Princess Lilue

1. Throw out nonessential numbers.
This includes age, weight, and height.
Let the doctors worry about them.. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)

3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain get idle.
‘An idle mind is the devil’s workshop.’
And the devil’s name is Alzheimer’s!

4. Enjoy the simple things
5. Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of
time with him or her!

6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourself.
LIVE while you are alive.

7 Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it’s family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge.

8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don’t take guilt trips.
Take a trip to the mall, even to a foreign country, but NOT to where the
guilt is

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

And if you don’t send this to at least four people - who cares? But do
share this with someone.

Allah berfirman, yang artinya :
"Dan apabila hamba-hamba-Ku bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka (jawablah), bahwasanya Aku adalah dekat. Aku mengabulkan permohonan orang yang mendo'a apabila ia berdo'a kepada-Ku, maka hendaklah mereka itu memenuhi (segala perintah) –Ku dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepada-Ku, agar mereka selalu berada dalam kebenaran". (QS> Al Baqarah 186)

Menghadapi bulan yang penuh barakah Allah Ta'ala, hendaklah kita memanfaatkannya untuk memperbanyak amalan-amalan ibadah, yang mana jika seseorang yang tidak mengisi waktu-waktunya terutama disaat Ramadhan niscaya dia akan menyesal, Sedangkan penyesalan itu tidak akan berguna. Di antara bentuk ibadah yang besar adalah zikir dan berdo'a, disini saya ambil zikir dan do'a bulan Ramadhan karya Syeikh Bakr bin Abu Zaid hafizhahullah seorang ulama anggota Darul Ifta' Saudi. Semoga bermanfaat untuk kita semua.

1. Do'a apabila datang bulan Ramadhan, dengan mengucapkan :

الْلَّهُمَّ سَلَّمْنِي رَمَضَانَ وَسلَّمْ رَمَضَانَ لِي وَتَسَلَّمْهُ مِنَّي

Ya Allah hantarkanlah diriku kepada bulan Ramadhan dan hantarkanlah bulan Ramadhan kepada diriku dan terimalah (amalan-amalan) Ramadhan dariku.

2. Kabar gembira dengan masuknya bulan Ramadhan, sebagaimana disebutkan dalam hadits Abu Hurairah RA.:

كَانَ رَسُوْاللَّه يُبَشَّرُ أَصْحَابَهُ بِقُدُوْمِ رمَضاَنَ يَقُوْلَ:
قَدْ جَاعَكُمْ شَهْرُ رَمَضَانَ شَهرٌمُبَارَكٌ

Rasulullah SAW biasa memberikan kabar gembira kepada para sahabatnya dengan datangnya bulan Ramadhan, Beliau bersabda: "Telah datang kepada kalian bulan Ramadhan, bulan yang penuh berkah…" (HR. Ahmad dan An-Nasa'i).

3. Do'a dari orang berpuasa secara mutlak di bulan Ramadhan, karena kemuliaan waktu dan keadaan orang-orang yang berpuasa, lebih lagi dengan memperbanyak zikir. Yang paling utama adalah membaca Al-qur'an.

4. Menyengaja berdo'a dengan penuh semangat pada malam-malam sepuluh yang terakhir dengan harapan bertepatan dengan malam Lailatul Qadar, sebagaimana telah dishahih dari Nabi SAW bahwa Beliau mengajarkan do'a kepada Aisyah RA :

اللَّهُمَّ إِنَّكَ عَفُوٌ تُحِبُّ العَفْوَفَاعْفُ عنَّي

Ya Allah, Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemaaf dan menyukai maaf, maka maafkanlah aku".

Tidak shahih dalam hadits ini. "عَفُوٌ Setelah lafazh " " كَرِيْمٌ " kata Adapun tambahan

5. Do'a ketika berbuka:

ذَهَبَ الظَّمَأُ وَابْتَلَّتِ الْعُرُوْقُ وَشَبَتَ الأَجْرُ إِنْ شَاءَاللََّهُ

Telah sirna rasa haus, telah basah tenggorokan dan telah pasti pahala,jika Allah kehendaki.

Tentang do'a berbuka puasa ini telah diriwayatkan ada lima (5) macam yang tidak shahih, di antaranya dengan lafazh :

اللَّهُمَّ لَكَ صُمْتُ وَعَلَىرزْقِكَ أَفْطَرْتُ

Ya Allah, untukMu aku berpuasa dan dengan rizkiMu aku berbuka (Sanad hadits ini dhaif).

Begitu pula dengan lafazh lainya merupakan Sanad hadits yang dhaif (tidak shahih).
Ada riwayat dari Ibnu Umar RA secara marfu':

كَانَ النَّبِي إِذَا لَقَمَ أَوَّلَ لُقْمَةِ قَالَ: يَا وَاسِعَ الْمَغْفِرَةِ اغَفِرْ لِي.

Adalah Nabi SAW apabila menelan makanan untuk kali pertama beliau membaca : "wahai Dzat yang Maha luas mahfirahnya, ampunilah aku".

Kemudian hadits ini mutlaq (umum), tidak ada pengkhususan untuk puasa dan tidak pula untuk yang lain.

6. Do'a ketika berbuka puasa pada suatu kaum, dengan do'a yang artinya :
"Telah berbuka orang-orang yang puasa disisi kalian, telah memakan makanan kalian orang-orang yang baik dan para malaikat bershalawat atas kalian".

7. Do'a Tatkala sahur
Tetapi tidak ada do'a khusus untuk hal ini, namun karena keumuman firman Allah:

وَبِاْلأَسْحَارِ هُمْ يَسْتَغْفِرُونَ

Dan ketika sahur mereka beristighfar. (QS. Adz-Dzaariyaat 18).

8. Do'a ketika keluar dari bulan Ramadhan.
Hal ini ditunjukkan oleh alur ayat yang telah disebutkan.

9. Apabila seseorang mencaci atau mencelakai orang yang sedang berpuasa, maka hendaklah ia mengatakan: "Aku sedang berpuasa" sebagaimana yang disebutkan didalam shahihain (shahih Bukhari dan shahih Muslim) dan yang lain. Sama saja baik puasa sunnah atau puasa wajib. Apakah ini di ucapkan dengan suara keras atau pelan? Dalam hal ini terdapat ikhtilaf (perbedaan pendapat) dan yang shahih adalah di ucapkan dengan suara terang-terangan, inilah yang dipilih oleh Syaikhul Islam Ibnu Taimiyah Raakhiimullah.

