyfriend.. fuh, what a mouthful.. ;p

i think "James Lucas Scott" aka "Jamie" is the cutest kid ever.. hehe.. well, probably not, my nephews are wayy cuter/more handsome & much funnier.. hehe.. anyway, i l-o-v-e both of you, nephews.. muah!!

What happened to us? You know? I don't know who I am anymore. Or how I got here. I miss who I used to be. I wanna have a home again, you know? And real friends. You know, the kind of friendships we used to believe in. I miss that. And I miss you. I guess I miss all of it. Does any of that make any sense?

- Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill

Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. Find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you are leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Surah Al-Kautsar

Surah ini paling pendek, hanya mengandungi 3 ayat & diturunkan di Makkah dan bermaksud sungai di syurga. Kolam sungai ini diperbuat daripada batu permata nan indah dan cantik.

Rasanya lebih manis daripada madu, warnanya pula lebih putih daripada susu dan lebih wangi daripada kasturi.

Surah ini disifatkan sebagai surah penghibur hati Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. kerana diturunkan ketika baginda bersedih atas kematian 2 orang yang dikasihi iaitu anak lelakinya Ibrahim dan bapa saudaranya Abu Talib.

Pelbagai khasiat terkandung di dalam surah ini dan boleh kita amalkan:-

1 ) Baca surah ini ketika hujan dan berdoa, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. makbulkan doa kita.

2) Jika kita kehausan dan tiada air, bacalah surah ini dan gosok di leher, Insya'allah hilang dahaga.

3) Jika sering sakit mata, seperti berair, gatal, bengkak, sapukan air mawar yang sudah dibacakan surah ini sebanyak 10x pada mata.

4) Jika rumah dipercayai terkena sihir, baca surah ini 10x, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. bagi ilham pada kita dimana letaknya sihir itu.

5) Jika membacanya 1,000x rezeki kita akan bertambah.

6) Jika rajin membacanya, hati kita akan menjadi lembut dan khusyuk ketika menunaikan solat.

7) Jika orang teraniaya dan terpenjara membacanya sebanyak 71x, Allah s.w.t . akan memberikan bantuan kepadanya kerana dia tidak bersalah tetapi dizalimi.

Perkara yg baik kita amalkan slalu.

Wassallam.

How do you feel if you came face-to-face with people from your past? People, who at one time, was a big part of your life .. or heck, just came across their pictures, of their happy lives, with someone else.. ? I mean, chances are, since they were your 'friend', they're also friends of your friends..meaning that chances of that happening are pretty good.. we somehow dont run thaaat far off from those few circles of friends that we have.. so yeah, you kinda never managed to get rid of them from your life...

These incidents are not made intentionally.. to specifically taunt you for some twisted reasons.. most of the time anyway, ha ha..

But when that happens, do you walk away ?
Do you take a walk down memory lane & think about the what-ifs ?
Do you resent them for being happy with other people instead of you?
or it just makes no difference to you maybe?

But, then, who am i kidding..? They may had meant something in my life at one time & that will never go away. That's just not life that i see for myself, as hard as it was to let go.. it was just not meant to be..

But man, if only la my life even makes sense right now, at least it wouldnt be so hard to not be jealous of other people's life.. ha..

I would so recommend seeing the new movie, Wall-e.. the story is so adorable & cute however, carries a very serious message. Salute to Pixar for being able to convey such a heavy message in a creative & lighthearted way.

I managed to catch the Sunrise action with Mdm KS. Really loved the last act - the violinist & the sax.. man, it was good..! those guys are really talented..

At this new company of mine, we've had to attend quite a number of trainings. So the other day, we had to attend a coaching training. However, what stayed in my mind was my discussion with a colleague after that session.