I was just surfing the net when i came across this song... Sang by the Korean group, Dong Ban Shin Gi (DBSK) aka Tong Vfang Xien Qi (TVXQ) aka Tohoshinki (note: 1st-korean name, 2nd- chinese name, 3rd-japanese name.. why they need 3 different names for the 3 different countries is beyond me.. hehe)

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Anyway, apparently this is one of their latest single:-
Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattandarou (Why did i fall in love with you?)

Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)

Doushite…(Why..)
..kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou? (..couldn’t I call out to you at all?)
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi (Every day and night growing emotions)
Aturedasu kotoba (And words overflow)
Wakatteta noni (But I realised that)
Mou todokanai (They'd never reach you again)

Hajimete deatta sono hi kara (Since that day I first met you)
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda (I felt like I already know you)
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari (You and I melted into each other so smoothly)
Doko ni ibu nori mo issho de kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de (It was natural for me to be where you were)
Bokura wa futari de otonani natte kita (The two of us grew up together)
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi (But you've already chosen a different path)

Doushite… (Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto (No matter how much time has passed)
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni (I still thought you were right here)
Mou kanawanai (Now we can't turn back)

Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo (The special meaning held by this day)
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo (Today you stood with a happy expression)
Kireina sugata dekami sama ni chikatteru, kimi wo (You looked so beautiful while praying to god)
Boku janai hito no tonari de (But I wasn't the one next to you)
Shukufuku sareteru sugata wo (And the image of you receiving blessings)
Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou? (Of that how could i let go?)

Mou Doushite… (So, Why..)
..kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou? (..did i end up falling for you?)
Ano koro no bokura no koto (How we were before)
Mou modorenai (We can't return to it anymore)
kangaeta kangaeta/modorenai (We can't return/I've thought it through)

If you have never told her how you felt, how can you expect her to wait for you? agak hampeh jugak lelaki ini.. hehe..

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5.Put this on your journal.


1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
I miss you.. i do? sapa ek (who)?

2.How would you describe yourself?
Kasih Berubah.. hmm, i dont think so..

3.What do you like in a guy?
Les Yeux Ouverts (French Kiss) - haha.. u wish la..

4.How do you feel today?
Cahaya .. err, there was sunshine for a while this morning after a whole week of pouring rain..

5.What is your life's purpose?
La Bamba .. yup, i plan to live in La La land forever..hehe..

6.What is your motto?
Wajah Kesayangan Hamba .. meaning?

7. What do your friends think of you?
The Gift .. but of course.. *wink*

8.What do you think of your parents?
The way you make me feel loved..

9.What do you think about very often?
What hurts the most .. hmmm ..

10.What is 2 + 2?
Tak bisa memilihmu .. guess it doesn't equal to you..

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Tonight I celebrate my love ... :)

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Untitled .. how appropriate.. hehe..

13.What is your life story?
So Young .. so i am... hehe

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
By Your Side ..whomever you are..

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Asmara Ini .. hey, so not..!

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
The man you love ...i hope so..

17.What will they play at your funeral?
All Out Of Love

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Clumsy .. does this mean i'm too clumsy to have any hobby/interest?

19.What is your biggest fear?
I Don’t Want to be .. apa ek..?

20.What is your biggest secret?
Back At One ..shh..

21.What do you think of your friends
You’ll think of me ..& you will.. haha..

22.What will you post this as?
Wonderful Tonight


Anyone wants to try this is welcomed to it..

Saw the news on the net.. Lee Eon, a.k.a Korean drama Coffee Prince's Hwang Min Yeop, died on Thursday (22 Aug) due to a motorcycle accident.. omg.. apparently he was on his way home after a party when the accident occured. And the saddest part was, he's only 27 yrs old.. Guess we never really know when our time will come huh..

i so loved Coffee Prince.. It's basically a love story between Han Kyul, the rich, carefree heir & hardworking, down-on-her-luck, boyish looking Eun Chan.. They started falling for each other while working at Han Kyul's coffee shop, which his grandmother forced him to managed. However, chaos arises as Han Kyul who didn't know that Eun Chan's a girl, tries to deny his feeling for her..

Btw, Min Yeop is one of the "prince" who works in the same coffee shop, as well as Eun Chan's sister's boyfriend.. fuh, what a mouthful.. ;p

i think "James Lucas Scott" aka "Jamie" is the cutest kid ever.. hehe.. well, probably not, my nephews are wayy cuter/more handsome & much funnier.. hehe.. anyway, i l-o-v-e both of you, nephews.. muah!!

What happened to us? You know? I don't know who I am anymore. Or how I got here. I miss who I used to be. I wanna have a home again, you know? And real friends. You know, the kind of friendships we used to believe in. I miss that. And I miss you. I guess I miss all of it. Does any of that make any sense?

- Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill

Sometimes when you're young you think nothing can hurt you. It's like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans. Big plans. Find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older you realize it's not always that easy. It's not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you. You want to believe that you are leaving something good behind. You want it all to have mattered.

- Lucas Scott, One Tree Hill

Surah Al-Kautsar

Surah ini paling pendek, hanya mengandungi 3 ayat & diturunkan di Makkah dan bermaksud sungai di syurga. Kolam sungai ini diperbuat daripada batu permata nan indah dan cantik.

Rasanya lebih manis daripada madu, warnanya pula lebih putih daripada susu dan lebih wangi daripada kasturi.

Surah ini disifatkan sebagai surah penghibur hati Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. kerana diturunkan ketika baginda bersedih atas kematian 2 orang yang dikasihi iaitu anak lelakinya Ibrahim dan bapa saudaranya Abu Talib.

Pelbagai khasiat terkandung di dalam surah ini dan boleh kita amalkan:-

1 ) Baca surah ini ketika hujan dan berdoa, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. makbulkan doa kita.

2) Jika kita kehausan dan tiada air, bacalah surah ini dan gosok di leher, Insya'allah hilang dahaga.

3) Jika sering sakit mata, seperti berair, gatal, bengkak, sapukan air mawar yang sudah dibacakan surah ini sebanyak 10x pada mata.

4) Jika rumah dipercayai terkena sihir, baca surah ini 10x, mudah-mudahan Allah s.w.t. bagi ilham pada kita dimana letaknya sihir itu.

5) Jika membacanya 1,000x rezeki kita akan bertambah.

6) Jika rajin membacanya, hati kita akan menjadi lembut dan khusyuk ketika menunaikan solat.

7) Jika orang teraniaya dan terpenjara membacanya sebanyak 71x, Allah s.w.t . akan memberikan bantuan kepadanya kerana dia tidak bersalah tetapi dizalimi.

Perkara yg baik kita amalkan slalu.

Wassallam.

How do you feel if you came face-to-face with people from your past? People, who at one time, was a big part of your life .. or heck, just came across their pictures, of their happy lives, with someone else.. ? I mean, chances are, since they were your 'friend', they're also friends of your friends..meaning that chances of that happening are pretty good.. we somehow dont run thaaat far off from those few circles of friends that we have.. so yeah, you kinda never managed to get rid of them from your life...

These incidents are not made intentionally.. to specifically taunt you for some twisted reasons.. most of the time anyway, ha ha..

But when that happens, do you walk away ?
Do you take a walk down memory lane & think about the what-ifs ?
Do you resent them for being happy with other people instead of you?
or it just makes no difference to you maybe?

But, then, who am i kidding..? They may had meant something in my life at one time & that will never go away. That's just not life that i see for myself, as hard as it was to let go.. it was just not meant to be..

But man, if only la my life even makes sense right now, at least it wouldnt be so hard to not be jealous of other people's life.. ha..

I would so recommend seeing the new movie, Wall-e.. the story is so adorable & cute however, carries a very serious message. Salute to Pixar for being able to convey such a heavy message in a creative & lighthearted way.

I managed to catch the Sunrise action with Mdm KS. Really loved the last act - the violinist & the sax.. man, it was good..! those guys are really talented..

At this new company of mine, we've had to attend quite a number of trainings. So the other day, we had to attend a coaching training. However, what stayed in my mind was my discussion with a colleague after that session.

She was telling me about a similar training she attended before. I wasn't that surprised about that fact but because that training was organised by her church. Of course, I've already known her as a pretty religious girl, very active in church & so on. Anyway, she said that her church do organised a lot of these kinds of thing - leadership training, coaching etc. And she's told me on a number of occasion about her pastor whom she looked up to, who always put himself at their level, keeping abreast with the latest songs, slangs, lifestyle etc just to ensure that he's able to approach them. In fact, the church is organised in such a way very much like a business organisation - with a vision casters & a few levels of managers.

Listening to her, & not for the first time, makes me wonder... just look at how organised these people are & how stategic their approach towards youngsters are. Now, comparing that to our own religion, man.. bukan apa, buat malu ada ler.. I mean, you get these people in robes, going house to house inviting them to the mosques but folks you forget.. you're targeting those people who are already going to the mosques instead of those "kutu's" by the roadside. Plus all those fights occured coz people are of different political view - i mean, what is that all about?

Come on la people.. if you want people to love Islam, to want to approach Islam.. you've got to show it la.. For example, that ustaz Ahkil Hayy.. mmg ustaz rock abih, but i think he has a point..

Anyway, that's just my 2-cent worth of input for tonite, for whatever that's worth.

Way back then, slides was the craze in the states.. So i've got boxes & boxes of slides of my travels then, which btw i'm not able to check out coz the projector is already broken.. :(

So, I'm looking for a device which will able to convert slides (I think it's 33mm types) into digital images.. A friend of mine found this on the net, but i doubt it's sold locally.

http://www.hammacher.com/publish/74083.asp?promo=new_items#

Anyone knows if there's any shops who's able to perform this? Or can get hold of this item?

My new diet as of the day before include:
- No eggs & other food product with eggs
- No chicken & other food product with chicken
- No Beans

Uwa.. what to eat like that?

p/s: Luckily i found out that bread e.g Gardenia do not contain eggs.. otherwise i dont think i can survive through this.. must remember no kaya, no mayo, no... arghh..!

Erk.. had the scariest/weirdest dream last nite.. probably my fault as well, coz trying to watch a scary movie (Jangan Pandang Belakang) on Astro last nite.. watched it for abt 20mins, then thought i better not continue.. hehe.. karang sendiri takut, sapa nak tolong? ahaks..

Anyway, back to the dream.. i guess i was PD (since it's just been a couple of weeks back when i went there with my colleagues) or somewhere near a beach & some trees.. guess something happened, or some accident of sort, whereby me & 2 others got err.. killed kot.. and in a "Ghost Whisperer" style, my "ghost" went to search for my ex-colleague, trying to tell them what had happened to me..

I'm not the type to dwell on deathly matters, so the dream was kinda of an odd topic for me.. but then i could have been thinking abt those influx of local & foreign horror movies lately.. plus, i have heard some interesting ghost stories over lunch recently too.. hehe..

however, what i'm trying to really reflect upon is, how much do we really ponder over death.. people do say nothing clears your priority like death flashing across your mind.. and i was just thinking that if i die today, i don't think i have enough to carry me into the afterlife.. i mean, sure i try not to miss my prayers, i fast every now & then (other than ramadhan), i basically try to follow the rules.. but at times, i'm not sure if i'm truly there.. i dont dress properly e.g i still do the 3/4 sleeves & fitting clothes, my scarves are not always proper..i dont always check that my food are (truly) halal (ie i take for granted that it is, given that i live in this country..).. i dont always listen/join the 'ceramah's or religious talks.. i watch way too much tv & listen to too much music.. i dont always listen to my parents.. well, you get the picture..

and to really understand our roles & responsibilities to Allah in this world, well, it can be overwhelmingly scary to realise how far you are from the ideal.. at the end of it, i can only try my best & hope that my "niat"/intention is enough to win me a spot in 'syurga'(heaven)...insya allah...

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Who will you be? Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Will you let down your defenses and find solace in someone unexpected? Will you reach out? Will you face your greatest fears bravely or move forward with faith? Or will you succumb to the darkness in your soul? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
~ Lucas, One Tree Hill

It's okay to be afraid
of the things you don't understand.
It's okay to be anxious
when things aren't working your way.
It's okay to feel lonely...
even when you're with other people.
It's okay to feel unfulfilled
because you know something is missing
(even when you're not sure what it is.)
It's okay to think and worry and cry.

It's okay to do
whatever you have to do, but
just remember, too,
that eventually you're going to
adjust to the changes life brings your way,
and you'll realize that
it's okay to love again and laugh again,
and it's okay to get to a point where
the life you live
is full and satisfying and good to you...
and it will be that way
because you made it that way.

Laine Parsons

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So there's this boy.
He's really got my attention.
Bottom line - if he wants me.
I could be his.
But he don't.