She was telling me about a similar training she attended before. I wasn't that surprised about that fact but because that training was organised by her church. Of course, I've already known her as a pretty religious girl, very active in church & so on. Anyway, she said that her church do organised a lot of these kinds of thing - leadership training, coaching etc. And she's told me on a number of occasion about her pastor whom she looked up to, who always put himself at their level, keeping abreast with the latest songs, slangs, lifestyle etc just to ensure that he's able to approach them. In fact, the church is organised in such a way very much like a business organisation - with a vision casters & a few levels of managers.

Listening to her, & not for the first time, makes me wonder... just look at how organised these people are & how stategic their approach towards youngsters are. Now, comparing that to our own religion, man.. bukan apa, buat malu ada ler.. I mean, you get these people in robes, going house to house inviting them to the mosques but folks you forget.. you're targeting those people who are already going to the mosques instead of those "kutu's" by the roadside. Plus all those fights occured coz people are of different political view - i mean, what is that all about?

Come on la people.. if you want people to love Islam, to want to approach Islam.. you've got to show it la.. For example, that ustaz Ahkil Hayy.. mmg ustaz rock abih, but i think he has a point..

Anyway, that's just my 2-cent worth of input for tonite, for whatever that's worth.

Way back then, slides was the craze in the states.. So i've got boxes & boxes of slides of my travels then, which btw i'm not able to check out coz the projector is already broken.. :(

So, I'm looking for a device which will able to convert slides (I think it's 33mm types) into digital images.. A friend of mine found this on the net, but i doubt it's sold locally.

http://www.hammacher.com/publish/74083.asp?promo=new_items#

Anyone knows if there's any shops who's able to perform this? Or can get hold of this item?

My new diet as of the day before include:
- No eggs & other food product with eggs
- No chicken & other food product with chicken
- No Beans

Uwa.. what to eat like that?

p/s: Luckily i found out that bread e.g Gardenia do not contain eggs.. otherwise i dont think i can survive through this.. must remember no kaya, no mayo, no... arghh..!

Erk.. had the scariest/weirdest dream last nite.. probably my fault as well, coz trying to watch a scary movie (Jangan Pandang Belakang) on Astro last nite.. watched it for abt 20mins, then thought i better not continue.. hehe.. karang sendiri takut, sapa nak tolong? ahaks..

Anyway, back to the dream.. i guess i was PD (since it's just been a couple of weeks back when i went there with my colleagues) or somewhere near a beach & some trees.. guess something happened, or some accident of sort, whereby me & 2 others got err.. killed kot.. and in a "Ghost Whisperer" style, my "ghost" went to search for my ex-colleague, trying to tell them what had happened to me..

I'm not the type to dwell on deathly matters, so the dream was kinda of an odd topic for me.. but then i could have been thinking abt those influx of local & foreign horror movies lately.. plus, i have heard some interesting ghost stories over lunch recently too.. hehe..

however, what i'm trying to really reflect upon is, how much do we really ponder over death.. people do say nothing clears your priority like death flashing across your mind.. and i was just thinking that if i die today, i don't think i have enough to carry me into the afterlife.. i mean, sure i try not to miss my prayers, i fast every now & then (other than ramadhan), i basically try to follow the rules.. but at times, i'm not sure if i'm truly there.. i dont dress properly e.g i still do the 3/4 sleeves & fitting clothes, my scarves are not always proper..i dont always check that my food are (truly) halal (ie i take for granted that it is, given that i live in this country..).. i dont always listen/join the 'ceramah's or religious talks.. i watch way too much tv & listen to too much music.. i dont always listen to my parents.. well, you get the picture..

and to really understand our roles & responsibilities to Allah in this world, well, it can be overwhelmingly scary to realise how far you are from the ideal.. at the end of it, i can only try my best & hope that my "niat"/intention is enough to win me a spot in 'syurga'(heaven)...insya allah...

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Who will you be? Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
~ Lucas, One Tree Hill

It's okay to be afraid
of the things you don't understand.
It's okay to be anxious
when things aren't working your way.
It's okay to feel lonely...
even when you're with other people.
It's okay to feel unfulfilled
because you know something is missing
(even when you're not sure what it is.)
It's okay to think and worry and cry.