So happy birthday to you, my friend.

My neighbour, way back in the Island, somehow located me on Facebook. So, i've like, have not seen him (physically) since we left high school.. although the first 1-2 years abroad, we've crossed path before, thru friends etc..

Anyway, he's inviting me to his wedding next month. To tell the truth, i'm not sure whether i want to go. Of course, first & foremost is the daunting task of "going thru" it alone.. I mean, i'm not too sure who's exactly attending this do.. the only mutual acquintance we have that i'm still in contact with is Mrs.BF, of course.. and well, anyone else that i might know there, are basically "people from my past", some whom i'm not too keen to run into..



if i've got a prince of my own, then at least by default i've got someone to drag to such occasions.. hehe.. but to drag one of my girlfriends, pity them too.. there wouldnt be anyone that they'd know there (i'd think so, but i could be wrong.. )

Plus, knowing this guy.. hmm.. and looking at his card & website (seriously, he created a website just to announce his wedding.. ish ish) .. i've got this uneasy feeling about the whole thing.. ntah ler..

but can't deny that i am curious to see how these people have turned out now.. the picture of them that i have at the back of my mind is still a bunch of kids in their white shirt & pants school uniforms.. hahah.. zaman2 budak2 bodoh dulu..


Mrs.BF - jom ler pergi with me..!! :(

Forget love - I'd rather fall in chocolate!
~Sandra J. Dykes

Mdm KS told me the good news earlier today.. Congrats babe!!

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Sometimes i wonder.. the Ex got married the same day as Mdm KS (well, probably earlier since the kenduri on his side was the same day as Mdm KS's).. if it was me, i wonder what my life would be like today.. going on to child no 2 maybe.. i dont know.. i havent heard from him since that last phone call with that invitation to his wedding..

i dont have regrets, but the what-if's do poke it's ugly head out sometimes.. would i have had my happy-endings? who knows, it could also be the worst nightmare (given some of my friend's experience) of my life.. only God knows best.. i know He has His plans for me but yet, sometimes i dont know if i am strong enough to face His tests..

Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings. ~Miles Franklin

p/s: I miss having someone "to tell it to"...

While we were preparing to receive our new GM in a welcoming party today, we were suddenly surprised by an announcement of a bomb threat. I, on my way to check on the food, almost dropped my jaws in surprised.. i mean, seriously? i've heard of it happening & i logically think that it is not impossible, but yet, it seem unreal that it would happen to us.. of course, i did not have some kind of whole-life-flashes-in-your-mind kinda thing.. i was too busy trying to settle/think abt the last minute details of the party & at the same time evacuating the premise etc.. hehe.. i know most of us take the whole thing lightly & made jokes about it, but what if la ek.. there was a real bomb? you people should really learn to walk faster (ie not melenggang).. i know it is 9/11 today but cant think of where we fit in this picture.. i mean we're not even a US-based company.. probably just coz we're big.. if it was my previous company, i wouldnt be surprised.. they are a well-known US company & the company logo i'm sure is way too obvious from the air..

msg'd my friend about it while waiting for the bomb squad clearance.. at first he didnt quite believe me and he supposedly planned to come over to the office today.. guess it's his lucky day today..


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I was watching Oprah the other day.. she was interviewing some ladies, Jennifer Aniston included.. who are first-timer director of short movies as part of Glamour magazine challenge.. i was quite interested in what one of the ladies' commented.. that there's so many women like me (ie singles), who have their heads up in the clouds (eg on ipod, phone or just plain ignoring other people) just "miss" the signs given to them by men..

is that so? i mean, i do know i can be a bit too "lurus" (naive - i think).. and i dont usually find it easy to connect with a stranger.. so yeah, maybe i am missing all the "signs" out there, but sometimes, the ones i do meet.. gives such confusing signals, that i cant even tell what exactly these people are trying to tell me.. either he dont know how to woo a girl (ie give the right signal) or he's just plain not interested. ntahler.. to pursue doesnt seem right, but not to pursue also sounds very wrong.. ;p

so can you blame a girl for not 'seeing' the signs.... ?

I picked up this song from a cd i bought in France during the milleninum new year. We were on our way back from our day trip to Geneva, Switzerland to my senior's friend's place. My senior, she wanted to buy some French songs to remember our trip there. So we stopped by this mall we found & since both of us knows next to nothing about french musics, we just grabbed a cd each. Somehow, she ended up with a french artist's english album instead.. hehe.. poor her..

I on the other hand, bought a compilation album, with some familiar english songs mixed with french ones.. When i heard this song, i was totally hooked.. wished i could watch the actual Notre Dame de Paris musical.. (yeah, right... i can barely afford to watch any theater here.. let alone go to Paris to watch one..)..

p/s: can you believe that Garou (the first singer) played Quasimodo? he is soo good looking & that voice.. need i say more?

Belle, the original cast (Garou, Daniel Lavoie & Patrick Fiore)

Silence...

Doesn't mean I'm gone..





Quiet...

Doesn't mean i dont care..




But deep down in my heart somewhere,
You are remembered and always cared.......

There are moments when you just suddenly stop, step out from the moving wheel of life and wonder is there more to life than this? You look at the wheel that continued moving, you look at the people on it – some that you know, others that you don’t – and you start asking yourself, is this what you want in life?
As more years are added onto you, these moments start to come more frequently. Signs of maturity perhaps, but maybe it’s just our destiny. Maybe we’ve always been on a journey. And these ‘moments’ are just triggers to bring us back on track.
I don’t know.
Right now, I’m still standing still, watching the wheel move past me.

I need a...

boyfriend..

or an escort.. :(

or a driver would do... muahaha...

It's my girlfriend's wedding this weekend up north..
and i've got no one to go with (or rather to drive me).. uwaa..

I rather not drive myself, altho, if need to, i guess it's not such a big deal..
However, my mum does make a big fuss over it, which i so do not want to get into that now..
And since she's also going (we're only gonna be meeting there), i cant exactly show up & not explain how i got there.. heheh..

Unless of course there are other ppl going to the wedding as well...
& willing to take in this hitchhiker along.. i'm all game for it.. *wink*

Went to visit Mrs.BestFriend just now.. She's doing fine but her baby (currently named "Baby F" as the parents dont wanna divulge the name till he's been registered.. ;p) was still in the incubator earlier.. even her parents have yet to meet their new grandson..

Baby F did arrive right on the dot, but apparently his lung's a little weak/under-developed & doc suspected some infections etc.. anyway, we spied on him from the corner of the nursery & he looks pretty fine to us.. he's only abt 2.6kg when he was born, but i'm sure not for long.. he''d be up & running before you know it...*wink* probably was just trying to scare/play a trick on his parents kot.. ahaks.. you've got a joker on your hand babe! hehe..

Anyway, i hope.. no i'm sure he's gonna be fine & be gorgeous and all..

A shout out to Mrs.BestFriend..

A new person
Has arrived on earth
A tiny little one
A very special birth

Congratulations to you
For the birth of your son
You must be filled with joy
For this special one

"At this moment there are six billion, five-hundred and two million, eight
hundred and sixty seven thousand one hundred and twenty people in the world-give
or take a few. And sometimes all you need is one. For better or for worse."

-One Tree Hill

Kesian my friend sorang ni.. 2 weeks ago her parents was supposed to fly for umrah, but got stuck due to visa problem.. also she had a hell of a week, being ill but cant take leave coz trying to tie up her work before she go for the study leave (last week) for an exam that was due last saturday.. not to mention preparing for her wedding in june..

aleh2.. i guess everything was taking it's toll on her.. she had some major headache & found a lump (ie bengkak) on top of her head (plus i guess her fever wasnt better since she first had it).. so masuk la hospital.. doc says that the lump was nothing to concern about, but they want to check her sinusitis.. eh, pulak?.. she also didnt know she has any sinus problems, a minor one maybe, but no real sinus problem.. anyway, she's been in hospital pantai indah since last thursday & going for the operation this morning..

went to see her yesterday.. and i didnt even know where is this hospital pantai indah.. ;p nasib baik ler jumpa.. hehe.. her parents & siblings was there, as well a bunch of relative on their way out.. good thing that her parents are here instead of in Mekah too.. ada hikmah rupanya diorg tak dapat pergi..

oh ya, the exam will have to be postponed to september instead..

Auww.. my ex-colleagues called me up just now (well, rather one of them wanted to ask me abt some workings, while the other just wanted to hi).. she was telling me abt how much they missed me & how the place now feels slightly emptier without me.. (or rather how i'm no longer there to bug her really.. hehe.. i used to ask her all sorts of questions coz she's pretty senior over there..) and now that another of my ex-colleague is also leaving to join me here, she was pretty much devastated.. poor lady.. ;p

and no, i did not 'pujuk' my friend tuh to follow me regardless what some might think... although i guess she finally decided to accept after she found out that i accepted the offer. But it will be good for her as she'd get a chance to become a manager here... & i get a buddy to learn the ropes here together.. :)

Overall, have not gone full swing on the work yet.. still helping out here & there, rather than starting on my actual job.. so can't comment much on that.. of course, the nature of this job requires me to go back to basics.. erk, left those for so long, can barely remember them.. hehe..

the only other thing that bothers me (& just abt every other person who drives) abt here is the parking.. at the moment, i'm coming in pretty early & going back, i guess you can call it normal hours.. hehe.. this means, my sleeping & mealtime is totally screwed up .. i'd be having breakfast wayy early, then lunch at 12 (before lunch hour was 12.30, which i dont always go on time anyway..).. so then i'd get so darn sleepy & hungrier in between meal times.. aiyo, how la to conform to my diet like this..? and i so need to, esp since in may timeframe, got lots of kenduris to go to :(

"The point of living and of being an optimist, is to be foolish enough to believe the best is yet to come."
Peter Ustinov

Last quarter, the ex-boss gave our team a set of voucher each to dine at any of the restaurants in KL Hilton. I have been putting it off long enough & decided to use it before it expires next month.. One of the guys tried the Sudu Restaurant, but he wasnt too impressed by it. Guess he thought that for such value, the food could have been better. But a posh places like this, you're usually paying more for the ambiance/name/etc rather than the food.. right?

Someone suggested that i try either the Chinese or Japanese Restaurant.. Luckily both me & my date had a preference for japanese food for now & decided to go for the Jampagne buffet at Iketeru Restaurant last weekend.

The buffet was from 12-2.30pm for abt RM98++/pax (drinks not included). there's abt 100 dishes to pick from.. and you can order & repeat order as many as u like, max of 5 dish at a time.. within the hour given of course.. there's so many that we wanted to try.. hehe.. besides 2++ hrs was not long enough for a buffet spread.. especially with the both of us chatting non-stop through out the meal.. hehe.. the restaurant itself was quite impressive.. nice ambiance, cosy layout, attentive service and the food's pretty good.. hehe.. my date was totally in love their wasabi, apparently it has more 'kick' than most places he's been to..

overall verdict, i wouldnt mind doing it again.. good food, great place, cool company.. :)

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question......

"What kind of man are you looking for?"

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking.

"Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said, "Yes."


She began to expound... As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"


The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.


She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.


She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man."

I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster.

I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden.

I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded.

I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face.

He said, "You're asking a lot."

She replied, "I'm worth a lot."


Send this to every woman who's worth a lot and every man who needs to know that.

Hmm... i havent updated this blog for so long.. almost forgot that i have one.. haha.. the last few month have been such a whirlwind of activities, so didnt have the time to blog, nor check out other people's blog, much.. hehe..

Anyway, to those who still havent heard the news, i have left the present company & moved on to a new one.. I now have joined the steps of my ex-unimates & joined the oil&gas industry, altho as a rival instead.. hehe.. :)

How & why? I guess it was just time.. plus if i stayed any longer that the old place, i think i would have died of burn-out.. ;p life wasnt easy there.. not that it's any easier here (although that's what i'm hoping for..), but it will be a fresh start for me.. plus, i got a better offer here & hopefully a better future.. will see how it goes.. but wish me luck, kay..

haha.. guess what...? just met up with one of my ex-colleague yesterday.. he laughingly told me this story that's being going around since i left.. apparently when i told then i'm leaving for "personal reasons", which btw, i meant that i am 'personally fed-up with the people & getting burn-out there..'.. they came up with some story that i had some kinda of an affair with a married man & when it didnt work out, i decided to leave..

huh? me? get real.... he's just one of my lunch-buddies & the gang does include another single girl (which i've also heard that she's being subjected to the same speculation..).. & few other guys, whom rarely join us since these guys spend most of their time travelling.. aiyoo.. grow up la.. just because there are some people who do it, doesnt mean everyone else are.. there are man & woman out there who can be matured enough to be "just friends" you know.. besides, my friend tuh, never stops talking abt his wife & kids.. plus he, being "big brother" to me & the other girl, forever trying to 'menyibuk' abt our love life anyway & bugging us to get married asap.. so yeah right, we are "having an affair" with him.. & meeting up with his wife & kids during weekends at that.. very the interesting drama, huh... hehe.. besides, he has such a gorgeous wife that even his wife is not worried that he'd stray.. ahaks..