It's okay to do
whatever you have to do, but
just remember, too,
that eventually you're going to
adjust to the changes life brings your way,
and you'll realize that
it's okay to love again and laugh again,
and it's okay to get to a point where
the life you live
is full and satisfying and good to you...
and it will be that way
because you made it that way.

Laine Parsons

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So there's this boy.
He's really got my attention.
Bottom line - if he wants me.
I could be his.
But he don't.

So happy birthday to you, my friend.

My neighbour, way back in the Island, somehow located me on Facebook. So, i've like, have not seen him (physically) since we left high school.. although the first 1-2 years abroad, we've crossed path before, thru friends etc..

Anyway, he's inviting me to his wedding next month. To tell the truth, i'm not sure whether i want to go. Of course, first & foremost is the daunting task of "going thru" it alone.. I mean, i'm not too sure who's exactly attending this do.. the only mutual acquintance we have that i'm still in contact with is Mrs.BF, of course.. and well, anyone else that i might know there, are basically "people from my past", some whom i'm not too keen to run into..



if i've got a prince of my own, then at least by default i've got someone to drag to such occasions.. hehe.. but to drag one of my girlfriends, pity them too.. there wouldnt be anyone that they'd know there (i'd think so, but i could be wrong.. )

Plus, knowing this guy.. hmm.. and looking at his card & website (seriously, he created a website just to announce his wedding.. ish ish) .. i've got this uneasy feeling about the whole thing.. ntah ler..

but can't deny that i am curious to see how these people have turned out now.. the picture of them that i have at the back of my mind is still a bunch of kids in their white shirt & pants school uniforms.. hahah.. zaman2 budak2 bodoh dulu..


Mrs.BF - jom ler pergi with me..!! :(

Forget love - I'd rather fall in chocolate!
~Sandra J. Dykes

Mdm KS told me the good news earlier today.. Congrats babe!!

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Sometimes i wonder.. the Ex got married the same day as Mdm KS (well, probably earlier since the kenduri on his side was the same day as Mdm KS's).. if it was me, i wonder what my life would be like today.. going on to child no 2 maybe.. i dont know.. i havent heard from him since that last phone call with that invitation to his wedding..

i dont have regrets, but the what-if's do poke it's ugly head out sometimes.. would i have had my happy-endings? who knows, it could also be the worst nightmare (given some of my friend's experience) of my life.. only God knows best.. i know He has His plans for me but yet, sometimes i dont know if i am strong enough to face His tests..

Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings. ~Miles Franklin

p/s: I miss having someone "to tell it to"...

While we were preparing to receive our new GM in a welcoming party today, we were suddenly surprised by an announcement of a bomb threat. I, on my way to check on the food, almost dropped my jaws in surprised.. i mean, seriously? i've heard of it happening & i logically think that it is not impossible, but yet, it seem unreal that it would happen to us.. of course, i did not have some kind of whole-life-flashes-in-your-mind kinda thing.. i was too busy trying to settle/think abt the last minute details of the party & at the same time evacuating the premise etc.. hehe.. i know most of us take the whole thing lightly & made jokes about it, but what if la ek.. there was a real bomb? you people should really learn to walk faster (ie not melenggang).. i know it is 9/11 today but cant think of where we fit in this picture.. i mean we're not even a US-based company.. probably just coz we're big.. if it was my previous company, i wouldnt be surprised.. they are a well-known US company & the company logo i'm sure is way too obvious from the air..

msg'd my friend about it while waiting for the bomb squad clearance.. at first he didnt quite believe me and he supposedly planned to come over to the office today.. guess it's his lucky day today..