Anyway, gotta start with my training for now.. later...

Capricorn -Monday, 13th November 2006
Suppose you require a new sofa. Your old one is most uncomfortable. You have to carefully arrange the cushions just to sit down for just a few moments. Should you keep the current piece of furniture until you have a replacement - or should you throw it out? That, more or less makes a metaphor for your current dilemma. You may be far better off with nothing to sit on than with the wrong sort of seat. The latter will encourage you to put up with a poor situation for longer than you should.

Apart from this being a zodiac reading thingy & how u should not believe in it yadda yadda yadda..., it does express exactly what's in my mind right now.. if i follow what my heart says, i'd probably "throw the old sofa" today regardless when i'll get the new one.. but practicality has been drummed into my head since forever, which means that i'll put up with the old one til i get the replacement.. but i so dont want to.. :( at times like this i wished that i'm much more of a risk taker but can't shush away that little voice in my head telling me that i should not be burning my bridges unless i'm sure i can get to the other side safely.. *sigh*

Hmm..havent written in a long while.. dunno where to start already.. hehe..

OK, let start with the raya stories.. raya was a full house this year.. Abang decided to raya in penang this year, plus both his younger brother/sister... of course, after raya prayers, some salam2 & photo sessions, they left to go beraya with their dad & their dad's side..

Muah had to do some work during the hols tho :(.. altho, time raya, every gets pushed aside la... but of course.. :D had our yearly raya rounds to my mum's aunt/uncles houses on the 1st day, but came 2nd raya, so lazy to go anywhere.. with the rainy season an all.. hehe.. even tho we left for KL on wed, decided not to stop by our 'kampung', instead went straight back home.. did go for a few rounds of beraya with my parents here in kl, but otherwise, stayed home or went shopping instead.. so-the anti-social this year.. ahaks..

I didnt really have time to make anything for raya, but the 1batch of biscuits i made, ada org minat weh..akak tuh siap minta resepi lagi.. hehe.. so can make more la in future.. ahaks.. there's a few stuff i wanted to try out, but didnt have a chance.. plus who's gonna finish it up? ;p

The thing was, since came back from raya.. i think i've been working like 14-15hrs a day.. urgh..including the team building thingy we had last week.. beraya ngan org pun belum ni..
:( hopefully i'm able to take the day off tomorrow.. wish me luck! anyway, got 2 open house to go to this weekend plus the company annual dinner on sunday..

I know it's still a few more days to go, but might as well la.. just got in hometown this morning.. my head is wayyy spinning by now..only had like 2 hrs of sleep last nite, before i had to wake up for sahur & leave the house to catch my flight at 7am.. well, i'd say hopefully i'll get an uninterrupted hols, but seeing i havent finished my work really, (which by the way, so not in the mood to do), cant blame them, right.. :( so must finish it tomorrow, a must..

anyway, got another problem to think over this raya.. aiyoo..


To all those folks out there, if i had done any wrongs to you, intentionally or not, i sincerely ask for your forgiveness, from the bottom of my heart.. Drive carefully & dont forget to invite me to your Open Houses.. hehe..
Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin.. !


P/S: To Mdm.Neighbour.. congrats on your new addition.. beraya with baby girl la tahun ni ek.. :) will go visit once u come back from hometown after pantang, i assume ..

It’s easy to choose between right and wrong. It’s choosing either the greater between two goods and the lesser between two evils that gives a greater challenge. And that is how life is.

MsBestFriend is now officially MrsBF....she has finally left the "singleton" world and joined the "married couples" group...

I wish you all the happiness in the world, girl! Take good care of each other now.. ;D

Hehe.. been so long since i've updated anything.. too much to think about, too busy to do anything abt it, too depressed abt too many things.. ahaks..

Erk.. Ms.BestFriend is getting married next week.. Hmm.. now have to share her with Mr.BF.. :( Well, he 'd better be good to her..which he is, so far.. so need to go shop for wedding gift this weekend.. any ideas huh?

mua? although not quite ready to follow the cliche of being a single-with-a-cat type person (and no plans of getting a cat anytime soon.. hehe).., but so do not feel like "melayan" guys with requests such as "wants a girl who wears baju kurung/kain all the time" .. yeah..yeah.. this girl loves her jeans okay? so dont hold your breath just yet..

Will have to update abt my trip to Sabah later.. a quick quiz for the weekend..Have a good one people!

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books. You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more. For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests. A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"

-Carrie Bradshaw From Sex and the City

Argghh.. the most frustrating thing abt current work situation is that i'm working blindly.. heck, dunno la what i'm doing.. can la, get the blind to lead the blind.. haha.. erghh... cant take the pressure weh..!! and the workload..*sigh*.. isnt there a "simpler" job that i can do instead?


been listening to this anyway.. even if not related to the topic..hehe

Artist: Lifehouse
Song: Blind

Lyric:
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

How can u say that U “know” I kinda have a lot on my plate which i MUST complete by today, so why dont I “prioritise” my work, in order to get it done when it's your work that i'm trying to salvage on top of my own work?? … aiiyyyyooooooo… ada yg nak kena lempang ni…

Oh no...I’ve already got some major ulcers.. totally dried lips (which somehow my lipbalm not having any affects)..and jerawat – arghh!! getting break outs merata2.. this job is totally not good for my body.. or mind for that matter.. :(

Errkk.. tell me why again did i take up this field of job? ntah ler.. ;p still trying to figure that out.. hehe..

These days, i'm stuck in the office till late.. trying to understand what exactly i'm doing.. the one i'm replacing has left & my replacement have yet to come.. great planning huh? typical!

okla.. i'm just abt 4 weeks-old into this new job of mine & heck, i'm still lost.. i guess that's expected, right? but still, doesnt help that there's load of datelines to meet.. i think i shud go home now.. cant think no more.. i'll figure out later what to say in the meeting tomorrow..that is if i can answer at all.. hehe..

I'm stressed...

I'm tired...

I wanna go home..

uwaa...!! :(

Life is full of people who will make you laugh, cry, smile until your face hurts, and so happy that you think you’ll burst. But the ones who leave their footprints on your soul are the ones that keep your life
going.
-Natalie Bernot

Hmm...was just checking my friendster earlier.. surprise, surprise... my a-level junior, Miss.Junior is in my ‘new friend requests’.. eh, I thot she didn’t like me? Well, you know, with Mr.JealousWife issue & other stuff (wayyy too long a story to tell and not something i'd want to tell here..), we were not exactly the best of friends when we were at school..

Plus I’m a nobody mah (in her books that is.. ahaks).. not some high flying achiever nor related/friends with any big-shots, doing the name-dropping thingy.. i couldn't care less about such stuff then... or ever, really... hehe..

Come to think of it, I have had no contact with any of my juniors at all since I left the school.. was actually hoping to stay that way really.. hehe.. terrible huh? no wonder I have so many “enemies”.. but I did promise myself, not to associate myself with ppl who don’t like me..or at least to minimize the contact.. ahaks.. it's easier on the mind.. and heart..

by Tiger

I think I have heard
An unspoken word.

I seem to hear
Something so clear.

It is in your eyes
And in your smile.

Unspoken, yet there
All the while.

Although sometimes i think i'm just "hearing" the unspoken words because i so wanted it to be said.. ;p

Every word I say, I mean it
Every single day, I feel it

But sometimes when you talk
It’s obvious you want to show it
So don’t blow it

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
That keeps me hangin on

I can read the signs between us
I feel it inside when you come nearer
There’s a stillness in the air like no one else is there
And every moment stays in the moment
Yeah

Sometimes it hurts to watch you leave
It feels like you’re taking a part of me with you
I never know how it’ll be
I guess it’s just a mystery
But is it the real thing (that keeps me hangin on)

Tell me what we got, tell me it’s a lot, tell me it’s the real thing
Tell me not to change and always be the same, tell me that’s a good thing
It’s a good thing
Tell me not to lie, tell me not to wait
Tell me that you want the same things as me
Tell me that it’s fate, driving me insane
Tell me it’s the real thing
The real thing…
~ by Bo Bice

Is this the real thing? Ntah ler.. i hope so..

I was visiting a sick family friend yesterday with my parents.. they (the immediate family and some close relatives) were planning to have some baca yassin session for the pakcik and invited us to join in.. i've known them literally my whole life, heck, the makcik was there when i was born..hehe.. anyway, as she was busy preparing for the guests as well as trying to cater to pakcik's needs, she said that she was hoping that her only daughter might be able to come. She lives not that far away, but in actual fact, she is pretty much been cut off from her own family..

You see, the husband is some hot-shot rich guy.. he not only forbid her from wearing any makeup whatso ever (and she's an ex-stewardess at that) or working, she is also not allowed to go out of the house unless accompanied by him or his mother/sister.. and that includes her own parent's house.. duh! and yes, she has tried to get him to compromise/change/understand, but after a while, she has totally given up & decided that she's only living for the sake of her daughter and doesnt care what become of herself anymore.... and now, she can't even come home to visit her sick father!! Her own father, for god-sakes.. masya allah..!! I wonder how one can be such small minded and tak berhati perut langsung.. (disclaimer: tak tau ler pulak kalau they have some valid reason whatsoever for not coming.. but then again, their current living situation have not change as far as i know.. )

You have a daughter of your own, you know.. what if when you are old & sick, she doesnt come back to see you? And so far, you only have one child, at least they have their sons, although that doesn't lessen the pain.. If that happens, i'd say, padan ler muka sendiri.. but then again, one shouldn't wish for such things, right?

Anyway, i wish all the best to the family in this trying times..

***************
Looking at them, it makes me realise that my parents are not as young as they used to be.. in fact, we were on our way back from 'berurut' at a relative's house coz my dad's been having migraine lately.. :o nothing serious of course, but hopefully it will help..

waa.. some kind of baby boom season or something these days? just found out, apart from both my ex-housemates, two of my ex-schoolmates during A-levels also just gave birth..

hmm.. patut terasa ke? hehe.. maybe not.. ahaks..

Just wanna say congrats to my ex-housemate & hubby.. their baby girl was safely delivered early this morning.. alhamdulillah.. will try to drop by SJMC during my lunch hour later..

your true color is Blue!

You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!

http://web.tickle.com/rd/50631/

However, lately, i can't seem to maintain a hold on that supposedly 'calmness' of mine.. ;p ntah ler.. my mum said it's coz of that thyroid thingy.. i'd get irritated on the smallest of things.. i know that there's people out there with much much worst problems that mine, but still i dwell too much on my own minuscule issues.. have to remind myself to belajar bersyukur banyak2 :p

be thankful for what you have.. and not think abt what you don't.. right?

Hish.. my transfer is gonna be postponed for at least another 1 1/2 mth.. what la.. what to do? first, they promised me that it would be 1st january.. then due to my manager leaving the company, postponed it to Mar.. then, my boss transferred himself out of the job, leaving me with 2 new managers in charge.. erk! senang nye dia transfer out within 1 week.. kita nie dah 3 bulan, still takde pa per.. hampeh..

now the guy who's suppose to swap jobs with me is leaving the company, so the boss said that he cant afford (read: too scared) to let me go as no one else have my extended (chewah, iye ke?) knowledge of the job.. wah, i'm so flattered la that you love me so much that you wont let me go.. but then again, how long you want me to keep me here? :( dah penat la wey.. i can't exactly be halfway here & halfway there, right?

whatever la.. whenever you think you'll able to make a decision, then tell me.. dah malas nak pikir..

It's not too much for a girl to ask for, is it? I never asked for money or titles or even looks.. all i wanted was for you to love me.. as it is, no one around me does..

Guess it's just my luck.. just when i thought i finally managed to touch my dreams, it shattered to pieces around me..

Takpe la.. aku redha dengan ujian Allah buatku..

Darn it... :(

Had my checkups yesterday & the doc says maybe we shud have cut down on the dosage as per planned abt a month ago.. but during the last checkup, he said my pulse rate was still not stabil enough (ie has not reached the targeted rate at abt 80).. anyway, now he says that maybe my reading last time was a little screwed up, so now looks like my current dosage may be a little too much.. cheh.. now you tell me..!

so no wonder la recently been feeling so fat (I’m sure I havent change much of what I eat lately..i think la).. also been so depressed & having weird mood swings.. sluggish & slow.. thot I was just depress abt my job & abt other stuff plus having my PMS or something.. altho was kinda puzzled as to why i'm so stressed out right now.. guess got my answers for now..

so doc's gonna cut down my medication for the next 2 weeks & i will have to start weighting myself everytime i see him.. hmm.. so does that mean i can't go on a diet? aiyak.. and i've got a wedding to go to next month.. how to lose these weights in the mean time?

uwaa.. help!!