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I was watching Oprah the other day.. she was interviewing some ladies, Jennifer Aniston included.. who are first-timer director of short movies as part of Glamour magazine challenge.. i was quite interested in what one of the ladies' commented.. that there's so many women like me (ie singles), who have their heads up in the clouds (eg on ipod, phone or just plain ignoring other people) just "miss" the signs given to them by men..

is that so? i mean, i do know i can be a bit too "lurus" (naive - i think).. and i dont usually find it easy to connect with a stranger.. so yeah, maybe i am missing all the "signs" out there, but sometimes, the ones i do meet.. gives such confusing signals, that i cant even tell what exactly these people are trying to tell me.. either he dont know how to woo a girl (ie give the right signal) or he's just plain not interested. ntahler.. to pursue doesnt seem right, but not to pursue also sounds very wrong.. ;p

so can you blame a girl for not 'seeing' the signs.... ?

I picked up this song from a cd i bought in France during the milleninum new year. We were on our way back from our day trip to Geneva, Switzerland to my senior's friend's place. My senior, she wanted to buy some French songs to remember our trip there. So we stopped by this mall we found & since both of us knows next to nothing about french musics, we just grabbed a cd each. Somehow, she ended up with a french artist's english album instead.. hehe.. poor her..

I on the other hand, bought a compilation album, with some familiar english songs mixed with french ones.. When i heard this song, i was totally hooked.. wished i could watch the actual Notre Dame de Paris musical.. (yeah, right... i can barely afford to watch any theater here.. let alone go to Paris to watch one..)..

p/s: can you believe that Garou (the first singer) played Quasimodo? he is soo good looking & that voice.. need i say more?

Belle, the original cast (Garou, Daniel Lavoie & Patrick Fiore)

Silence...

Doesn't mean I'm gone..





Quiet...

Doesn't mean i dont care..




But deep down in my heart somewhere,
You are remembered and always cared.......

There are moments when you just suddenly stop, step out from the moving wheel of life and wonder is there more to life than this? You look at the wheel that continued moving, you look at the people on it – some that you know, others that you don’t – and you start asking yourself, is this what you want in life?
As more years are added onto you, these moments start to come more frequently. Signs of maturity perhaps, but maybe it’s just our destiny. Maybe we’ve always been on a journey. And these ‘moments’ are just triggers to bring us back on track.
I don’t know.
Right now, I’m still standing still, watching the wheel move past me.

I need a...

boyfriend..

or an escort.. :(

or a driver would do... muahaha...

It's my girlfriend's wedding this weekend up north..
and i've got no one to go with (or rather to drive me).. uwaa..

I rather not drive myself, altho, if need to, i guess it's not such a big deal..
However, my mum does make a big fuss over it, which i so do not want to get into that now..
And since she's also going (we're only gonna be meeting there), i cant exactly show up & not explain how i got there.. heheh..

Unless of course there are other ppl going to the wedding as well...
& willing to take in this hitchhiker along.. i'm all game for it.. *wink*

Went to visit Mrs.BestFriend just now.. She's doing fine but her baby (currently named "Baby F" as the parents dont wanna divulge the name till he's been registered.. ;p) was still in the incubator earlier.. even her parents have yet to meet their new grandson..

Baby F did arrive right on the dot, but apparently his lung's a little weak/under-developed & doc suspected some infections etc.. anyway, we spied on him from the corner of the nursery & he looks pretty fine to us.. he's only abt 2.6kg when he was born, but i'm sure not for long.. he''d be up & running before you know it...*wink* probably was just trying to scare/play a trick on his parents kot.. ahaks.. you've got a joker on your hand babe! hehe..

Anyway, i hope.. no i'm sure he's gonna be fine & be gorgeous and all..

A shout out to Mrs.BestFriend..

A new person
Has arrived on earth
A tiny little one
A very special birth

Congratulations to you
For the birth of your son
You must be filled with joy
For this special one

"At this moment there are six billion, five-hundred and two million, eight
hundred and sixty seven thousand one hundred and twenty people in the world-give
or take a few. And sometimes all you need is one. For better or for worse."

-One Tree Hill