Just Remember
by ~Ang~

When all the weight of the world,
seems to rest on your shoulders alone,

Just remember,
it is because you are strong.

When everyone turns to you,
when their lives are falling apart,

Just remember,
it is because you have cared.

When work pushes you,
until you are on overload,

Just remember,
it is because you are a success.

When family issues arise,
and it is difficult to cope,

Just remember,
it is because you are human.

When everything begins,
to be "just too much",

Just remember,
you can count on me,

to be there,
to remind you,

that you are strong,
caring and successful.

To remind you,
that you are loved.

When the weight of the world,
seems to rest on your shoulders alone,

Just remember, .
it doesn't... you can call on me.

There are days when you think that you can't go on, remember that out there.. there are people who loves you, who cares.. if only we take the time to let them in.. and over the weekend, this fact was proven to me..

It was totally unrelated of course.. my girlfriends just happened to invite me out for lunch at Pyramid just to catch up on things.. i was feeling a little overwhelmed & admittedly, a little let down by someone.. so i wasn't quite my usual self with the girls.. But i forgot.. that these girls are more than just friends to me.. they're my 'other' family.. we've been there for each other's ups & downs, being on the other side of the world from our own families.. and they know me & care for me, more than i realised.. Thanks babes!! Muaahhh!!

And what wonders some bit of loving and a fun outing can do to your spirits.. :D we should spread more love around us, people.. it'll do you good.. !

Oh no..! Bro was just telling me this morning that his company is planning to lay off quite a substantial number of people.. erk..!! surely not?? I mean, sure it was kinda expected with all those rumours going on, but even i wasn't expecting this kind of number... i doubt that he'd be affected, but then again, given the number they plan to layoff, almost no one is indispensible.. ish ish ish.. sabar je la bang ek..

So if anyone know of any positions out there for a senior exec with 7-8yrs experience in flight/operations management... or something along that line.. do tell me me, ya..

Managed to touchdown to KLIA just before 9am yesterday.. Alhamdullilah..!!
I'll start with the ending, just to get it out of my system..

I was supposed to be back on the 18th, reaching KLIA on the 19th.. just nice la.. took Monday off, to rest plus settle my car service etc.. aleh2.. on 18th morning, right when we were abt to leave for tawaf wida' (the goodbye tawaf/walking around the kaabah), our group leader called us in for a meeting. Apparently our seats have been cancelled...... huh? what? aaa..!! everyone was like stunned.. he explained that apparently the airline overbook their flight by abt 40 seats, and seeing that there's on 14 of us (under group booking), they've decide to cancel our ticket for 18th & provided seats for the locals instead.. for what, u might ask? coz these ppl want to come over to KL to watch the F1.. how is that possible, you want to know? when dealing with such people, sorry to say that such things are not rare occurance.. adeh.. how la?? our bag are already waiting in front of the hotel awaiting for us to complete our wida' & for the bus to pick us up la wey..
after lots more phone calls that morning, KL office says that the matter has been settled & that we should head to the airport.. we didnt quite buy it, but lets try anyway.. off we went for the tawaf wida', with chaos minds.. the group leader, who's also the owner of the tourgroup that we went with, his youngest daughter was admitted to hospital earlier that morning...his brother, who's with us needed to be admitted to the hospital due to his advance stage of diabetes (but came with us anyway as a last resort)... the estate manager has to pay his people's salary on monday... the doctor had a surgery scheduled on thursday.. me, you know la, the only reason my phone has not been ringing off the hook is coz i told them i wont have coverage over there (well, plus i can't charge my battery either).. - see how badly all of us had to go home??!!

Anyway, the flight was at 5, & we were still fighting with the airlines guys by 4.. so definitely no chance of that then.. by then, we were told to decide whether to return to Makkah or stay in Jeddah for the confirmation.. we're trying to get the next flight out which was the next evening, but also turned out to be fully booked.. in fact tried to get 4 seats, for the brother+wife & estatemanage+wife.. but was told to wait for the decision.. since we're already staying that the Jeddah hotel under the airline's expenses, even before knowing the turnout for the next day's flight.. and finally told that no one will fly earlier than the 21st, we finally decided to accept our fate.. there's no other flight in between that and luckily, if you can call that, the airline decided to confirm our ticket together with the second group (another 14's initery included staying in Makkah till the 21st). Otherwise, i'd shudder to think about it..

as my mum put it.. maybe god has decided that our group, mostly being professionals and all, had deserved this extra rest, all paid for, after we've completed our umrah & before we start back our hectic lifestyle.. in that case, what can we say, but alhamdullillah...

I'll be leaving for umrah the day after tomorrow..
Doakan i selamat pergi & selamat kembali.. insya allah..

Argghh.. next time remind me NOT to be bridesmaid no more.. :(

Eh, did I tell u that the bride was deaf? So’s the groom, but the groom can read lips & speak a little… but she’s really pretty tho & really2 sweet..

I didn’t go for the akad, although the auntie did invite me.. it was kinda an afterthought type of invitation, and she didn’t really invite my parents either..so.. malas ah.. anyway, apparently, the groom had to write down the lafaz akad, although the tok kadi insist that he also “say” it secara lisan.. in any way, as long as he understands it.. interesting huh.. ?

Anyway, abt those practice2 stuff.. aiyo.. red carpet only goes so far la.. come on la, how big is kelana jaya seafood pun, right?.. dunno why la they are so particular abt it.. the other pengapit wanted to speak/practice 1 last round before the actual one, but coz the bride’s parent tuh so busy asking me to change outfit la, change tudung la.. i didnt really want to wear the original outfit coz it's waay too big on me, but since they insist, whatever la.. the fitters pun so la the stuck up.... in fact, didnt even tell me that there's an extra tudung that I can wear.. last minute finally told me abt it & helped me wear it... cheh..

Anyway.. I don’t mind to help you people out & stuff.. but being a pengapit is meant to be in the background, isnt it? surely not meant to ‘steal the thunder’ from the pengantin right? ni dah la tak sponsor outfit pun nor tell me exactly what u want.. pastuh lagi mau ini, nak itu, tak nak camnie, aiyoo.. namanye menyusahkan org tau !